a very disturbing dream

March 22, 2007 it's usually not surprising that i dream of someone kissing me. for one, its a dream, and second, it sort of became a sign for me because usually, the person involved became either my short time crush or long time obsession. i know, its wierd, im wierd that way. before i even admit to myself that i like someone, i dream about him first, but not just any dream, along the way he had to kiss me, usuually on the cheek or the forehead.

but last night was different. i struggled at waking myself upin the middle of it but I CANT!

i cant remember the whole dream but that part, omaigad! i remember seeing him with a little boy. since he's a friend of mine, i came closer to say hi. you can just imagine my shock when he hugged me. (i was thinking as myself in my dream which do not happen everytime.usually the me in my dreams act and think on their own and i end up being an audience to everything) but then, i did not react, i think i was too shocked to. i just thought that he was just being makulit, because while he was hugging me he was playing with the kid (who i think is supposed to be his son)

i tried to move away, but he suddenly kissed me...on the LIPS...TWICE! and i was frozen the whole time. he told me he loved me, i stared back, maybe he thought i did not hear him so he said it again, by this time i had goosebumps all over, bad ones, and i was already trying to wake myself up. WHAT'S HAPPENING! then he hugged me again and said something like "tandaan mo yun..(remember that)" and he left with the kid.

I remember standing there for a few more minutes, not moving a muscle, not even blinking, then all of a sudden i woke up.

i know, i might sound a little paranoid, getting all anxious over a dream, but, i dont know, dreams of that sort is special to me, its my warning. and this one has a new twist. the kiss was on the lips instead of the usual cheek or forehead. and the three words were spoken twice. (there's usually no proclamation of feeling whatsoever in the past) and the most omaigad thing of all is, he's the bf of a friend. eeeek! no way!

i dont even know how he ended up in my dream, do i think about him? ah, no. i mean sure, i see him alot, but that's because he is you-dont-need-to-know's bf.

oh gawd, eventhough its just a dream i felt sick to the stomach, as if it really happened. seriously!

ano ba kasi itong mga panaginip ko. pls let this not be another one of my love "premonitions". oh god, no! that's off limits, as in. ayoko! YAK! (no offense, but..you know!)

oh gawd! i can't get over it, goose bumps all over!

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speaking of boys, just this week, i was with alvin (grabe perfect timing) when my phone rang, but i missed it, and it registered a number not saved in my PB, so i thought it might be one of those contact i lost when my old phone went whacko on me. he was nearer my phone and he saw it first (i was cooking, i think) he asked me who it was. of course i said i dont know, how could i?

so i told him to just text the number and ask who it was. and unluckily for me, it replied.

"this is bill, you're no. is on my PB." he read out loud. i froze

"Who's bill?" he said, "i dont know!" i quickly answered. but i perfectly know who it was. pero shempre, deny, he doesnt have to know who that is, im not planning on replying anyway.

to refresh your memory, bill was that model who i danced with at the after party of cosmo bachelors (dont look him up, he is not gwapo!but he does have a fab bod) i remember him stopping me on my tracks at the middle of the dance floor and just started dancing, ako naman, sumayaw den. hahahahaha!

the next thing i knew we were back at the table with my friends, then he was being all flirty, and i couldn't care less, so i just let him do his stuff and try to appear a bit interested. and then...well. jumping now, he wanted me to go home with him to QC in his "bike" i was like, ARE YOU KIDDING ME? IM NOT A PICK UP CHICK YOU ASS! but of course i did not say that. i told him i had to go, i asked my guy friends to accompany me out and wait until im inside a cab. freaky!

and this was the funny and at the same time yucky part. before i went, he pulled me again, raised his shirt and ran my hand over his abs. i wanted to laugh and puke, but i stopped myself in time, pulled my guy friend and left absinth! gawd! how vain can you be? he sure loved himself.

anyway, days after that i got a text, it was him, at first i thought who bill was, i dont remember giving my no. to someone named bill. someone must have tripped on me and gave him my no. naku! wag na sya ulit magtext!! EWWWWW!!!!

and by the way, that "bike" he was talking about, like it was so macho and stuff, was a scooter. gawdeymit, he's a scooterboy! YUCK HA!

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so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

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still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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