pleasantly surprised

January 14, 2009

there's nothing more irritating and at the same time elating than having all your insecurities and paranoia proven wrong by someone. it just goes to show that most problems are actually just in your head. or that you're played again, leaving you pleasantly surprised once you reached the punch line... you know, when you want to punch someone for doing it but then you're happy he/she did it...fool.

i gotta stop this, all the mental battles with myself. its good that i've kept it at bay for the longest time but then, if there's really nothing i should be worried about, i really should just stop, or i'll end up hurting and punishing myself for nothing, seriously.

ciara, wag ka ngang nega, oa na.

i don't know when or how i ended up this way actually, for someone who i think is blessed with a lot in life, i've always had low self esteem. i know, kinda hard to picture, but i do. i mostly keep it inside but then, i'm not very good at hiding my feelings, at least it shows in my face if you look closer, even if i don't say anything. so this is my biggest challenge this year, to overcome this.

stop being so negative, c.i.a.r.a.

you're worth more than you think.

& our love goes round and round; 1/14/2009 01:34:00 AM
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random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. ~~Macbook~~
2. ~~DSLR Camera~~
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. ~~a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)~~
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. ~~Oven. i want to bake.~~
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.

Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and ~~longer~~ messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by ~~november/december/january~~ soon.

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GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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