Balentina
February 14, 2007
When i first saw this in the pages of Phil Star, it took me a few minutes before it sank in. Omg, a pre-historic Romeo and Juliet.
how
morbid sweet.
this was discovered in Italy, a few miles away from what was now believed to be where the real Romeo and Juliet resided (when we toured Europe, Juliet's balcony was one of the stops. and yeah, you know i couldn't resist that.) it was said to be from the neolithic age, and although it's not a new thing to see pairs being buried side by side, this was the first that embodied the died-in-each-others-arms novel romance cliche, less the bodily mass.
the way i see it, it could be caused by a number of things:
1. yes, they could really be lovers, died young and very much in love. the people around them were so touched by their love for each other that they cant bare the thought of separating them so they buried them together in an eternal embrace...
2. they are secret lovers. and when their secret was revealed, they were killed, still in each other's arms. the killer felt so betrayed, and out of anger, left them to rot in their forbidden embrace.
3. they were buried alive, and of course, just imagine how scared those two might have been, and all that they have is each other. di ba mapapayakap ka nalang sa takot?
i know, weird. but you never know.
I'm no cynic. on the contrary, I'm in love with love. but Valentines' mush can be too overrated sometimes. nakakasuka. i believe love is too great a feeling to cram it all in one day of cheesiness-ewness. wouldn't it be better to celebrate love everyday? you don't need a calendar to tell you when to celebrate love.
and gawd enough with the roses! i don't like roses. i don't know why...i just don't.
traffic nanaman, at lilindol nanaman sa pasig. magagastos kayo!
Labels: kababawan, lingering thoughts, love drunk
& our love goes round and round;
2/14/2007 02:49:00 PM
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cold january
January 10, 2007
I started writing this last 10th but didn’t get the chance to finish it. Yes it took this long for me to get back to this. Busy, busy January... so take your most comfortable position, this would take a while---
For some reason, it still feels like Christmas, with the weather being this cold especially during the night. I know the cold season would at least last until early Feb. but it seems colder now than it was last December.
For that reason I went in this morning with very cold undies. (This might be a little too much for some but I don’t care, you can skip this paragraph all together if you like) why you might ask? Well I didn’t have time to do laundry over the weekend, actually I have but I wanted to devote Sunday solely to sleep and DVD marathons, so anyway, I was really planning on doing laundry Monday night, at least for the undergarments since I’m running out of undies, but something came up, and what was supposed to be a dinner out with a little beer turned out to be a dinner, beer, band, bar, some more beer, and very early breakfast. So, naturally, I postponed doing laundry. (I even came in the office around noon, hehe! I slept at 6am, what do you expect!) So come Tues. night I know I HAVE to do it, because my box is empty. But even though I had it done by 8pm, when I checked on it this morning, it was still semi-wet. Shit. So I hanged it in front of the fan for "speed drying" and went to the office wearing a very cold-bacon-gartered-undies (it was the first to "dry" since its thin, hehe) I was walking along ayala checking whether there was a wet spot in my bottom, baka mag-moist. hahahaha!
Anyway, my birthday came and passed like any other day. Usually its my most awaited time of the year, not because of the gifts, it was never about that. For me it’s the best way to start the year. Me and my friends have a reason to get together, indulge my mom's specialties and drink until the next morning, sharing stories from past and present, and if lucky, have a videoke on standby, just to make a fool of ourselves even more.
This year I saved for the party. And the fact that I won a karavision machine made me doubly excited. Free karaoke! But instead of being the happiest week of the year, it became one of the loneliest.
I miss my friends. I miss them so much it hurts. Because I know we wont be complete this year. That it doesn’t matter if I have money for food and booze, and karaoke for fun if the people I want to have fun with are not all there.
elaine made an overseas call a little after 12midnight. That’s the bursting point for me. I tried the hardest not to cry at first but when she called, sorry pal. That was it. I was quiet at the other end, not letting her hear my sobs; she thought we had a bad connection so she dropped the call. I felt so bad, but I couldn’t speak. I cried for a few more minutes, just to get it out of my system.
I learned that when you are in pain, its better to deal with it, let the burden overpower you. It’s ok to cry. But don’t over do it. Cry as much as you have to, and when you think you've cried it out, stop and move on. The emptiness might take time to subside, or maybe it never will, but it should never take over you. At the end of the day, you are still the one who should be in control.
So after a few minutes, I stopped, wiped my face dry and breathe. Not being oa and neither for drama, but the moment I stopped, it started to rain. I took it as a sign that like the rain, my tears wash the pain I kept inside and tomorrow promises a clear bright sky. I felt blest.
Blessed with friends, both near and far. Blessed with a family that loves me. Blessed with someone who would hold my hand at my darkest hour, and without a word, would let me know that he's just there.
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Why it took so long to blog?
Because I’m busy, really, I am. I didn’t get enough sleep the past 3 weeks. There’s the supplier’s party last Jan 5 (in which our team won 2nd btw. Wooot wooot!) I sang sun and moon and a whole new world with Khai. Pootangina! I had never been that nervous in my entire life! Performing live in front of 100++ people is not an easy task, not to mention having to follow a great singer like Ames, who accidentally sang a song from Ms Saigon too. Punyeta! I was trembling!
Anyway, we got 2nd so its good enough for me. And the best thing is the suppliers enjoyed the party. It was for them so shiyet, buti!
I also helped out on the design of the venue, so doing that, plus prac. my songs and doing the presentation avp for our group, and also some of the props. Let’s just say that I didn’t even dare to drink more than 3 bottles that night for fear that I might pass out not of drunk’ness but of low energy. As in I was literally low batt by the end of the party.
But at least I took nice photos of the other team, thanks to sir nick and to his very heavy but very very nice dslr with 2GB mem. Hehe! ALAVET! I want one!
Anyway, after that, I didn’t stop, we had a press launch to fix by the 18th, as in we need to do everything in 2 weeks. Ang saya. I’m not yet sure about the real feedback of the client, we are still yet to regroup maybe later this week. But for now, with everything that we went through for it, id like to convince myself that it was a success.
I missed work the day after the launch, I couldn’t get up. My whole body was soar, my head was throbbing, my eyes felt like steam was coming out of it and my asthma, oh dear, it took the perfect timing to surface. I thought I was catching a fever. I covered myself up with 2 thick comforters so I could sweat it out. Thankfully, after pails of sweat, I felt better. I slept most of the weekend. Waking up to take a bath, eat, and watch tsismis (you know I need to watch this) I didn’t bother going home to LP, I didn’t want to move unless necessary. I was married to my bed that weekend.
This week, I’m expecting more work. I have a few lined up, finished some today with a few revisions here and there. We have sets of training coming up, a bridal shower to plan (whhooooopppeeeeeeeeeee! Let’s do it ten! Hehehe!) and a nice comfy bed to save for. I hope the trip to dos palmas push throught. I don’t care if the place has a nasty history to it, I need beach…I deserve a beach trip! Hmpf!
Labels: career, current events, emo mode, lingering thoughts, realizations, travel
& our love goes round and round;
1/10/2007 12:58:00 PM
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inkblots
December 07, 2006
i have a new obsession...leather organizer/planner/notebook. and its the perfect timing since its the time of the year when such are bountiful, may it be in give-aways, goody-bags, or plain generic gifts.
i have 2 already, a black snake skin notebook from ABS-CBN, and a black leather notepad from Cartoon network (it has CN characters embossed at the front)
and im currently eye-ing on starbuck's 2007 organizer, which i cant buy, by the way. shiyet.
im expecting more planners to come in the next 2 weeks. my drawer would probably be full again as 2007 comes. yey! more notes to make!! :)
for another, somehow related topic, we were browsing team manila's site, and my officemate suddenly said "kaya mo to eh, bakit di naten gawin business? (you can do this, why not make it a business)" another officemate butted in "oo nga, pwede naten ipaprint kay Kris (yeah, we can have them printed by Kris)" i hesitated, and being a non-believer of my own skills, i said, "eh pano kapag di bumenta? (what if it dont sell?)" another officemate joined in, "di pa nga nagsisimula, negative mo na (you haven't even started and you're negative already)" i resorted to defeated silence.
but i actually have thought about it already, even before Team manila was all over the place. i even have a design for a shirt i will have made for myself.
it would be a black shirt with red print, it would say at the front "happy horse" and an improvised happy horse icon, then at the back "happy ciara"
simple.
but i still havent submitted the design, im not really sure why, but i haven't. im planning it to be my bday gift to myself and wear it, well, on my bday. hehe.
anyway back to the "gang up on ciara" topic, so there, again, i thought, yeah, why not? i'll try making some designs, make a site and post them there and just give out my number to get orders or something. then id maybe design for the people here first, have the word spread all over town, and hopefully get some orders. i dont know, i guess i still need to think it through, canvass for a shirt supplier and test the printing skills of our friend Kris versus Coach Jayen's.
is this the break im looking for? i've always envisioned myself as a businesswoman. is this "it"? am i really going to have my own shop (as my friends and i have once planned) oooohhh...im getting giddy just by the thought of it, but giddy in a good way though.
im thinking that my first shirt would be one with the word "Uso-sero" for the men and "Uso-sera" for the ladies. i dont know, that term just suddenly came to me. (for those who'd try to copy this, if you dont want to feel pain, better think twice.)
ASTIG DIBA? would you buy it? :)
Labels: business, current events, lingering thoughts
& our love goes round and round;
12/07/2006 03:18:00 PM
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