shoes and love

February 21, 2007 i was walking along ayala this morning, semi-trotting (coz im almost late) with a pair of shoes ive only worn for the 4th time since my mom gave it to me.

during the first 3x, i get blisters by day's end because of the material (and the fact that im yet to learn how to "walk it"). people always say that since its new, blisters are expected. you're feet should hurt for the first few times you wear them but eventually the material will soften.

but has anyone ever thought that its not really that the material has softened after a few uses. maybe after months of abuse, yes, but for the 4th time? did it ever occur to anyone that it might be because our skin becomes tougher and that the pain becomes tolerable since you love the shoes you are wearing, you wont notice how much pain it causes. the credit therefore is not to the shoe, but to the foot that is wearing it.

It all boils down to making choices. you choose to suffer the few days of pain, just until your feet is used to it already that its almost non-existent.

Just like love. you put your foot into a relationship that you think suits you. you have all this fantasies of the walks you're going to take together, the time you're going to spend in each others company, places you could go, the path to forever.

but then it hurts you, most of the time, unintentionally. but the first is the most painful, the biggest blister of all. yet you choose to forget about it and go through with it. again it burns your skin, and again, and again, but as time goes by the pain seem to diminish. you get used to it that you dont notice it anymore. you chose to stick with your favorite pair, that's all there is to it.

kahit ano pa ang sabihin ng ibang tao, kahit may oras na nasasaktan ka, masaya ka sa pares mo. para sayo, its a perfect fit.

but love, just like any shoe, needs work-it has to be taken care of. there's a certain amount of effort to be exerted for it to last. Like your lola's favorite pair of tsinelas, it could look tattered but its the strongest and most comfortable pair in the lot because although she used it often, she took extra care of it.

other shoes, either due to low quality or overuse and abused, were retired. because it can only take so much. when neglected, if abused, it can lose a heel, can get detached from the sole, or have a hole big enough that you would know if its heads or tail when you step on a coin. its an inevitable casualty.

and the thing is, with love, there's no Mr. Quicky to put it back to shape.

Labels: love drunk, realizations

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

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still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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