April 30, 2007
kapag nakakakita ako ng tao, lalo na ng bata, na nahihirapan. umiiyak talaga ako. ramdam ko kasi yung sakit kahit pa hinid ko sila kilala. tulad nalang ng wowowee nung sabado, yung batang ni minsan hindi pa nakakain ng isang buong manok. na nung tinanong kung paano nung kaarawan nya? sinabing "walang handa, kapos kasi kami", nanliit ako bigla.
pati noong sa american idol, may nakilala sila na isang 12 anos na bata, na nakatira sa isa sa pinakamahirap na lugar sa africa. isang kwarto ang pinagsasaluhan nila ng kanyang nakababatang kapatid, at namumuhay sila ng walang magulang. sa edad na 12, isa na syang tatay, nanay at kapatid. bakit nangyayari yun. naiyak talaga ako. ang bigat sa loob. kahit na sa ibang bansa yon, tao paren yun, at bata pa. at kung iisipin mo, ganun den naman ang nangyayari dito, marami reng bata ang naghihirap..nagtatrabaho para makapag aral.
nakakainis lang isipin, parang nananadya. araw araw nakakakita ako ng tao na peteks mag-aral. mayayaman na walang ginawa kundi magpa-cute o ipagyabang yung pera nila. (hindi ko naman sinasabing lahat, pero alam kong alam nyo na meron talagang ganito) tapos, kung sino yung mas walang pera, sila yung mas pursigido na makapagtapos. nakakainis diba?
tapos sa sistema naten ngayon? mas napapaboran pa yung mayayaman na yon. bakit? hindi ba't kung 92% ng bansa naten ay mahirap. hindi ba dapat na sila ang mas tuunan ng pansin. na sila dapat yung tinutulungan naten para umangat tayong lahat?
yang public school na yan, dapat libre yan. pero dahil sa pangungurakot, hindi nangyayari yun. imbis na makatulong, mas binibigyan pa naten ng rason para mawalan ng pag-asa yung mga taong talagang nangangailangan dun.
kinwento sakin ng isang magulang na nagpapaaral ng kanyang anak sa publikong paaralan, may dumating raw na kahon kahon na mga gamit tulad ng bag, papel, at lapis para sa mga bata, donasyon, para sa mga bata, pero anong ginawa nila? binenta nila! pinagkakitaan ng matatakaw na tao. kung sino man ho kayo, sana mabasa nyo to. mahiya naman ho kayo. alam ko hong mahirap ang buhay pero anong klaseng tao naman ho kayo. pati bata inuutakan nyo. pera pera nalang ba talaga ang labanan dito? hindi lang ho yung mga corrupt na opisyal ang dapat niyong sisihin kung bakit ganito ang nangyayari sa ating bansa. bawat isa sa atin may pananagutan. sa atin paren dapat magmula ang pagbabago.
nais ko ring pasalamatan ang GMA 7. totoo, wala paren tatalo sa news and current affairs nyo. yung isang tanong kagabi, hinintay ko talaga. kasi panahon na para mabigyan ng parehas na oportunidad ang mga tumatakbo sa senado, na hindi lang yung mga may pera ang makikilala. kung tutuusin karamihan sa kanila wala naman katuturan ang pinaggagagawa sa TV. nakakainip lang tuloy.
tama ang sinabi ng isang senetoriable e, dahil sa estado naten ngayon, yung may pera lang ang maririnig.
pero sa 13 senetoriable na umupo kagabi, bilang sa isang kamay ang mga pangalan na nakombinse akong karapatdapat sila sa boto ko. merong may kinikilingan, may dinadaan sa dada, merong parang tumatakbo para sa maling dahilan, at meron ding sadyang di ko lang maintindihan.
alam kong nakakakaba, na maharap ka ng ganun at magisa, kung hindi ka magaling magsalita, o ikaw yung tulad kong kabado, maaaring mautal utal ka nga. para sa akin, ayos lang naman yun eh. pero para yung simpleng tanong hindi mo masagot ng maayos. yung andami daming sinabi pero wala naman koneksyoon sa tanong. parang, ako ba ginagago mo? kahit na ang isang tao hindi matalas magsalita, kung may laman ang sinasabi, malalaman mo yun. hindi yung kung ano ano sasabihin mo, limitado ang oras pero isisiksik mo yung mga wala naman kwenta o walang kakonekoneksyon sa tanong, kumbaga, mga pampa-pogi points lang, eh nakakainis lang eh. sinayang nyo yung opportunidad. sana ginamit nyo ng maayos.
sa 13, sobrang sumang-ayon ako sa ilang sagot nila chiz escudero at alan cayetano. bago pa man sila umupo doon nasa listahan ko na sila. pero dahil sa kagabi, mas napatunayan kong tama ang desisyon ko.
oo mayabang si chiz. may ere kung magsalita. pero in furnes, may maipagyayabang naman. at tama sya eh, nung tinanong sya na parang kung kani kanino nalang nakampi. palagay ko nabanggit ko na to dito sa blog ko noon. it shouldn't be personal. ang pinaglalaban dapat yung tama, wala ka dapat na isang tao lang na kakampihan. kung tunay na gusto mong ipaglaban ang hustisya at katotohanan, na gusto mong matanggal ang corruption, walang side ka dapat na kunin kundi yung sa naghahangad ng kaunlaran. wala dapat kinikilala pag dating jan. na hindi dapat nababase sa loyalty, kasi napaka-one sided. hindi dapat para sa isang tao, kundi para sa lahat ng tao. yun ang prinsipyo. hindi balimbing ang tawag dun. kasi hindi naman talaga dapat yung isang tao ang ipaglalaban mo..kapag ganun kasi, pano kapag yung kinampihan mo na ang gumawa ng katiwalian? pikit mata mo nalang ba syang kakampihan?
si sir alan cayetano naman, kahit mukha syang drawing (hindi drawing na negatibo to ha, pero diba literal na mukha syang cartoon? hehe! sorry, napansin ko lang.) tama sya, ang dapat pagtuunan ng pansin, at paglaanan ng kaban ng bayan, yung tao. edukasyon at kalusugan. yan ang 2 sa pinakaimportante, simulat sapul palang, yun na ang gusto ko, mapabuti ang kalidad ng edukasyon sa bansa naten, na mabigyan ang lahat ng patas na oportunidad sa pagaaral. na gawin libre ang edukasyon sa mga nangangailangan, hindi libre librehan lang. kasi jan na lahat magsisimula. kung ang tao ang inonourish mo (sorry ano ba talgalog nun?) hindi ba't mas malaki ang chance na makakaahon tayong lahat? ano ang gagawin ko sa magagandang daan kung sa likod ng malalaking bakod may daang linya ng barungbarong, mga pamilyang gustuhin man ay hindi magawang maiahon ang sarili sa hirap? magaakit nga kayo ng mga investor mula sa ibang bansa, pero ipupusta ko, sa mga nakapag-aral lang mapupunta ang trabahong yan. eh kung lahat ng tao may pinag-aralan? magiging patas ngayon ang labanan. hindi nalang mananatili sa 7% ng population naten ang yaman. may pagkakataon na ang lahat para maiangat ang sarili. oo andun na kailangan matyaga at masipag ka. pero iba paren kung may hawak kang diploma. hay.. nadadala nanaman ako. kasi naman E!
sa susunod na linggo, kahit na gabi na sya, hihintayin ko ulit ang isang tanong. sana kayo ren. sana sa darating na eleksyon..matuto na tayo, na hindi nalang sa pagpapacute, o sa pangangako ibabase ang pagboto. minsan di lang sapat na gusto mo ng pagbabago, sa pagtakbo sa politika, importante ren na alam mo kung papaano makukuha yung pagbabagong gusto mo mangyari.
at totoo naman na hindi mo kailangan maging senador para makatulong sa ikauunlad ng bansa naten. sabi nga ni alan cayetano, ayon kay JFK "think not what the government can do for you, think what YOU can do for your country."
ganun lang naman kasimple yun. gusto mo ng pagbabago? simulan mo sa sarili mo. hindi yung angal ka ng angal eh ikaw ren naman yung gumagawa ng kung ano ano. ipokrito.
& our love goes round and round;
4/30/2007 10:50:00 AM |
i am mrs tea pot..
April 27, 2007
short and stout.
cruel genetics, why must i be the one to get this gene! curse you!
is there a way for me to get thinner and a foot taller in record time?? hay...i know i know, i sound like a superficial brat. i just saw pictures of an old college friend who now works for Emirates Airlines, thus is now able to travel the world.
im glowing GREEN and i wont even try to hide it. i want to be a stewardess, NOW! i don't care if i have to serve coffee everyday of my life, or even massage the foot of every first class passenger (im not saying they do, this is my hyper imagination..well, being hyper) if that would mean that i could go places, I WILL. NO QUESTIONS ASKED!
i don't care if that would deprive me of intimacy, or time with real people. waaaaaaaaaah! i want to travel! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH! *throws tantrums*
is there another job out there that can clutter my passport, without me needing to be tall? i was thinking about being a journalist, but that wont do, im a lousy writer. a travel show host? nah, im not pretty nor articulate enough. WHAT ELSE!!
gawd, WHY AM I SO DESPERATE? does this mean im still not sure if im doing the job i love? i don't know anymore. all i know is, if i were an ayala, id spend one whole year backpacking around the world (id rather spend on food and adventure, than accomodation). at shempre, ill have all the gadgets i want, kaya, photo op ito.
hay,,,ansaya mangarap.
& our love goes round and round;
4/27/2007 07:44:00 AM |
this kid is so cute!
April 26, 2007
i know, i am a good candidate to be next most wanted pedophile. what can i say? i love kids! here he is again, i think he's a little older here
loves it! mmmwaaaah andreW!! :) you are the cutest!!
& our love goes round and round;
4/26/2007 05:01:00 PM |
im bored.
April 25, 2007
therefore, i blog.
im so restless. ive been rounding the office like a supervisor. i usually like being left alone, but there's something about being alone in a cold office room.
or is it just because i know i really REALLY want to go to the beach, or anywhere else that is sunshiny, but at the moment, i cant.
i can't seem to focus on anything. i know i need to do an ad for a client, but my mind's somewhere else. hay...
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got to watch one of my favorite chick flicks last night, Down to You. and to quote them...
"it's not about the meaning of life, it's the feeling of Life"
"Tingles and everything"
wala..shiyet wala talaga ako magawa. hay. beach. save me.
& our love goes round and round;
4/25/2007 02:03:00 PM |
OMG
April 24, 2007
a panda! I might seriously see an actual panda bear! No, not might, I wont leave until I see one! And if I can ill smuggle it. Hahahahaha!
Phd takes over beijing, coming june 2007!!! Lemme hear you say, Wooot wooooooot!!! ( Wooot wooooooot!!!)
I cant wait to do a part 2 of our run, this time, at the great effing wall of china!!!
Alavet!
& our love goes round and round;
4/24/2007 10:53:00 AM |
seriously?
April 23, 2007
I feel so stupid. I mean seriously. When I’m put on the spot, I can’t effing understand what I’m saying. It’s like, ok ciara, time to play the random word game...so what’s your name? LEMON!
Darn it. Its so frustrating coz I hear myself and its like I can’t stop stupid words from pouring out of my mouth.
It’s like I have tongue cramps of some sort and it turns as thick and as flat as board, so I can’t pronounce words properly.
I hate it. I hate myself.
It sucks coz I think I can carry a conversation in english well when I’m talking to my friends. But for those who I have to make a good impression on, I totally turn into a zombie.
It’s like a reoccurring nightmare. Every single time I’m asked to go up front and present. My hands and feet reach record breaking coldness, and I have that sour taste on my mouth, and my throat dries up, and I feel whoozy and lightheaded, as if I took a bottle of cough medicine ( not that I ever tried taking more than two capsules at a time. don’t ask why I took 2, I regretted taking them, plus an anti-histamine, on the night when my friends and I tried grand matador for the first time. Mae, remember? Adiktus. )
Hay, I think I need to get theater lessons, to get rid of this stage fright.
Or maybe I’m really just better off as a wallflower. maybe I should really pursue film, that way I’d be working behind a camera, and I can put my femme fatale qualities into good use by ordering everyone around, a venti café americano at one hand and a megaphone at the other.
I don’t know, I’m just seriously pissed at myself. Good thing some friends are coming over tonight.
I need distractions. I think I might self combust at any moment.
& our love goes round and round;
4/23/2007 02:42:00 PM |
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i want someone who could make me feel like im the most perfect person in the world eventhough we both know its not true. i want to feel like im beautiful and sexy even if it's just for this one person's eyes. don't i deserve it? doesn't every girl deserve that? or am i just delusional...
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do we always have to choose? can't 2 parties just co-exist without civilians getting caught in the middle? if both parties have one and the same goal, why must there be two sides of the same coin?
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if love and being happy is a choice, then should it really be either or?
& our love goes round and round;
4/23/2007 05:43:00 AM |
trigger-sad
April 18, 2007
as much as i enjoy my current phone, i can't help but miss having a camera-phone (im using nokia E61 now) i mean sure, i can do a lot of things with it, everything except take a picture. at first i thought i can do this, i can do without it..well i can, but i just really miss having a handy stalker-camera inside my bag. i still can't afford to buy a DSLR for myself, so yes, no moment capturing for me. i can't even properly share the interesting things i see.
take this morning for example. i was walking behind this girl on the way to the office. she looked ok, simple top, a cute white skirt, polished hair...then i got to her feet. i think i held my breath for a while. am i just imagining it or are her toes darker than most of her feet??
it looked like she either was stepped on (on both feet), has birthmarks on all her 10 toes, or, good gawd i hope not, that was TOE HAIR! (SEE! dont you think you would better appreciate this story if i had photos to document it)
so yeah, i'll let your imagination work on that one.
for now, i just really miss having a camera. and im not sure if id be delighted or annoyed that nokia made an upgrade of my phone..nokia E61i, WITH CAMERA! ill check later how much i need to add for me to swap my phone.
i love my phone features. i can make documents, spreadsheets and ppt presentations with it, i can email easily, i can browse without the annoying wap format because what i see is what i would see on a regular PC, and i can read ebooks with my pdf reader. i just finished harry potter book 6 and currently have in my library almost all of the good classic books. im reading pride and prejudice now. all i really lack is a camera. so lord of nokia, i hope you didnt make this upgrade too pricey, please!
& our love goes round and round;
4/18/2007 06:54:00 AM |
Bangkok Run
April 17, 2007
This was taken tita malou's DSLR using continuous capturing. we were exploring the bangkok zoo (i forgot what the name of the place was) and since not one of us act our age, we just couldn't resist making a fool our of ourselves.hehe
this is long overdue, i was just browsing for photos and stumbled upon it when i remembered i could make gifs thru imageready.(thank you adobe!) and although it happened almost a year ago, it can still make me laugh. actually it made all of us laugh, everyone who's in the photo, including the person behind the camera.
hay, i hope we have another trip this year so there's another chance for us to do stuff like this (not that we need to go to a foreign country to act foolish) its just so funny, and everyone was so game. laughtrip!
i will upload individual shots at the my bangkok album, you can just check out more of our antics there. :)
& our love goes round and round;
4/17/2007 01:22:00 PM |
im kunfuse
Im thinking of giving up my blogspot blog and just maintain my multiply. i can cross-post anyway. but i dont know. i have no plans of erasing any, maybe ill just be at multiply most of the time (since its easy to post photos and songs and videos..and everything is in one page..so...)
anyway, not that i have any avid readers other than my friends. haha! whatever.
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clients who acts like they are a God irritates me. and then, when they friggin mess up, they'll blame you. why can't she just listen? she's causing so much hassle i dont even know where to start! i hate this! i can't believe im waisting this space for her. darn it
& our love goes round and round;
4/17/2007 07:28:00 AM |
Wanted: Writer
April 12, 2007
We are in need of a writer with a passion for words. Someone who doesn’t mind having his/her hands and mind full, day-in and day-out. A person who can make short messages long and long messages short. An individual who can or thinks he/she can block writer’s block.
If you are interested, or know someone who is, kindly forward your resume to ciaring@gmail.com and be ready with a portfolio of your works. reminder: plagiarism is a crime.
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This is not a drill.
I repeat.
This is not a drill.
& our love goes round and round;
4/12/2007 05:54:00 PM |
This and that...
I never realized how much trouble I go through to make my life even more complicated, when in reality, it can be so simple. Not until I spent days with people who laughed at the smallest things, made wonderful things out of those that I would never even give a second glance, and live comfortably without much effort.
How one can do absolutely nothing is an art I’d like to master. The tranquility of just sitting still, eyes out of focus, and brain amazingly empty, but not really. Separating yourself from all the distractions that’s bringing you down for a few moments, and then returning with spirits no walls can stop. Imagine how everything would seem so mediocre compared to living life to its absolute fullness. Sarap.
They say the Lenten season is the best time to reflect on your life. But I say, it doesn’t have to be holy week for you to look for yourself and find the simple joys of living. It can happen at any time, at any place. Sometimes we just get too caught up with all the unnecessary baggage we tend to carry on our backs that we forget to stop and look at what today, this very moment, can offer.
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On the lighter side, here’s a review of the much-talked about movie, 300. (copied from <a href=”http://lala0range.livejournal.com/”> Ala Paredes</a>, author of the review still unknown)
Di kinaya ng powers ko ang kahotness ng movieness na itetch! It's raining men! (haleluya)! like go go go mga anik anik at ang mga mudra mega taray ang haba ng hair production number clothing designer eklavu powerness! kaboom!
It's like go papa spartans! go delisyus fighting karne! i get so weak on the knees i can't hardly breath go go go! spapartans make bugbog the evil persia! make warla the queen xerxes.
At antaray naman ng lolaaaaaa xerxes mooooooo! nagmamaasim ang fingerlets ng hinawakan si spapartan head papa! ang entrance pang vilma with matching solid gold dancers itetch! with diamente ala maricel! wiiinnneeeeeer! ang eye brows ha! mega shoot to the stratosphere sa katarayan!
Ang warlahan ditetch daig pa ang rineregla sa dami ng vlood! at ang nacut neck na cutie spartan...nag cryola aketch! di kinaya ng emoticons ko ang death by tamponess ng cutie spartan. huhuhu. I'm sure proud si mother ricky dahil ang ganduuuuuuuuh talaga ng movieng itetch. like super mega walang halong chorva!
PERO LYER SILA! binilang ko ang mga papa...di umabot ng 300. 127 lang ang mga spapartans! etchos!
If that won’t make you watch the movie I don’t know what will! Hahahahaha! Laughtrip ampoots. I read it after seeing the film though. So as I was reading I was nodding and holding back a hefty laugh while at it. Tanginang banat yan. I loved the “go delisyus fighting karne!” part. Hahaha!
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This is the day Leslie Fortaleza graduates as a nursing student.
WOOOOT WOOOOOOOT!
Don’t you just love it when someone achieves something, it doesn’t matter how big or small it is. You share the happiness nevertheless. I hope she doesn’t trip...or get caught if she pushed through with her plans of cutting a portion of Manila Hotel’s red carpet.
CHEERS PAREKOY! Inuman at lamunan na to sa Linggo!
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I woke up today with that weird urge to clean the whole apartment, and I don’t know why. And although I spent the whole day here in the office, it didn’t wear off...I still feel like continuing the task when I get back tonight. I guess general cleaning on the inside automatically extends over to the outside.
& our love goes round and round;
4/12/2007 04:20:00 PM |
This is the 3rd time im editing this
April 10, 2007
And it has never been clearer to me that i need a camera soon. im not very good with words, so visual repesentation would do great things for me. hay. 45K...how can i produce 45K...
anyway, for the highlights of my 10-day hiatus, you'd havet o make do with words..
sat was a great start, we were off to Anilao to dive. explored Layag layag, Eagle's point and The Cathedral. and although it was my second time to dive in anilao (we did our check out dive there last year) it was as if ive been there for the first time. hay, ansarap.
and i bought a set of Beuchat fins, mask and snorkel for only P2,700!! yeeeey! (it might look pricey, but believe me, that's a good deal) and im planning on buying a wetsuit soon because, although im not that sure, i had itches all over my body the day after the dive. maybe i do need protection. pesteng balat.
Also, while we were at eagle's point, i saw this huge, and i mean HUGE, fish just a few more feet below us. but i mustve been about 60ft down already so i couldn't go any lower. i tried showing it to my buddy, but by the time i got his attention (as much as wanted to shout, he wouldn't hear me) it was gone. scary, but exciting. im still waiting for the day when i will see a shark up close, well maybe not so up close. hehe
sunday was spent sleeping, lazing around, and burning fat at our hot apartment. monday, i traveled alone to pampanga. out of ignorance, i ended up riding a "saulog bus" in which the only empty seat was beside a big man wearing a sleeveless shirt, sporting a faded greenish tattoo, and smells like he was left under the sun for hours (im sorry im not being bad, but that's just how he really smelled like.) before we entered NLEX, the bus was full, and i was trapped. bv.
anyway, spent the rest of the holidays with boyp's family in pampanga. drinking every night, trying to listen and learn how to speak or at least understand kapangpangan. and just trying to learn from the people around me
i also got to eat a goat. hehe! coolness. caldereta, sinigang, papaitan and sisig...all cooked with one whole goat. it was an experience, a very yummy experience.
it was also then that i first experienced what they call mandarami and tira bakal. mandarami are people who deliberately wound their backs and repeatedly hit it with a bunch of sticks tied to a rope. most of them walk the sizzling hot streets of pampanga barefoot. there are also those who carry a wooden cross and stops at churches or houses that hosts "pabasa's", lie on the street and have someone hit them on their legs and arms. brutal, i know.
tira-bakal are a group of men in costume, with one carrying the cross, and the others dressed as Jews. the man carrying the cross would be chased by the "Jews" and when they catch him, they'll torture him by hitting him, pushing the cross at every direction and kicking him, all at the same time. we even saw one who was tied on his waist and was being pulled by two other men. they were all running fast while doing the torture, so when the guy tripped it was always head first. there was this one time when i think i got too carried away that the man by the cross also got out of balance and ended up sitting on the cross which was sandwhiched between his butt and the "jesus" head. ouch.
they also have a handful of people who are nailed to a cross, but they didn't allow me to go. i had to make do with TV coverage since, from their stories, you had to walk a long way to reach the place where they put up the cross. there's also no shade, the path is not cemented and there will surely be alot of people there, bad for my asthma. tsk
anyway, on most of the days, i did nothing. hehe! just as i planned. drank beer every night, ate delicious food. (vin's mom cooks really really well. i must've gained a pound or two a day. hahaha!)
so although i only got the taste of sea water one day for the whole 10 days, it was well worth it. i had my rest. now im back at work..with renewed spirits.
by 1pm (hopefully i dont have any work to do) we'd be off to a bowling party, the whole PHD. so yeah, better check if there's anything i need to do, para walang sagabal. im looking at winning the challenge. LETS DOH IT!
& our love goes round and round;
4/10/2007 06:53:00 PM |
random dashboard
so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)
1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.
Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.
And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)
Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!
behind the wheel
still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.
