reality check

March 05, 2007 the jig's up, there is absolutely nothing special about me. and the things i do? they are but mediocre. there's nothing new, or even worthwhile that i have contributed to anything or anyone. i wake up each morning trying to be what people expect me to be, but you know what, i probably can't reach any of thse expectations even if i die... i am not meant for anything great. just plain me. nothing extrordinary here. in everything that i can do, there's not one that im relly really god at, you know, there's nothing that i excel in. yes i can do many things, but everything's at average.

i guess that's all there is to me. the test scores weren't accurate, i was not above average. i am just an average girl fooling myself that i can pull this off. to those who trusted and believed in me, im sorry for letting you down. i tried. but thinking about what's happening now makes me realize one thing. im nothing but an alcoholic wannabe.

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random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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