Life is the sum of all your choices - Albert Camus
May 13, 2008
I'm a firm believer that one always, and i mean always have a choice. even deciding not to choose is a choice in itself. I've also realized that what is "right" to one person does not automatically become "right for you".
so why am i blabbering about making choices? because i am on that stage of taking a totally life changing decision. am i making the right decision? or am i just throwing my whole life down the drain?
I mean who am i to know, what might seem to be wrong now can turn out to be the only right thing that i'll ever do in my life.
So guys, this is me, going WAY outside my comfort zone. me, willingly feeding myself to the lions and the tigers and the hippopotamus and the bees. (wala lang, para di super serious...)
for what?
to see what i'm really made of. to discover who I am, go for what i really want.
most people spend their lives waiting for the "right moment" and putting things off. I promised myself, i won't be that person because i know if that happens then i'd probably kill myself along the way.
I'm not doing this for fame or fortune.i don't expect to be the next bill gates or steve jobs. I'm just doing the things that i've always wanted to do, no questions or hesitations.
I'm doing this for myself, for my own fulfillment. I'm doing this not for money but for experience. Once i do get that, then i'm sure i'm gonna die a crazy but very happy woman. :)
and with this, let me end this entry with a quote from a friend.
Pao: 'Tay, paano niyo nalaman na magsusulat kayo buong buhay niyo?
JCR: Nang ipinagpalit ko ang lahat para sa makinilya.
[ed. have had this for a few weeks now. after numerous times of rereading and redoing it, i think it is time i come out in the open. i just wanted to add this little bit.
The past few weeks have been confusing and draining. thinking about things day in and day out. although i knew that my heart has already chosen, everything else seem to be taking its time, everything is a blur and i honestly thought that it would stay that way until i lose my sanity. was i really rushing into things? should i also slow down? am i just forcing it? maybe i still need to rethink this?
then last night, i talked to God, i told him that whatever His plan is for me, I'm leaving it up to Him. All i asked was the courage to accept it.
This morning, the moment i woke up, my mom greeted me with a date and confirmation. i didn't even ask her, it was just suddenly..there. then everything just fell into place. everything became clear - ciara, dizizit.
Lord, you really do listen. Thank you! ]
& our love goes round and round;
5/13/2008 05:26:00 PM
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Sana pag punta kong Anawangin, di pa huli ang lahat
May 12, 2008
lagi kong binibida ang Anangawin kahit di pa ako nakakapunta dun (Capones palang narating ko) pero ngayon palang andami ko nang naririnig, mashado na daw syang pinupuntahan di tulad dati na nasosolo mo sya, which is ok, kaya lang ang masama jan meron at merong mga irresponsableng tao na di marunong rumespeto sa kalikasan..
gano ba kahirap magligpit ng sarili nyong kalat?
di uso ang pa-cool dito, di kayo amo ng isla. kung gusto nyo lang na mapalabas na narating nyo un at masabing nakapag "camping" kayo, akin na, iphophotoshop ko mukha nyo sa mga pictures ng lugar na yun, sagot ko na, wag nyo nalang galawin at babuyin yung lugar.
tignan naten kung di kayo mairita.
& our love goes round and round;
5/12/2008 12:40:00 PM
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Super delayed na,
May 06, 2008
Ginawa ko sya pero di ko pala napost, naka save lang. o sya, eto na. :)
[ed. wala palang instructions. hahaha!]
Type in the answers in Google images, then get one of the images from the first page of the results!
1. the age you’ll be on your next birthday:
2. a place you’d like to travel to:
Gusto ko lahat, walang exemptions :)
3. your favorite place:
4. your favorite food:
5. your favorite animal:
6. your favorite color:
7. first name of your significant other or crush:
8. the town in which you live in:
9. your screen name/nickname:
10. your first job:
11. a bad habit you have:
12. your worst fear:
& our love goes round and round;
5/06/2008 02:15:00 PM
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just had to repost this
May 05, 2008
was looking for my "list to do before i die" on my old blog posts. bumped into one post last August of 2004. mejo love hurts drama ko neto, pero ngayong binasa ko sya ulit, parang applicable parin sya ngayon, kahit di na tungkol sa isang lalake (tangina, cheesyness.. kalokohan,,, pagpasensyahan nyo na)
anyway, basta, naisip ko lang, kailangan kong i-repost. mashadong malaman para hindi...
one should learn from the stars...they now there's an endless space to travel once they decide to fall, a never ending battle to fight for what they feel is right -- so why gamble, you might ask? cause frankly, there are certain things worth losing the heavens for.
& our love goes round and round;
5/05/2008 07:41:00 PM
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i saw the sign ;)
and it opened up my eyes i saw the sign.. kumanta? hehehehe!
de, i'm just really been doing a lot of reflection and meditation lately (meditation includes sleeping for me hahahahaha!) somehow you could say that i'm asking for signs, and signs, i got a lot.
like watching "the Last Holiday" this weekend. in a way i'm a lot like the lead character, Gloria. I'm not going to die in 3weeks, but that is the mindset that i'm adapting from now on. to live like it's your last day. wouldn't that be a great way to live?
like her, i also have dreams, it may not be at par with some people's standards, but it is my dream. i don't think i was brought here to swim in a pool of money or have a yard full of paparazzi's. I don't enjoy being on the limelight and everyone who knows me knows that. I'm much happier sitting at the back, with my own little achievements.
i was also watching TV when someone being interviewed said something about "keeping it real" vs "MAKING it real". of course i can't remember where and when i heard it or who was talking exactly. but the phrase got stuck in my head.
there is a difference, if you think about it, with keeping it real and making it real. the problem with keeping it real sometimes is that you box yourself in your own "reality" and keep your dreams just "possibilities" when the real challenge really is to make your dreams REAL. as in so-tangible-you-can-hold-it real.
do i think that i'm such an idealist? no, im just making it real, man! :)
anyway, to end this post, let me share with you someone else's secrets, which, i realize is also one of mine. (from
post secret)
& our love goes round and round;
5/05/2008 08:30:00 AM
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dUrTy pOp!
May 02, 2008
just couldn't resist. hehe! my first try at doing pop art, that's me in dirty pop :) hehe! I've been putting this off for quite some time now. i always wanted to learn a new trick in photoshop, i've used line and vector art for some of the projects here at work, but this is my first time doing this. still got a lot to learn. soon i'll be having more time to do these things, then maybe i might be able to make money out of it. ka-ching! ka-ching!
*crosses fingers* *bits tongue* *pigils wiwi*
malay mo, di bawal mangarap :)
& our love goes round and round;
5/02/2008 10:26:00 AM
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random dashboard
so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)
1.
Macbook
2.
DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10.
a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13.
Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.
Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.
And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)
Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!
behind the wheel
still the same ciara, just with more work and
longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by
november/december/january soon.
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GPS system
this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!
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