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Changes


November 30, 2006
no matter how many times we are reminded that "there's nothing constant in this life but change", we poeple still tend to fear it, and resist it. we got too comfortable with where we are that we dont want to move on.

but that's how things are, you have to move on, you have to grow up. but changing never meant forgetting. what has been is part of what is, and what will be. there's no going around that.

changes can be challenging, yes, but that's the beauty of it. wouldn't life be too boring if everything is just given to you, no struggles whatsoever?

so im breaking the walls ive put up around my comfort zone and moving to the unknown. this will be a struggle getting used to doing things differently. but that's cool. at least i know i can have my brain firing millions of neurons all over the place, as if in a war zone.

i like my view from here. from the top. im in beta now (yiiiihhhaaaa!)

***template made using blogger beta and adobe photoshop. 6hours...six hours! i need to learn xml, html is so yesterday! hehe***

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& our love goes round and round; 11/30/2006 02:54:00 PM
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may mga tao lang talagang...


November 28, 2006
sinungaling..

and i hate that. parang ginagawa kang tanga. pero naniniwala ako sa karma. one day kahit di ko sabihin or punahin tong mga ginagawa mo sakin, babalik lahat sayo yan. and that's just an oh so sweet revenge.


madaldal..

in a bad way. yun tipong...parang di mo lam kung di nalang ba nagiisip kung ano ang mangyayari pag sinabi nya ang isang bagay. no respect whatsoever. pero sige tatawa lang ako,, wag mo nang hintayin na mangalay ang panga ko.


bv.

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if my guy friends' insticts are right about you, then why now when im already happy and totally over you?

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& our love goes round and round; 11/28/2006 12:05:00 PM
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dont worry 'bout a thing


November 22, 2006
Every little thing is gonna be alright...



Steady ka lang cia...

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& our love goes round and round; 11/22/2006 05:19:00 PM
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November 21, 2006
today, though surrounded by people, ive never felt more alone.

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& our love goes round and round; 11/21/2006 10:43:00 AM
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speed dialing, speedy delivery, speed dating, speed boxing?


November 20, 2006
it was over in 3 rounds and although the exchanged of jaw-breaking-punches had me at the edge of my seat, a part of me was disappointed at yummy morales (as bullet wanted to call him, and yes bullet is a he) who i expected would be, well, "El Terrible."

i was hoping to have 12 rounds of hard-core boxing action from 2 of the most excellent boxers there is, 10 at the very least. so come 3rd round when yummy morales fell for the second time, i thought oh god, he still has more than 35 seconds to dance around the ring and dodge possible punches from pacman before the bell rings., but just a few more seconds, there he was, on the floor, looking at his father as if to get an assurance that it really did happen, that he did fall, and finally he uttered "no mas".

dont get me wrong, i am jubilant that our pacman won! i mean, for all its worth, it is true, that his victory was our country's victory. and you have to salute a person who can stop the whole country and make everyone sit down and for once have a unified stand at something.

i just thought it would be a great fight, longer, more butt-raising action. o well. it's still a T.K.O. (would you believe that because of all the adrenalin i called it a touchdown, it's supposed to be knockdown. shiyet!)

Gawd is Manny one wealthy sonofab*tch! 150M, and that's just the declared prize. of course he gets a lot more than that. and would you believe his endorsement contract in McDo is worth 50branches. POOTA! get one branch and you'll have a good life, what more if you have 50.

shiyet...

& our love goes round and round; 11/20/2006 02:11:00 PM
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masakit pa ulo ko...


from chi and jumie

kinder

1. Ano ang sinasabi mo noong bata ka pa na gusto mong maging paglaki mo?
* di ko na maalala, bumbero ata. basta tinatawanan ko kapatid ko kasi gusto nya maging pulis. hahahahahaha!

2. Ano ang isang bagay na na-enjoy mong gawin noon?
* maglibot sa baclaran. pag wala sila mama batang kalye ako e. tapos nambabato ng aso ng kapitbahay, hinabol pa nga ako paminsan, then on takot nako sa mababangis na aso. ay pati yung umakyat sa walls, kasi may parang pathway papunta sa likod ng bahay namin na may mga apts den, naguunahan kami umakyat dun gamit paa at kamay.

3. Bakit?
* ewan ko tuwang tuwa ako nun e

4. Pumapasok ka ba ng ganitong age?
* kinder na gna diba, oo

5. Sinong 'buddy' mo noon?
* si fatima yung kapitbahay namin

6. Anong pangyayayari ang hindi mo makalimutan?
* grumaduate ako na naka-cast. bakit? pano ang kulit ko nun papasok na kami ni fatima naghahabulan kami eh yung katulong wala naman magawa sakin nananabunot raw ako dati eh, sa intersection derederecho ko, si fatima taya, nabundol ako ng pedicab, tumama leg ko, nagcrack buto ko. kaya di ako pinayagan magsoccer ni mama nung grade 6

7. Kilala mo pa mga teachers mo?
* naku hindi na.

8. Iyakin ka ba noon?
* hindi. ngayong paglaki lang ako naging iyakin. wrong timing.

grade school

10. Sinong principal nyo noon?
* sa scho, di ko maalala, sister something, sa bene, di ko ren maalala hahahahaha!

11. Anong paborito mong laro?
* chinese garter, ten twenty, dampa hahahaha!

12. May club ka bang sinalihan?
* dance kasi adviser ko nun bagong lipat ako si Mrs Divina,, tapos nag glee club ako nun grade 5 ata,e di ako nakakakain kasi lagi prac kahit break, nag cooking club ako, pero taga taste test. hahahahahahah!

13. Maingay ka ba sa klase?
* nun simula hindi, nung nagkafriends na, ayan na,

14. May kinakatakutan ka bang teacher noon?
* wala akong maalala

15. Bakit?
* ewan ko

16. Pano ka pumupunta sa school?
* schoolbus

17. Marunong ka na bang mag-commute ng panahong ito?
* hindi. takot ako. sanay akong maglakad nung sa baclaran pero pagdating grade school hatid sundo ako ng bus eh.

18. Paano ka mag-aral?
* hindi ako nagaaral hahahaha!

19. Mahilig ka bang kumain ng tusok-tusok?
* oo kahit napapagalitan ako

20. Responsable ka bang estudyante?
* kahit di ako palaaral, complete assignments ko pati mataas naman grades ko.. responsable na ba yun?

highschool

21. Saan ka nag-high school?
* bene

22. anu mga section mo?
* 18, 28?, 36/5, 46/5 - poota di ko maalala

23. May-CAT ba kayo noon?
* meron pero exempted ako

24. Naging officer ka ba?
* naging treasurer ata ako. may silbi ba yung ganyan, wala naman diba. di ko maalala.

25. Kumakain ka ba habang nasa klase?
* oo, garapal kami nun eh, paminsan kanin talaga, nasa likod kasi kami. nung 3rd yr pag religion nababa kami bibili chicken burger or footlong, lalagay sa bulsa tapos papasa pasa sa klase. hahahahaha! nung 4th yr nagpipicnic kami pag SS, galit sakim yung teacher, pero di nya kami maibaksak kasi ok mga grade namin sa exam, kami ni mae lagi nasa top 3 ng class. hahahahaha!

26. Tamad ka bang pumasok?
* oo! hahaha! nagtruancy kam inun, napasok lang ako M-W-F kasi may prac ng varsity, pero halfday pa ko nun madalas. yung ibang araw nababa ako sa kanto ng village or ng alabang hills, tapos kikita kami sa mcdo tapos tatambay kundi kila yu, sa town or festi. pero sa card ko, 2 lang acsent ko buong taon. iba talaga pag friend mo ang monitor. hahahahahahahah!

27. Sinong principal nyo noon?
* si fr. aloy

28. Kilala ka ba nya? Ano tawag nya sa'yo?
* sa name hindi, pero lam nya na varsity ako.

29. Paano?
* nanonood sya paminsan pag prac, pati powerhouse kami nung 4th, di nga ako mashado gamit nun eh, ang gagaling nila. hahahaha! champion kami nun eh. sarap.

30. May award ka bang natanggap nung highschool ka?
* sa varsity, recognition sa mga medal namin...yun na ata. hahahahahah! di ko na maalala. nanalo ata ako one time di ko lang maalala saan

college

31. School mo?
* DLSU

34. Meron ka bang org na sinalihan?
* yup

35. Ano?
* adcreate

36. Naniniwala ka ba na pag college ka na,matatagpuan mo ang true love mo at hindi sa highschool?
* sino namang kumag ang nagsabi neto? pero i have to admit, highschool ko, bata pa ko nun hahahaha! pero not necessarily na college lang..

37. Embarassing moment?
* hhmmmmm... ewan makapal mukha ko nun e

38. Unforgettable moment?
* yung mga defense namin na may panel. GRABE! pati thesis!! 4 na araw akong ang tulog ko lang yung bus ride papunta at pauwi bahay. tanginang banat yan!

39. Pano gumalaw ang mga tao sa eskwelahan mo?
* ewan ko, kailangan ko pa ba punahin to? wapness lang!

40. Sosyal ka ba?
* sosyal sosyal my ass! pumapasok nga akong nakatsinelas (yun pang CR tlga ha) may 1 time ana ata akong nagshorts, pinaka-sosyal moment ko na siguro yung nainom kami sa tax-law class, bakit? vodka ang iniinom namin. hahahahaha! hello..sosyal!

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& our love goes round and round; 11/20/2006 10:39:00 AM
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still on random


November 17, 2006
although that is the purpose of the dashboard ( <--- its there silly) i still cant think of a particular topic to blog about, so bear with me, im still on random mode.

Random thought #1: Coffee addiction
there are people who does anything and everything for a fix of his or her addiction, im no different. but i never thought id come to the point of doing what i did the day before. when i woke up, the first thing i thought was to boil some water for a mug of my coffee. i dont care if i run a little late, or if i can easily get a cup in the office.. i have to have my coffee NOW!

so just think what my reaction was when i saw our empty coffee container. panic, disgust, depression. poota. and you knwo what i did? i scratched the little coffee that sticked unto the container (you know when the coffee gets wet, it sticks to the bottom and side walls) adik! i would've poured boiling hot water into it if it wasnt plastic (baka matunaw diba)

i managed to make barely a quarter of a cup of coffee, devoured it (wow big word again again again), devoured it, waited until the caffeine rushed all through my body and took my long bath with a smile plastered on my face.

the simple joys of life.

Random thought #2: Paulo Coelho
Just started reading Paulo's newest addition to his already long list of excellent novels, The Zahir. hoping to finish it this weekend, that is after finishing "Sa Piling Mo" (Dibidi mania? Go to #3) i have very high respect for Coelho, his works are just so amazing, i find myself reading them slower than im used to, and rereading and rereading almost every paragraph. not that i dont understand, its because i want to understand it more.

each word has an underlying message, and its my job to not misinterpret them of brush them of as simple dialogue. that's why i love him. and that's also why im devoting my life to the drem that one day i'd get to meet him, shake his hand, and thanks him for insipiring me.

Random thought #3: Dibidi Dibidi
Jessica Zafra might just be right when she said that having no cable is bearable, especially when you can buy whole seasons of your favorite canned shows and watched them as you please. yes it adds more puff under your eyes, but god, its addictive!

Right now, here's the list of the one's we have (does not include movies, that be a whole different, and rather longer, list)
- House MD Season 1
- House MD Season 2
- Prison Break Season 1
- Prison Break Season 2 (ep 1-10 only)
- Sa piling mo (hehe! what!!)
- Grey's Anatomy Season 1
- Grey's Anatomy Season 2
- Lost Season 1
- Sex and the City Season 4
- Sex and the City Season 5
- Sex and the City Season 6
- Friends Year 5
- Meteor Garden Season 1 (old school! hahaha!)

i dont know if i missed any, maybe. i have alot of hours of Dibidi madness to satisfy, so don't scream if you see me on the streets looking like a racoon. Vin is going to quiapo today and i've told him to get me blank DVD9, if there's any, for about the nth time. one i have those, i promise you id have all 10 season of Friends and SATC 1-3 and OTH and the OC, karir na to! i heart limewire and dsl! hehehehehehehe!

and yes, probably koreanovelas too, if i can get their korean titles :)

im excited for sony's newest addition to the tech buzz, and i will be saving for a HD TV/DVD player. by the time it gets introduced here, id be working for 2 years, meaning, i can get a loan from SSS. Or of course, there's always installment plans with 0% int, hopefully id have a much higher salary by then, hopefully


Random thought #4: Photoblog
Finally, i started my photoblog. nothing much really, just some of my favorite photos and creations. im still in the process of uploading photo-posts though, but just in case you want to see how it looks like, click here link it up too if you want.

& our love goes round and round; 11/17/2006 10:23:00 AM
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"i hate iraqis, your honor"


November 16, 2006
those words came out of the mouth of a US soldier as he pleads guilty for raping a 14-year old girl and killing her and her family, as if it was reason enough to do such a thing.

there were 4 of them accused. as one of them recounts,, first they raped the kid, then burned her, then killed her father, mother and 6-year old sister.

click here to read the whole article.

grabe. di tao mga to. i always knew this war against Iraq that Bush had started will never do any good to anyone, it will just escalate the hate between people when there's really no reason to. pointless. unnecessary.

bush might just be the beast nostradamus and john described.

evil.

& our love goes round and round; 11/16/2006 02:10:00 PM
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more bad news


we lost bvi

and as much as i want to believe that its their loss and not ours.. still i cant help but feel sad.

my first major presentation where i slept not more than 3hours the night before to review for, all down the drain.

may pa bonjour bonjour pa ko... bonjour my ass!

hay. i have no more accounts left, i think i need to freelance, but i have to study first. shiyet.

& our love goes round and round; 11/16/2006 10:45:00 AM
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Dreaming of who???!!!


Finally, I had a dream, for two consecutive nights...but its weird, no, its way beyond weird.

for one thing, its the same dream for those 2 nights. it started differently but ended up the same.

and the ending was...i got married...to a girl!

KAMUSTA NAMAN YAN!

I cant remember most of what happened, i shouldve written everything right after i woke up so i wont forget. but i cant get over the damn getting married to a girl thing.

was i a boy in my past life? can that be the reason why i like guy whatevers?

and all this time i thought i was a mermaid. maybe i was a merman.

pwede na ren.


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why is Lloyd spelled with 2 L's? should i prolong the L sound when addressing someone of that name?

wala. naisip ko lang

& our love goes round and round; 11/16/2006 10:09:00 AM
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coolness


November 15, 2006


i have readers in 3 continents, although small, but still way cool.

who are you guys?? i told you i have stalking tendencies...hekhekhek

& our love goes round and round; 11/15/2006 01:19:00 PM
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2 days after


November 14, 2006
*coz i reread my posts day/s after...here you go

last sunday's ordeal may not be a near death experience, but i hell was scared to death.

days before, i recieved a text from my dad that my grandfather needed blood, and although i have a fear of hospitals, needles and blood, i said yes, i will, this weekend.

it was hours after i confirmed that it all sinked in..tangina, kukunan ako ng dugo. in a hospital, using a needle, and they'd take a bagfull of my fresh red blood. i turned white.

vin kept encouraging me, saying i can do it, just dont get nervous. yeah, as if it was that easy.

but i know no matter how much i torture myself with images, i wont back out. not that i can't, i can easily say that i can't do it. but i will. it's for my lolo, that's more important than my sickly irrational friggin fear.

so sunday came, i woke up last. i wasnt able to eat much since im not really used to eating heavy breakfast, unless ive been up for more than an hour, then id consider that brunch, and eat a hefty lot. i didnt even get to drink coffee, figured that's better, no caffiene in my system is good, right?

the trip to veteran's hospital was long, so i slept most of the way. i was only woken up by my sister when we were at the front entrance. i didnt even had the chance to straighten my hair or make sure i dont have saliva on my face, but what the heck, it was a hospital, who'd care if i look like crap? everyone else does, i belong.

so off we went to where we were supposed to be tested, my bp was relatively low, not so much though, so i still passed as a donor. the second test was, well, let's just say that i almost punched the guy who pricked my finger. tangina, nagulat ako. masakit ha! i was tested last, which was good, more time to calm my nerves. my hands were clamy by then and it would still be an understatement to say that i was terrified. but then the order got switched and i became the first one to be taken blood from. poota.

helpless as i was, i layed down and waited. the first med tech checked my left arm...the nerve there was too thin, i had to change sides. right arm, still too thin, she's hesitant to go through with it, she had to ask someone else to do it, baka daw sumala sya kasi manipis, NOT HELPING MY DEAR!

So the second girl looked for a good enough nerve, gave me a stress ball and prepared to stick the needle that was attached to a bag where my blood would be stored. im supposed to fill the whole bag? gadeymit, what have i gotten myself into! i thought.

the moment she sticked the needle, i prayed to all gods. when the other guy said she had to push it deeper, i cried a silent protest. ARE YOU SERIOUS?

i only looked at the bag 2x the whole time, afraid that i might pass out if i see too much blood. i just wanted to make sure that they are getting enough. the second time i looked, the bag was bulging full. at last!!

i cringed while they took the needle out as if it was connected to my stomach or something. promise, it wasn't really painful. but you feel it till the depths of your guts. shiyet na malagket!

i rested while they got ready to take my sis' blood. they told me to hold still and tell them if i felt dizzy. well, after mins. of waiting i felt ok, so i stood up, went out the cold room, and sat with my mom and dad.

i was out for a fairly long time when i felt it, first, the edges of my vision slowly turned black, my head spun, sounds diminished to echoes, my hands and feet felt cold. then poof, all was black! the next thing i knew, i heard my dad from what seemed like a distance, calling my name and asking someone what was happening to me. he carried me back to the room and laid me unto the bed. seconds later i was back, but i was woozy so i closed my eyes.

apparently i started to shiver, i was cold as ice but was perspiring profusely, and my face was white as snow, but not in the snow-white-beauty-kind-of-way.

i tried opening my eyes and saw panic in my parent's eyes. tanginang banat yan.

they had me drink a bottle of royal which i did not finish, and some water. i lay still for many more minutes, tried sitting up a couple of times to see if i can muster to stand without passing out. well, third times a charm, they say. i was talking non stop again as we made our way out the hospital.

while waiting for my dad though to get us some water for the ride home, i felt it again, slowly i felt color literally draining from my face. oh no! where's a good bed when you need it? i leaned back, trying to fight the darkness (yes, parang dark angel, ang ew ko!) by the time my dad came with the water and rushed to get the van, i was almost ok, almost.

good thing the van was set up for lolo, the backseat was like a double sized bed, i can sleep it off. but my head was throbbing i can only lay perfectly still and close my eyes. a few minutes in edsa traffic and i was back.

but still, i didnt move. i wanted that to be the last dizzy spell, no more for me, oa na. so i was glad that by the time we arrived at ho tsin ho (my mom treated us to some hearty beef brisket noodles to help replenish "lost" blood) i was feeling much much better. i cant eat though. i didnt even finish half of my noodles. i drank tea instead. tea is good, right?

but then moments later i felt nauseous, then my head started turning. tangina. eto nanaman. i tried going out the resto to get some fresh air. but by the time i reached the door, my knees felt weak. i felt the familiar cold, and sweat was once again forming on my head. i had my eyes closed by then, and i only felt my dad's hand catching me as i began to lose control. moments later my legs became numb, my dad had to half carry-half push my up the van, and i crashed to the back seat "bed"

never ending! good thing everyone was done eating and we can go home. i went directly to bed and stood up only to eat and go weewee. shiyet na malagkit. my head ached after the 3 incidents, i think it was stressed. whether i lost some brain cells from the numerous "shutdowns", i cant tell.

but this i know, unless a loved one really really needs it, i will never, ever, go through that again. tangina.

by the way im O positive.

kagat pala ng langgam ha!!

& our love goes round and round; 11/14/2006 01:01:00 PM
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"mga legal na holduper yung mga yon" -manong taxi


November 07, 2006
and i couldn't have said it any better myself.

we were on our way back from a meeting at Ortigas when mother and manong driver got engaged in a conversation and since i was dwighty-less, i listened.

apparently, mother was hailed by 2 cops and was asked to pull over for "reckless driving". She was crossing an intersection when the light turned red and since she was already a few meters past the alloted, she went on and drove across. and lo and behold 2 cops charged her of reckless driving (as mother had pointed out, it wasnt even reckless driving, beating the red light might have been a closer violation.)

anyway, long story short, they wanted money. "pangkape" is what they said it was. ok. sabi ko nga.

how can you believe in a system such as ours? the people who are supposed to be there to catch criminals are the ones committing crimes. im the one embarassed by these people's actions.

i know life's hard, and most of the time, your salary falls short. but come on! you dont see me taking money from my officemates when we hardly have enough money to buy food. there are ways.

if people would always take short cuts, no matter how immoral it is, then this country is doomed. success is attainable with the right attitude. people, patience really is a virtue.

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not going far from money issue, we were watching TV last night (more of like this morning because i came home past 12midnight..OT) myx was showing Paris Hilton's video. kat commented on how lucky she was, rich and beautiful. i can't help but object.

Paris Hilton doesn't know how to make good use of her wealth and charm (i still dont find her beautiful. she's thin and blonde ...and so is about half of the world) imagine, she can do so much, give so much. sure, she's a businesswoman, and so? that's just something to add to her already overflowing bank account.

im not saying that she is the key to world peace but for someone who's got her resources, its such a waste. so yes, i still dont like her that much, not until she does something so she would be at least of use to this world, and not just another wealthy brat who's stupid enough to get herself filmed while doing the deed.

hay.

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OT nanaman. what's new.

& our love goes round and round; 11/07/2006 06:07:00 PM
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R.E.M.


November 06, 2006
not the band, although i like them.

Rapid eye movement. a stage of sleep, deep sleep. they say that most dreams happen during REM, at least those you remember.

that made me look back, this past few days, ive had dreamless sleeps. could that be an indication that i dont reach REM? am i that stressed?

i know you might be asking, why am i suddenly interested in REM and dreams and stuff. well, i just find it wierd that i wake up each morning as if i just closed my eyes moments ago. no struggling to remember images whatsoever. and its as if its "what i dreamed about last night" month. almost everyone's blog talks about it, kat was retelling me her dreams for the past 3 days already, and i...well, have nothing to share.

di ako in

hehehehe!

i also read that REM depriviation is connected to depression. and lately i have been feeling down and lonely. (que "maalaala mo kayaaaa...) seriously. and im like Eat Bualga's Sugar, crying all over the place, i hate it! i know i cry easily, but not this much, ever! i feel so stupid.

tangina. this is not good, not good at all. my strong woman facade is going down the drain. i cant. it cant.

i need a break. a long break from all of this...

but of course, like everything else in my life is, its not that easy.

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watched marie antoinette. love love loooovvveeddd the production. the story was not life shattering, but it was ok.

but the production, the set, the costumes -- gadeymit! it was all i imagined of versailles, even more. it was "faaaaabyoolus".


the moment i saw the garden on the scene wherein Marie Antoinette first came to the castle and looked out her window, i knew it was versaille. magnificent place! and our tour guide was not kidding us, its like a lifesize TV. kings and queens lived their lives under watchful eyes. imagine eating with people passing by, or sleeping with across your bed. its like living under a microscope. but that was how it was before.

i fell inlove with that castle the first time i went there -- the glamour, rumors, culture, everything that it stands for. and this movie rekindled that. grabe i want to be a queen hahahahaha!

and naman, kagwapuhan naman ang ka-affair na ito...


him or king louie? OH COME ON!

& our love goes round and round; 11/06/2006 12:11:00 PM
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*ding* *ding* *ding*


November 03, 2006
i happened to stumble upon jim paredes' daughter(what's her name again?)'s blog, and reading through her thoughts and sentiments was more like getting hit by a lightning bolt than just actually browsing..

she had described in her posts how she felt about moving (they migrated to either Australia or NZ, im not very sure), and although her's were to an ocean away, and mine but a bus ride, i totally understood what she was saying.

i was not alone. there are two of us going through the same deal.

she also describe "angst" in her posts and i had to reread it about 5 more times because it wont totally sink in.

am i just seeing things? is this just an illusion of some sort, something to bring me back to sanity-or-not?

after 5 retakes, apparently it wasnt. she had described something that i have been trying my ass to define for weeks, even months. and when it came to me, i started to understand myself more. what im going through.

so yes, i might just actually be like her, going through an "adult angst" of some sort. at least im no longer left dazed and confused, or for most part, crying my eyeballs out. i dont need to figure things out anymore, or try to rationalize everything, she had perfectly described my being in a single page.

and sure, things would most probably change, for good or bad, i cant be too sure. but at least now i can sleep at night knowing im not alone, and that after the longest time of struggling i have finally found my balance, now i can ride up or down any kind of slope life brings in front of me, joyride na to.

& our love goes round and round; 11/03/2006 06:30:00 PM
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so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

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still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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