guess who...
September 30, 2008
got a lot hotter??
hehehehe! shiyet anak ang pogi mo! hehehehehe!
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overspent last week?
i'm blaming this one on my PMS. Me and my sister had the sudden urge to walk all the way to Long's (mala-Mercury drug dito na may convenient store na) to buy some "feel good bath" stuff. so we got the works. had we had the chance to use the tub, i would've bought bubble bath and scented candles too.
oh and yes that's tequila over there.
and yes, i emptied that bottle already (with the help of some friends. hehe)
again, im blaming this on my PMS.
& our love goes round and round;
9/30/2008 11:32:00 PM
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my family is growing
September 24, 2008
hey hey hey! meet my new baby kerbean! :) he's an argus bean camera, fits in my palm (almost) and has a latch which you can clip to your bag or pants. 8MP 28mm lens and some manual controls (white balance, etc), not bad, not bad at all.
actually he's not new anymore, i just failed to introduce him because of all the other things inside my battlefield of a brain. got him when my sister and i went to best buy to go buy her own laptop. of course, my sister ended up not buying one, and as for me, i came home with him.
i was just supposed to look for a cheap point and shoot cam since i already gave dexter to my sister and cousin to use. i know i cant tag along derek all the time so wanted a handy point and shoot for all those random moments.
lo and behold, i found him. he's water resistant too so i get to bring him with me by the beach, where i wont dare take derek anymore after that incident in lobo when we both were swallowed alive by that GINORMOUS wave (ok fine, it wasn't that big, and we weren't "swallowed" but he got wet and my top came off, so for us, it might as well be a tsunami. anyway, enough about the favorite child. hehehe!) can't take him underwater though, that's dewey's job. (who's films i really really need to start developing..its been a while)
he's quite useful for something i bought for like $50, but notice that white patch by his flash, had to put it there coz his flash can render people blind. he has a video mode too so its cool, something derek can't do.
we've been playing around it alot, i even dont mind the kids playing with it and taking their own pictures and videos. its cute actually. i'll upload an album of the photos taken with him next so you can see.
oo na, eto talaga ang kahinaan ko. one day i'll be homeless, pero yung bag ko panay camera ang laman..at shempre my epoy! hehe!
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"in the hospital we see addiction everyday. its shocking how many kinds of addiction there is. it would be too easy if it was just drugs and booze and cigarettes. i think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. i mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? often, too often, things that start out just as a normal part of your life at some point crosses the line. too obsessive, compulsive, out of control. its the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away.
the thing about addiction is it never ends well. because eventually whatever it is that was getting us high stops feeling good and starts to hurt. still they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. but how do you know when you're there? because no matter how that thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse." - Meredith Grey, Love/Addiction, s4 ep2
new season starts thursday, tanginaaaaaa!! season 4 marathon time yo! eeeeeeeeeeeeeexcitement! hehehehehehe!
& our love goes round and round;
9/24/2008 03:15:00 AM
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ding ding ding!
September 23, 2008
bakit nga ba nakalimutan ko yun. there's a big opportunity for me, how did i miss it before, and i had to go through all those days and nights of sitting all alone, thinking, and finishing a few more sticks than i should have, when the answer i've been looking for was right in front of my face.. pakingshet!
its brilliant, i can start small, it can be a part time thing, expand my network first, beef up my portfolio, slowly invest in equipments. in the meantime i can continue doing what im doing now, what ill get from it will help finance that business, if everything goes well.
right, ill start this weekend, my first photo "job"... well, its nothing formal, i just asked if i can take photos of a friend's niece's wedding, they were delighted with the idea coz they only had a videographer to cover the event. i don't mind if i don't get paid for it, but if they do like my shots, i think i can get a few bucks from it...and some recommendation too.
then you remember all that videos we do at the office for someone's birthday? they pay people to do that here. good pay too, i mean, considering we do it for fun there. it doesnt have to be a steven spielberg, amazed na sila sa slideshow with some text and effects... of all the videos i made, i think i can say that im well experienced on that field. hehe! so im offering to do some stuff for free for now... just for now *wink* ill start with auntie mama's birthday and auntie ling's "memories" hahahahaha!
gad! now im excited! yey! progress!! :)
shit i need the nifty fifty for the portraits! waaaaah! wheeeeerrreeee to buuuuuuuuuy!
now that i have that laid out already...next order of business. how can i stay longer here.. gotta make them calls brah. you know..dakine!
f*ckin starting to sound more and more hawaiian now. dakiiiiiinnneee!! you know dakiiiiiinnne!!
& our love goes round and round;
9/23/2008 04:29:00 AM
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mix mix
September 19, 2008
so how am i? better, there are still days when id drain my head by thinking too much.
i mean, time's running out, what am i gonna do with my life now?? there's one road that i could take, something that has been laid out quite neatly before me, and yet im too scared to take that route. why? i don't know, maybe because its going to be the BIGGEST decision in my life so far.
its like leaving pinas part two. am i willing to leave behind everything to go for something that might make me happy? what about the other things that i thought would... i know i dont necessarily have to give them up too but then, would this compromise all those things that i always wanted to do?
maybe.
maybe not.
its hard when your faced with uncertainty. i've always had this plans, a long list of things to do before i die. everything i do is geared towards accomplishing that long list.
now im offered another life. a good one too, but it still got me thinking twice, just how much do i need to give up or put at the backseat for this?
and then his words kept repeating inside my head.
then we'll make them happen together.
together. is that the one thing that i missed when i made the list? i made it just for myself. that I alone can enjoy it. but can one really enjoy something alone? is it better to have someone to share all my little accomplishments with? someone to be there with me, be insanely happy with just because.
idk. im rambling again.
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to those who asked, im calling him my Apollo, God of
light and the sun; truth and prophecy; archery; medicine and healing; music, poetry, and the arts;
Epoy for short (thanks sir law for the nickname! hehe)
andami pang eklat sa apollo eh..wala lang, parang powging powgi ang dating..
i really need to buy his hardshell already, demit... my Apollo needs his armor. :)
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i saw a turtle upclose @.@ astiiiiig!! it was dozing of by the shore,, next time ill swim with them too, when we have enough time. we just stopped by to take pictures, didn't have time to swim, boo! next time next time..turtle, then sting and manta rays,,then shaaaarks!! ehhehe!
btw, there were a lot of shark sightings on this side of the world, so there are alot of beaches that are closed to the public. i was planning to dive soon pa naman :( i mean, yeah i want to swim with REEF sharks, not tigers or hammerheads or the great white.
mahal ko naman ang buhay ko diba.
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photos coming soon. wala na kong battery and i forgot my converter and even my extra batt at the other house, ill try to upload the old ones :)
next
& our love goes round and round;
9/19/2008 12:57:00 AM
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magulong isip = magulong post
September 13, 2008
wasaaaaaap.
wala.
marami.
dont think too much?
how can i not think too much?
im happy.
but why must it be complicated?
im still not convinced.
pano ba?
but i'm happy.
when i'm with you.
nothing matters.
till i'm alone with my thoughts.
which sucks.
i don't want to overanalyze.
pero ayaw ko ren magpadalos dalos.
totoo ba to?
totoo ka bA?
totoo ba ako?
ewan ko.
ang gulo.
pero masaya ako.
di ba pwedeng yun nalang, masaya ako, masaya ka, period.
pero hindi.
di na to laro.
di na ko bata.
i want to stay.
will you?
for how long?
dont tell me im confused, im just cautious.
dont ask me why im having a hard time believing, i cant answer you.
i appreciate everything.
i see the change.
i appreciate the effort.
the simple things i appreciate more.
but.
i know you can if you wanted to.
sh*t.
ayokong masaktan.
ayokong makasakit.
anu baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
mahal kita.
ang korni ko.
shiyet.
& our love goes round and round;
9/13/2008 05:17:00 AM
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random dashboard
so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)
1.
Macbook
2.
DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10.
a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13.
Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.
Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.
And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)
Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!
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still the same ciara, just with more work and
longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by
november/december/january soon.
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GPS system
this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!
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