I'm a firm believer that one always, and i mean always have a choice. even deciding not to choose is a choice in itself. I've also realized that what is "right" to one person does not automatically become "right for you".
so why am i blabbering about making choices? because i am on that stage of taking a totally life changing decision. am i making the right decision? or am i just throwing my whole life down the drain?
I mean who am i to know, what might seem to be wrong now can turn out to be the only right thing that i'll ever do in my life.
So guys, this is me, going WAY outside my comfort zone. me, willingly feeding myself to the lions and the tigers and the hippopotamus and the bees. (wala lang, para di super serious...)
for what?
to see what i'm really made of. to discover who I am, go for what i really want.
most people spend their lives waiting for the "right moment" and putting things off. I promised myself, i won't be that person because i know if that happens then i'd probably kill myself along the way.
I'm not doing this for fame or fortune.i don't expect to be the next bill gates or steve jobs. I'm just doing the things that i've always wanted to do, no questions or hesitations.
I'm doing this for myself, for my own fulfillment. I'm doing this not for money but for experience. Once i do get that, then i'm sure i'm gonna die a crazy but very happy woman. :)
and with this, let me end this entry with a quote from a friend.
Pao: 'Tay, paano niyo nalaman na magsusulat kayo buong buhay niyo?
JCR: Nang ipinagpalit ko ang lahat para sa makinilya.
[ed. have had this for a few weeks now. after numerous times of rereading and redoing it, i think it is time i come out in the open. i just wanted to add this little bit.
The past few weeks have been confusing and draining. thinking about things day in and day out. although i knew that my heart has already chosen, everything else seem to be taking its time, everything is a blur and i honestly thought that it would stay that way until i lose my sanity. was i really rushing into things? should i also slow down? am i just forcing it? maybe i still need to rethink this?
then last night, i talked to God, i told him that whatever His plan is for me, I'm leaving it up to Him. All i asked was the courage to accept it.
This morning, the moment i woke up, my mom greeted me with a date and confirmation. i didn't even ask her, it was just suddenly..there. then everything just fell into place. everything became clear - ciara, dizizit.
Lord, you really do listen. Thank you! ]
