February 28, 2007

Labels: current events

hihirit pa eh!

February 27, 2007 kasasabi ko lang na sana pagbigyan naman ako ng isang araw man lang di sumakit ulo ko..humihirit pa e!

nampoota.

Labels: rantings

a day of gifts..

when i woke up this morning, my first thought was, i need my coffee. when i reached for the coffe and sugar container, i saw that the sugar was almost empty, so i opened a new bag. and after opening it, leave it to me to nudge it so that almost a quarter of the bag laid scattered at the counter and underneath the stove. gadeymit. what a way to start the morning. a mess. but i didnt know that that same mess was to be a good omen, that this day might just give me the right amount of sweetness that i need to lift my spirits up.

first thing in the morning we all got a mail from our mother dear which states that we are given an annual clothing allowance. yes, you read it right. we are given money to shop for clothes (inclusive of accesories and shoes) hehe! that's one expense that i can subtract from my monthly dues. which means more saving for me!! yeye!

after our strategic dressing workshop, people in the office start to make an effort to dress properly, me included..although with great struggle as i have limited clothes to mix and match, and almost zero accessories. i knew i had a lot of earrings and bracelets before but for some reason, they all went awol.

anyway, come tomorrow, i want to hit the mall and splurge on whatever is given to me. top of my list being a dark denim that actually fits me (the one i have wont fit my balyena-butt anymore, shiyet) lets go shooooppppiiiinnnggggg! weeeeeeeeh!

then this email also came in this am

CHRISTIAN WAYS TO REDUCE STRESS

An Angel says, "Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may happen tomorrow and it doesn't happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it does happen, you have to worry twice."

1. Pray

2. Go to bed on time. (not until i finish barnyard. ben got killed and otis left! and i dont think the animals would allow any of the jersey cows to be head cow!! yes i am that affected!)

3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed. (oopppss...im one sleepy head, i try to sleep as much as i can.)

4. Say No to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health. (but what if its already comprimised?)

5. Delegate tasks to capable others. (i wish i can)

6. Simplify and unclutter your life. (but i live for the clutter. hehehe! pasaway)

7. Less is more. Although one is often not enough, two are often too many. (korek korek)

8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places. (i want to, can i?)

9. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together. (sometimes im left with no choice.)

10. Take one day at a time.( this i learned from barnyard)

11. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you do and let go of the anxiety . If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it. (ill keep this in mind)

12. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases. (can i sms this to someone?? hay)

13. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc. (i have backups and more junk. hehehe)

14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble. (patience is a virtue)

15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday. (that, my friends, is what Barnyard is for!)

16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line. (come to think of it, i never had the time to read anything lately)

17. Get enough rest. (pwede!)

18. Eat right. (eat a lot. hehe...but yeah i try to, sometimes)

19. Get organized so everything has its place. (hmmmm...)

20. Listen to a tape/cd while driving that can help improve your quality of life. (i have my dwighty)

21. Write down thoughts and inspirations.

22. Every day, find time to be alone.

23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot.. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.

24. Make friends with Godly people.

25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.

26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thank you Jesus."

27. Laugh.

28. Laugh some more!

29. Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.

30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can). (yeah yeah yeah...fine..i am.but as kris says, its a process)

31. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most). (i will)

32. Sit on your ego. (do i have one? only when i want to embarass myself)

33. Talk less; listen more.

34. Slow down.

35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.

36 . Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before. GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU. "If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31)

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we also went to the ABS trade party. i got alot of stuff. promise. i think i got the most stuff, and good ones too. hehehe! and yes, i answered the trivias like i was playing in Pilipinas game ka na ba! ahahaha! i can be too happy sometimes!

sana buong gabi ganito. kahit ngayong araw lang please...

Labels: change, current events

BV

February 26, 2007 i cant think. poota. presyur! presyur!

i want to cry.

i want to crawl under my bed and never come out again. can i live there?

eto nanaman po tayo. pls naman, you have to learn how to be responsible. anlaki laki mo na e! i dont know how long i can put up with this.

seriously!

naaapektuhan trabaho ko.

gusto ko nalang maglaho. seriously.

Labels: b*tch mode, rantings

coz i always wanted a pet panda

February 22, 2007 for the longest time, ive wanted to own a panda bear.

seriously.

but until i can make a bamboo sanctuary in my room enough to fit it when it becomes an adult, or someone would invent a cloning device that would make it small enough that a full-grown one would just fit my palm--then my online pet panda, mr fuzzy wuzzy, would have to do.

isn't he the cutest? ALAVET! pls be good readers-slash-petsitters and feed him some bamboo. :)

Labels: kababawan

shoes and love

February 21, 2007 i was walking along ayala this morning, semi-trotting (coz im almost late) with a pair of shoes ive only worn for the 4th time since my mom gave it to me.

during the first 3x, i get blisters by day's end because of the material (and the fact that im yet to learn how to "walk it"). people always say that since its new, blisters are expected. you're feet should hurt for the first few times you wear them but eventually the material will soften.

but has anyone ever thought that its not really that the material has softened after a few uses. maybe after months of abuse, yes, but for the 4th time? did it ever occur to anyone that it might be because our skin becomes tougher and that the pain becomes tolerable since you love the shoes you are wearing, you wont notice how much pain it causes. the credit therefore is not to the shoe, but to the foot that is wearing it.

It all boils down to making choices. you choose to suffer the few days of pain, just until your feet is used to it already that its almost non-existent.

Just like love. you put your foot into a relationship that you think suits you. you have all this fantasies of the walks you're going to take together, the time you're going to spend in each others company, places you could go, the path to forever.

but then it hurts you, most of the time, unintentionally. but the first is the most painful, the biggest blister of all. yet you choose to forget about it and go through with it. again it burns your skin, and again, and again, but as time goes by the pain seem to diminish. you get used to it that you dont notice it anymore. you chose to stick with your favorite pair, that's all there is to it.

kahit ano pa ang sabihin ng ibang tao, kahit may oras na nasasaktan ka, masaya ka sa pares mo. para sayo, its a perfect fit.

but love, just like any shoe, needs work-it has to be taken care of. there's a certain amount of effort to be exerted for it to last. Like your lola's favorite pair of tsinelas, it could look tattered but its the strongest and most comfortable pair in the lot because although she used it often, she took extra care of it.

other shoes, either due to low quality or overuse and abused, were retired. because it can only take so much. when neglected, if abused, it can lose a heel, can get detached from the sole, or have a hole big enough that you would know if its heads or tail when you step on a coin. its an inevitable casualty.

and the thing is, with love, there's no Mr. Quicky to put it back to shape.

Labels: love drunk, realizations

addictus

February 20, 2007 it's official, im hooked! i had to drag myself upstairs last night, or rather this morning, to get some sleep. you should've seen me, i was so intent at what i was doing that the apartment could be set on fire, robbed, or powdered by an earthquake and i wouldn't notice. all because of a game. hehehe! adik!

it was actually a movie, which of course they turned into a game. much like my favorite, harvest moon w/c by the way im lamenting over, for the CD of Harvest Moon SE doesnt work anymore. ill have to buy me another one. hay. but this suffice my craving for diversion anyway.

so what am i going gaga over and losing sleep for? this...


again, its similar to harvest moon, everyday you experience farm life, only this time, you're no farmer, you're a cow. you interact with the other farm animals, do some work, harvest stuff, protect the farm, etc. there are times when animals from the farm asks you to do something for them, in exchange, you get money or a key or whatever. im planning to be filthy rich! hehehe! there are also challenges/games that you can do when you are bored or not doing anything else. most are common games, but they have funny twists to it.

for one thing, my cow has a cellphone. yes a cellphone. whenever the other animals need anything, they text me. odiba, coolness!

and when you're stressed or irritated with something or someone, you can just kick boxes and vases and ice pails and paint buckets and barrels and trashcans and flour sacks all around the farm. hetong sayo! Hi-Yah!

and another fun thing is, i can ride a bike. as in a bike! i go around the farm with it. it even has a light that automatically turns on when night comes. its sooo cool. i still need more prac. with it though. ive had countless nose dives by bumping to posts and rocks and shit. hehehe! tanga.

there's this one game where we tease the postman. like dance rev, when the postman's back is on me, i have to do different combi, when im done, the cow dances, but when the postman is about to look, i have to get back on my 4 feet. nakakatawa kaya!

there's also a bar during the night. i can play pool with the farm dog, or just hang out and drink. ang kulit.

and of course, one of the challenges is to keep the farm at tiptop shape. there are raccoons and cayotes abound, and we have to stop them from taking all the produce and destroying the farm. so how do a measly cow do it? by shooting milk thru my doodoo. hahahahaha! funny, you have to wear this shades so you can shoot milk. you train by shooting on cans and stuff. lakas trip!

anyway, here i am, at work, dreaming of barnyard. i want to go home and play the whole day. hay, if only i could..later, i will, but i have to limit it though. kawawa ang kuryente. hehehehe! but still, i heart barnyard and harvest moon!

Labels: kababawan

Kung Hei Fat Choi

February 18, 2007 And because I'm always late like this, I'm going to share with you my recap of 2006, just in time not for the calendar new year, but for the chinese new year. kung hei fat choi!!! :)

Top 10 highlights of 2006 (in no particular order)

1. PADI Certified Open Water Diver - my ID came late 2006, but I graduated July. Before studying, i had 2 intro dives already, both in Boracay, and both very memorable (not to mention the *ahem* good view). Check out dive happened though at Anilao, Batangas. it was love at first site, then second site, then third, then fourth. hehe! I swear if it weren't for my buddy I would've been lost, always getting left behind by the group because i was trying to take everything i saw in, and let me tell you, i think every inch of the place was packed with things to see. how i wish i had an underwater cam so i can show you guys...Anyway, I'm looking forward to many more dives this year. more reefs and cliffs to discover and drool over.

2. Media to Creatives. - It wasn't an easy transition, work wise, because for a while it felt like i was in a limbo of some sort. I did twice the work i normally would be assigned to, and up until the present, my job responsibilities had all been a blur. but nevertheless, i enjoyed it so much, hassles and all. as my friend ter had put it when i told them how stressed i was with all the work coming two to four at a time, "eh diba gusto mo naman yung ganon?" (isn't that how you wanted things to be?) yes, it is. no matter how much i admit that i am stressed, i know deep down that's what i love, i like getting stressed and being pushed to my limits. i can even say I'm addicted to stress, no doubt. so yeah, I'm going to stick with this, learn everything i can learn, so at the end, i won't have any regrets. there's a lot of things in store for 2007, i feel giddy with excitement, but i don't want to disclose anything yet, when it happens, I'll let you know.

3. On my own (sort of) it has been months of living on my own (partly coz i share the place with kat, but we barely see each other so its pretty much like being alone as well), feeding myself, doing my own laundry (well most of it), cleaning up after my own mess,, and although I am still yet to learn more dishes, or save up for a bed and some more furniture, i have to say that I'm proud of myself. yes, the first few months were hell, but seeing the developments, i could say that I've grown more in the almost 6 months i spent on a separate house from my parents than i have for the last 22 years. I'm loving independent living!

4. Visiting Bangkok, Thailand at last, I added another city to my list of "places I've been", thanks to dear Mediawise, now PHD. we had our company trip at the first half of the year. i experienced shopping like hell in their version of our ukay-ukay. sure, i reached for my inhaler more than usual, but bargain shopping is just too much fun to pass. i was forced to bring out my acting prowess (let it go, people, i can act) and i was able to buy bags that would normally cost 600-800 here for only 150-250 each, cellphone pouches, thailand made mail holders for our house, thai silk pillows, and a number of cool shirts that go from about 80-100 a piece (fine i got 2 worth about 200 each but it was too good i couldn't let it down when i saw it). went to the safari, fed some animals and had an almost major attack, good thing i had my inhaler. and of course, everyone was treated to an authentic thai massage. that was really good. it felt like i was being bended and thrown all over the place, but it felt good after. i just wish i had a good dslr with me, and yes, more time please.

5. My Macoy with my new post as creatives officer, comes some sweet benefits, like my dear Macoy for instance. (for all you who don't know him, that's my Mac G5) it's just sad that our internet security has become so strict that my usage becomes limited. it would've been fun to have lots of widgets and stuff...and it would have been easier to manage YM windows with what i'd like to call "all seeing buttons", but boo-hooo, it has been blocked. hay! all work and no play makes me..bored. hehehe! don't they know i need other stimuli to activate my thinking cells! hehe! yeah, as if anyone would care. but nevertheless, i love my silver macoy, my macho and charismatic kabit, next only of course to dwighty and *ahem* oh you know!

6. The winning streak more than the prize money, its the feeling of accomplishment. the last few days of December had been a riot. and with our group winning the best group presentation during our staff party was a great spirit lifter. and to think we only had a few days to come up with the whole damn thing. thanks again to my very cooperative group, GRABE! i rerally thought we're only second, but apparently, people liked what we did. yey! and again, for the suppliers party (it happened jan5 2007, but id like to count it as well) where we won second place, OMG, i did not expect that. i was so sure i messed the whole singing live thing. damn nerves. But i guess it was jane and the suppliers themselves who brought the show to a success. thanks also for the cooperation. next time i wont sing live, or i wont let ames come first! hehe!

7. 15 shots, Boracay, summer 2006 together with friends, we soaked up the Boracay sun, and of course, come sun down, its time to parteeeey!!! and since I've always obsessed about trying that infamous 15 shots of Cocomangas, without much persuasion, i ordered the damn thing. when it came, i reread what each shot contained. tequila and tabasco? that'll be hot. but my most feared number was 13... Bourbon and White Castle Whiskey, it was the darkest among the lot, and it's smell, oh good mother of gawd! i took the first 5 shots straight and thought, that was ok, a little spicy with the tabasco and mint, the 4th was sweet enough to counter the first 3. then i took shot#5-9, then 10-12. i paused and stared at #13, here we go people. the moment i downed it, my world started spinning. i downed the next 2 so fast i couldn't even remember i finished it. i puked 2x that night.(after partying at club paraw for a few more mins.) and i managed to walk (although not straight) change to sleeping clothes and brush my teeth before i went to bed. (the last 2 parts i didn't remember doing, i was just told by my friends who would forever make fun of me passing out the moment i touched the bed) I'm yet to go back to Bora to look for my name on their wall of fame. when i do, I promise to post a photo. all you drinkers would be proud of me! hehe!

8. Roller Coaster Love Let's just say that I was my worst this year. who would have believed that id fall out of love, then find one again in record time? it's just sad that i've hurt people along the way, but i guess i did the right thing. i would have caused more hurt if i did not do the things i did. anyway, I'm happy now, i hope everyone else is as well.

9. the woman with the grapevine almost everyone spoke with hushed tones the first weeks of January. it all started at the grapevine, or at least that's what was written, but everyone knew who crafted the sms message that suddenly circulated, good thing everyone saw through it, at least those people that matter. to her, well, i wish she's happy with her family. and i hope part of her new year's resolution is to stop pointing her bony finger and making stupid stories to bring people down so that she would appear to be the hero rather than a stupid...ok i will not curse!

10. Dwighty i won him xmas of 2005 but i got him almost halfway thru 2006. he is my lover, my companion, and escape. for those who don't know him, he's my ipod. i still haven't use half of it's memory, but i eventually will. he's one of my most priced possessions, because with him, i feel the calmest. i can just stay at one corner of the world with him plugged to my ears, (of course he have to be plugged in a socket as well for his dear life) everyone now calls him dwighty also. why the name? well, its pretty simple, he's white, i want it to be a he, so i added D, and for petname reasons, i added y. there you go, dwighty, my hero.

9 worst memories
1. still my PMS days, each month of the whole damn year, i suffer
2. the blood donation scene. you all must remember this. the day i turned sheet white 3 times in less than an hour
3. the dung still falls here. she is the worst i tell you, the worst!
4. Brian's uneventful passing. hay. bakit kasi may mga gagong pulis!
5. broke days, when i shouldnt be broke in the first place
6. the in between. i felt so guitly. i was so bad. hay
7. choosing paths. this was one of the most terrifying experiences. but thanks to my friends, i made it through alive
8. circulan. but it was a good learning experience
9. the training. i felt so stoopid

8 new crushes
1. sige na nga, si alvin ang top.
2. Rafael Nadal
3. Kaka (the football player)
4. Brent (my officemate, pam's 1 year old kid hehe!)
5. the kid (heehee. of course he doesn't know)
6. AE Joey
7. Nathaniel Nunez (tet's 2 year old nephew)
8. The Ice cream kid from Bangkok

7 most sung songs
1. Let's stay together by Big Mountain
2. Is this Love by Bob Marley
3. Flying Away by Moony
4. Santeria by Sublime
5. Alipiin by Shamrock
6. Beer by Itchyworms
7. Here by me by 3 doors down

6 places I've been to outside manila
1. Boracay
2. Bangkok
3. Batangas
4. Pampanga
5. Tagaytay
6. Zambales

5 memorable movies
1. The Break-up
2. The Devil Wears Prada
3. Eight Below
4. Marie Antoinette
5. Tristan and Isolde

4 favorite artist
1. Sitti
2. Kamikaze
3. Rocksteddy
4. Itchyworms


3 addictions
1. coffee
2. RH
3. fishballs

2 missed friends
1. Elaine
2. Ize

1 man in my life
my honey.. :)
(yikkkeeeeee..ang mushy! yaaaak!)

Labels: current events

If I were an m&m

February 15, 2007

How I wish I can dye my hair pink and curl it everyday. And yes, wear tsinelas and work at a beach somewhere. But then again, that is if I were an m&m. Make your own m&m’s (you can take photos and make viseos, its so cool!) just for the heck of it! Just go to http://www.becomeanmm.com :)

Goodluck!

Labels: kababawan

I can't believe its only 2:30 in the effing afternoon!

I want to go hoooommmeeee! I think I’m going to have fever tomorrow. I can feel it, my eyes feels like it’s on fire.

I hate it. I hate it.

I want a bowl of soup. How do you make chicken soup?  Can anyone make me one?

Hay vino, you chose the perfect time to go home to pampanga. You could’ve just waited for the weekend!

I hate it! I really do!

babedibuuummm

im feeling rather down today. and the weather seem to share my sentiments. even fries didn't cheer me up. hay i hate it, i want to drink. i want to go home, get a bottle of ice cold RH from the fridge, curl up in bed and watch a good movie.

this would be the longest day ever. hay im such a baby

Labels: emo mode

Balentina

February 14, 2007
When i first saw this in the pages of Phil Star, it took me a few minutes before it sank in. Omg, a pre-historic Romeo and Juliet.

how morbid sweet.

this was discovered in Italy, a few miles away from what was now believed to be where the real Romeo and Juliet resided (when we toured Europe, Juliet's balcony was one of the stops. and yeah, you know i couldn't resist that.) it was said to be from the neolithic age, and although it's not a new thing to see pairs being buried side by side, this was the first that embodied the died-in-each-others-arms novel romance cliche, less the bodily mass.

the way i see it, it could be caused by a number of things:

1. yes, they could really be lovers, died young and very much in love. the people around them were so touched by their love for each other that they cant bare the thought of separating them so they buried them together in an eternal embrace...

2. they are secret lovers. and when their secret was revealed, they were killed, still in each other's arms. the killer felt so betrayed, and out of anger, left them to rot in their forbidden embrace.

3. they were buried alive, and of course, just imagine how scared those two might have been, and all that they have is each other. di ba mapapayakap ka nalang sa takot?

i know, weird. but you never know.

I'm no cynic. on the contrary, I'm in love with love. but Valentines' mush can be too overrated sometimes. nakakasuka. i believe love is too great a feeling to cram it all in one day of cheesiness-ewness. wouldn't it be better to celebrate love everyday? you don't need a calendar to tell you when to celebrate love.

and gawd enough with the roses! i don't like roses. i don't know why...i just don't.

traffic nanaman, at lilindol nanaman sa pasig. magagastos kayo!

Labels: kababawan, lingering thoughts, love drunk

And then there was email posting

February 09, 2007 Juust wanted to see if this works. Para kahit walang internet at computer, I can send email thru my phone to blog..hehe!

Anyway, my tummy is throwing a fit. Hay. And by the way, im only eating rice once a day, that’s a good start right? I still eat when I have to eat, but im slowly taking rice out of the picture. In time I hope I could  take it altogether, but I doubt coz kat cooks so well and her dishes need rice. Maybe I just need to moderate it. Im getting fatter and fatter, and summer is fast approaching. I don’t need to get paper thin, just need to trim some flabs here and there, just a little para di namn kasuka suka. And yeah, I want to get back into shape. I want to be able to run for several minutes straight and not kill myself. Hehehe!

Wish me luck

Im having chicken and pancit canton for lunch :)

while waiting

February 07, 2007 NO LYING SURVEY (from Chi)

Eight Last:
8. last cigarette: tagal na (o dbuzz)
7. last beverage: coffee
6. last phone call: ms rosahlee (although taga sigaw lang ako
5. last text message: katz
3. last bubble bath: hhhmmmm..dati pa sa hotel hehehe!
2. last time you cried: gawd, last week! haha! strategic dressing workshop
1. last time you hugged someone: kagabi :)

SEVEN have you's:
7. have you ever dated someone twice?: i dont date. i think
6. have you ever been cheated on?: palagay ko, kaya kumalas ako
4. have you ever fallen in love?: i am now..
3. have you ever lost someone?: yup
2. have you ever been depressed?: sakit ko yan
1. have you ever had a heartbreak?: oo naman

SIX things you did in the past three days:
6. Went to school: i wish
5. Went to work: im still at work
4. Colored: kasali ba sa PC? pero miss ko na coloring books ko
3. Got drunk: not drunk, pampaantok lang
2. Slept: poota oo naman, kulang pero natutulog naman ako
1. Hurt yourself: ai di naman physically.emotionally, yes

THIS YEAR...
Made a new friend: yuh
Laughed until you cried?: oo hehe!
Went behind your parents back: kinda
Met someone who changed your life: plenty
Gotten close to someone: i think

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF..
1. Bush: unnecessary
2. Gay marriage?: keri lang, bakit hindi.
3. Lowering the drinking age?: may epekto pa ba yan? lahat naman na nainom kahit below 18, hello. just make the current one work muna bago baguhin!

ABOUT YOU:
4. Straight, Gay, Bi?: straight
5. Who is the best hugger that you know?: alvin :) kisser too. hahaha!
6. Do you believe in love at first sight?: nope..
7. Is there something you want to tell someone?: i cant think of anything right now
8. what kinda shirt are you wearing? read post below
9. How many kids do you want to have?: 2 would be enough, masakit
10. Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)? i think
11. Do you want to change your name?: di na, keri na
12. What did you do for your last birthday?: chill lang, inom..
13. What time did you wake up today?: 8:45 hahahahahaha!
14. What were you doing at midnight?: watching king arthur
15. Name something you CANNOT wait to do?: ewan ko,
16. Last time you saw your father?: last sunday
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: my insecurities
18. Which hand do you like better?: right, kasi right pinky ko baluktot. hehe!
19.What are you listening to right now?: ms jenny zipping up her bag hehe
21. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back?: paminsan
22. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone?: hmmmm..slacks from ms am
23. Who's getting on your nerves right now?: wala naman
24. Most visited webpage?: blogs of people
25. Coke or Pepsi?: sprite
26. Do you have a crush?: andami!
27. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week?: hehe..oo heehee
28. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world?: no
29. Do you think there's some models/people out there that should gain a couple pounds?: bahala sila kung gusto nila gutumin sarili nila. mabawasan lang tyan ko keri na
30. Do you enjoy your friendship with your friends?: yes..i miss them though..

"nagpaka-puta po ako"

those were the first set of words that came our of my mouth when my boss asked how our presentation went. and it's true, but nothing too vulgar. i just took off the first layer of my top to reveal my extra tight orange tank top. for the love of advertising.

don't worry, it's not as bad as it sounds. i presented creatives for a new slimming product that targets the bilbil (everyone say yehey!) and what better way to illustrate our concept than to show the world my bilbil-full waist. (you'll understand this more when our ad gets published, that is if they choose us over 2 more agencies)

that's the thing about our work, sometimes, kesihodang humiga ka sa table, if that would give your presentation that little more omphf, then by all means, lie the friggin down. nothing illegal and immoral though, just plain business. don't worry, i don't plan on sleeping with any client.

as the seniors taught me during our workshop, sometimes, it's all about showmanship.

anyway, i hope it worked. and i hope they make me their before and after girl. hehehe! and if i have to take theater lessons, if it would cure my stutter during presentations, then i guess i will have to consider that.

aaah, and they say drama only exist in theater.

Labels: current events, realizations

the holiday. what holiday?

February 06, 2007 I'm supposed to be sitting at the comfortable seats at glorietta, laughing over the new movie , The Holiday starring Cameron Diaz, Kate Winslet, Jude Law and Jack Black (i know, an odd cast, but gademit! Jude is lab!) but, yeah I'm here at the office. well its my fault anyway. we have a presentation tomorrow for Hydrotrim, we were asked to recommend creatives. but although the concept has been made weeks before, i had to do the mock ups at the last minute. and it doesn't help that your boyps suddenly sounds skeptical about going to the movies. BV. never mind.

i'd have to do with dvd's, at least he'll cook dinner for me, in exchange of not going to g4. punta nalang sa apt, qt.

i feel drained. and ironically, what i think i need is the title of the movie i missed tonight, a holiday. i feel like a robot, doing purely mechanical things. i don't think anymore. my right brain hurts. and to think we're just into the second month.

oh well, just like my pirated DVDs, i guess i just have to content myself with pirated hiatus. i mean I'm still lucky, at least i get to learn new things to cram inside my head. each day poses an adventure and i know i'd be stupid not to take advantage of it.

but I'm still positive that one day i'll get my holiday, and it will be fabulous! i just hope i don't spontaneously combust before that day comes.

Labels: career, emo mode, rantings, travel

im no shoe gal

i know that. im not even a make-up-dress-up type. so you can just imagine how i felt when we were told that we were required to attend a "strategic dressing" workshop where one of the modules was "doing make-up". not to mention that i was the only junior in the group, the only one falling under the 25 below age group.

when i opened this up to my mom, she immediately told me that its about time that i went to this kind of workshops, commenting on my horrible taste in office clothes like i was dressing myself in rags for years. She has been bugging me to wear this very bank-teller-type blazer with friggin shoulder pads! i don't care if it makes my shoulder proportionate or if its not really that big to be noticed, i refuse to wear an apparel that looks as if it was taken from the uniform storage of a bank from the 70's. over my proportion-less body!

Then she went on about my need to buy "appropriate" clothes. (lend me your plastic for a day, you'll be proud of me, that is before seeing the bill) then the story somehow got us to how her boss used to treat her like dirt before and how now he can't decide without her.

As she went on with her stories, i started to think of the coming workshop. why was i included among the group of seniors? it could only mean 2 things:

1. as my mom pointed out to me somewhere between her career stories and my clothing preferences, that i might be regarded as not-a-junior-not-yet-a-senior (you know like the not-a-girl-not-yet-a-woman thing) or that's the direction they are gearing me to take, so as early as now, im taking shifted to that path.

2. this won in my head - that i was that bad at carrying myself. and still, that i was expected to step up. i mean, i was personally told never to wear happy feet to the office by our CEO, and im constantly told to fix myself. i must look pretty hopeless in my big-polo-shirt-and-jeans ensemble.

so i was determined to learn, or at least hear the other side of it. i've always preached that i was the "comfort-over-fashion" type of person, im not a shoe-gal (slippers-gal maybe), nor a bag lady, although i appreciate great bags every once in a while. my style is very much like what i am, laid back. but apparently, as ms ivy has attested, laid back is only acceptable in Australia (so yeah, im thinking about moving there. imagine going to work in board shorts and my trusty battalion of slippers, then go surfing during lunch...beach is the life my man!)

but since i live in the business center of the metropolis, i guess it doesn't give me much choice,does it? yes i am a creative officer, but I'm still under a media company. and i am supposed to dress like everyone else, with a touch of my own style. the thing is my style now became unacceptable.

So im caught in a style limbo. i have to find a style acceptable to my current environment and myself. and thanks to the workshop, i got some idea, although im still looking for that signature look. and yes, i need mullah to pull off a total transformation, well, maybe not totally different. but we'll see...

also, i just wanted to share, the moderator of the workshop commented that i somehow looked like Julie Vega, uhmmm... generation gap! who is she? so i googled her, and can i just say that i don't look anything like her.


anyway, on other workshop news, i cried after presenting. well, after getting grilled that is. its not that they were all ganging up on me, it's actually the opposite. i appreciate the critics made, i know i need those more than anyone. it was not because of that. the pressure of public speaking slowly crept its ugly head and by the time i hear my colleagues' comments on my improvement, my facade crumbled and i was reduced to tears.

GADEMIT!

But anyway, it was a good learning experience, tears and all. Goodluck fellow juniors who will be on the spot this Thurs. most of you don't need most of the modules since most of you, unlike me, dress well, but i hope you make the best of it. i think i did

Labels: career, current events, realizations

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

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still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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