I WON A DIGICAM!!!
May 30, 2007
i mean sure, it's no DSLR, but i can't complain, it's still a camera and i got it for FREE! (THANKS YAMI!!) at ika nga nila, it's not the camera, its the one taking the photos. so goodluck, ill have a lot of photos of myself to upload, for sure. hehehe! chismis
So ill try to check if i can source money to buy a memory stick and a lot of recharchable AAs. 200+ pictures a day wont do! ako pa,,camwhore to the nth. hehehe!
by the way, its a Sony DSC-S650 :)
& our love goes round and round;
5/30/2007 02:26:00 PM
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accusations, mcbaby and a semi broken spirit
May 29, 2007
i don't appreciate how you look or talk to me like i'm a common criminal. i really don't. you look over my shoulder without invitation and you seem to take note of, or sometimes even broadcast every little thing that i do, and you're not even my boss. the fact of the matter is, you're no one's boss, you just act like you are. i hope you'll stop. i've been trying to be as pleasant as i can with you. you wouldn't want to be my enemy, trust me. there are only a handful of us who try to understand you, don't push me. seriously.
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the CD has been with me for weeks now but it was only last night that i finished Season 3 of grey's anatomy (at least until ep17) and sure enough, i cried. hehe. i need internet. there's a website where i can watch until ep25. huhuhu
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matapos ang ngaragan, we were turned down. hay. but i don't want to think that this would be the end of it. we have 2 more lined up, which has more breathing room. i only need one, just one.pleeeaaassseee...
& our love goes round and round;
5/29/2007 01:52:00 PM
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Patience is a virtue..
May 28, 2007
Kahapon pa tinetest ang pasensya ko, as in kahapon pa talaga. Gusto ko nang manigaw ng manigaw ng tao. Nagtitimpi lang ako.
Bakit kasi may mga taong walang modo? Kalalakeng tao parang babae kung tumalak akala mo lasing. Bakit mamamatay ba yung anak nya sa dulo ng jip? Ibinaon ko ba sa daan yung bag ko para hindi ko pwede i-move pag dadaan na sila? Alam ba nya na derederecho sa dulo yung 2 nyang bata kahit pa anlaki ng space bago sakin at umuurong ako kaya lang nagaayos ako ng pera nun at derederecho nga sila?? Alangan naman palayasin ko, ni hindi ko nga mapa-move yung isang bata dun sa may bintana..i mean, fine, oo naintindihan ko yung point mo na ako dapat sa dulo pero di mo naman alam lahat ang nangyari kasi ako man nabilisan. Chaka KAILANGAN PAULIT ULIT KA?? Daig mo pa nanay ko mang nag, hindi na nga kita pinapatulan derederecho ka paren ng pamamahiya. Respeto nalang diba, tama na yung once, I get it. Ayoko naman gumawa ng scene eh di shut up na lang diba hindi na nga ako umiimik eh. Gustong gusto na kita sapakin tumahimik ka lang. hindi mo kailangan palakihin yung issue e. Or binanat ng kasama mo uminom ka nalang ng RH pagdating mo diba, mag one on one tayo ng RH baka mapatumba pa kita gago ka.
Kalalake mong tao.
Ni hindi mo binayaran yung 2 batang yun!
Leche.
Tapos ngayon naman..etong inaayos kong business, talagang tinetest yung pasensya ko. Alam mo na ngang kailangan mabilisan ang usapan, tapos pabago bago pa isip, pa-iba iba kami ng sinasabi eh! Kami yung nasisira ni vin eh. Tapos sakin pa galit. Eh bakit kasi hindi makapag decision ng maayos. Kanina pa sinend yung contract ngayon lang nagreact nung minamadali na. EH KANINA PANG TANGHALI YUN. Time is gold nga daw e. Alam naman na kaialngan sana ngayon na ang sagot. Kung hindi lang ako kikita dito di ko na talaga tatyagain. Andaming cheche bureche eh! Hindi ren naman makasagot ng maayos. Napakadetalyado kong inexplain, eh parang wala, nakalimutan na, ni parang hindi nangyari yung pageexplain ko..anaknang! PUMAYAG NA NANG AKO EH, KUNG WALA LANG AKONG TRABAHO AT MATUTUTUKAN KO TO NG 3 TAON, PINIRMAHAN KO NA. Ako na nga pinaka organize sa lahat, di bale nang makulit basta malinaw, lahat dinetalye ko na. SAKIN PA KAYO GALIT??? INAAYOS KO NA NGA BUHAY NYO, LAHAT NA WRITTEN..PERO SAKIN PAREN KAYO NAGAGALIT!!
ANAKNGTINOLANGPANIS.
& our love goes round and round;
5/28/2007 04:52:00 PM
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cha's pet, hoshi, with her pet, barney
bwehehehehehe! anchut!
& our love goes round and round;
5/28/2007 11:12:00 AM
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HINDI KA KASI NAGTATANONG!!!
May 22, 2007
Apparently, the multiply/friendster/youtube block here in the office is only temporary. THANK YOU LORD YOU HEARD ME! I apologize for the outburst yesterday, perfect timing lang talaga after the longest Monday ever! I really hope they’d keep their word. that it would really be just temporary. Maraming magaamok! Pero sa loob lang. Hahahahaha!
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I don’t want to jinx it, so I won’t go into details, but please pray that the “project” pushes thru. ONE TIME LANG. I don’t care if I have to do accounting weekly for 3 years. PROMISE!
& our love goes round and round;
5/22/2007 01:37:00 PM
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MHC (Monday Haters Club)
May 21, 2007
You just know Monday would be hell if it would start with you waking up in your own pool of sweat. Jisaskaraaaayst! I mean, can't people just seriously feel the effects of global warming? OA NA! STOP KILLING OUR PLANET! I WANT MY FUTURE OFFSPRINGS TO EXPERIENCE A NICE SUMMER DAY IN THE BEACH WITHOUT THE FEAR OF BURNING TO DUST! Anyway...
So I went down to prepare to go to the office, took my usual morning ritual, which was to turn the TV to morning news, make a cup a coffee, have a quick bfast if available, do crunches, take a bath, and spend almost 30mins looking for something decent to wear, not that I have too many choices, mashado ngang konti, I have to make sure that I gave ample time before I repeat a shirt.
So yeah, I came in early, I was requested to do the video for something, not a problem. That's why I love living nearby, I can wake up an hour or so before I had to be at the office, yun nga lang, fast-paced kahit pag-inom ng kape. But that's not what's turn sour in my story, not at all.
Since I was so early, I thought, I'd walk to the office, the morning sun would do me good. Bad move. Can you believe that as early as 715 in the morning, the sun felt like it was 10am already. Its not really hot HOT, but you know, after sometime it hurts your face already. Good thing half way to the office, I walked under the shade of the buildings. But that doesn't exempt me from feeling the heat. By the time I entered our building, I felt my back wet with sweat. So I thought to myself, just a few more floors, ill be in office aircon heaven! Thank God!
Oh, but apparently, I wouldn't get what I want today. So the moment the elevator door opened at 12th floor, I saw my officemates sitting on the floor of the elevator lobby. HUWAT?!
YEAH, mang george, who usually comes in at 5am, and was the one who had the keys to the office was nowhere to be found. HUWAT!!! And the other person who had the duplicate was not yet scheduled to come in until 9am. Seriously!
So I made the most of what I can with the time and charged the batteries of the camera (for the shoot)
When the office was finally opened, I checked the mail for instructions on what I'm going to shoot, exactly. Apparently we've been missed out from an email that we had to do 1-min interviews of people and send it in by May16, yes, it's already May 21. Kamusta naman diba? So I waited for the battery to charge fully and hitched a ride with our messenger, in a motorcycle with the helmet and all. (coz I don't have the slightest idea where omd is, and its getting late and I don't have another hour to get lost in makati looking for equitable in paseo.)
The good thing about it was that when I got there, 2 of the 4 people we were to interview was ready with their skit. So everything went smoothly, then the 3rd person also did it in record time (2 takes if im not mistaken) and then for the last person, I was told to wait coz she had to send an email or something. Minutes later, my boss called to check on me, I told him I'm done with 3 and am only waiting for 1 more person. He told me try to get it done asap coz it's nearing lunch and their already finished with the presentation, so as instructed I followed up. I think she totally forgot about me, so I asked the girl who was our contact if I can set up already at their conference so when that person is ready, we can shoot right away. So she allowed me, the last person did her skit and a few more mins and im done, next step, to upload the large effing video files.
The first time I copied it to the ftp, it was estimated to take more than 6hours, gedyemit are you serious! So I thought, just in case it does take that long, I informed my 2 boss' about it. I was starting to get my hope of ever returning to the office today back when the hours was cut down to 4 in just a few mins. So I thought, yeah, it wont take that long, I mean, diba, joke time? But then lunch time came and went, and although the time dipped to just 2 hours, it suddenly started to slow down, until its back to 3hours. And I was like, you should be counting DOWN, not counting UP! I was so frustrated coz I had to submit something else to another client, I thought of leaving it there but then I was embarassed to just go, I made enough fuss already, using our finance boss' internet connection, camping at his office, and the nice girl there bought me lunch, so you know, I tried to be patient. But my boss here asked if I could leave it, so I asked our IT if I could go, and just my luck, he was on his way to our office also,,so we went back together. I got to finish the ad I was supposed to revise last Friday but begged off to and just told the client I was stuck at an emergency meeting (im soo soo happy my clients are nice. Demanding at times, but nice)
Anyway, few mins after finishing the ad rocky came by my place to tell me that the effing file I was uploading encountered an error.
P&;%(*^$$())^&;%^%*%!!!!! SERIOUSLY!!!
I kept whispering, "composure my dear, composure."
Sent an email to the region informing them that the file which took so long to upload was apparently unuploadable (is there such a term?) waaaah! Buti nalang as in buti nalang inamin nilang kahapon pa sila nagkakaproblema sa ftp kasi pun*%&*&^ naman antagal ko inuupload yun! And I caused so much trouble to get it done. Naman! But fine, problema ng ftp, bahala sila. I did my part. We all did. So go, sabihan nyo nalang kami kung ok na yang server at iuupload ko na. andami kasing chismis eh, tumutulong na nga kami, kami pa ata mas nangangarag...OA. ANYWAY.
I was ready to let it all pass, after all, Monday is almost over. But just when I was about to blog about everything that happened, you know, just to let it out, coz I desperately need to rant, I clicked on multiply just to find out that it was blocked. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? I didn't even know how or what to feel.
Did I do this? Was I taking too much time reading? But that was just my way to clear my head from the things that are bombarding my brain so I can focus on work .it's my brain flush from all the crap that's happening, from my overly dependent emotionally draining relatives to my sometimes too user and self absorbent friends. My reassurance that im not alone and im not the only one going thru struggles, and my hope that one can attain happiness once I read someone proclaim in their writings that they found it, and my peep-hole to some of society's most brilliant minds.(at least on my scale) It's gone.
Shiyet, I need to have an internet connection at our apartment,, please lord. Lahat na lang nakablock. KASALANAN KO BA ITO? NA MAHILIG AKONG MAGBASA? NA NACHACHALLENGE AKONG MAGDESIGN NG TEMPLATE KO KASI DI LANG BASTA AESTHETIC ANG PINAGIISIPAN KUNDI PATI NAREN LOGIC DAHIL SA MGA CODE CODE CHORVALU NA YAN? I can't help but feel like I'm imprisoned. I have nothing against anyone, but please allow me to feel.
Funny, I was about to say that this might be what they call real life. How Ironic. Maybe that's right, I am living too much in the digital life, I'm forgetting that there are more real things I have to attend to. Like work. Or preparing my dinner.
Whatever happens after this, one thing's for sure. I still, and will always hate mondays.
& our love goes round and round;
5/21/2007 07:57:00 PM
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who says he doesn't answer prayers?
May 15, 2007
days ago, I asked God for work. so i can keep myself occupied, and focus more on being productive rather than bury myself in my frustrations over the things that happened. But when i asked, i didn't expect God to answer so fast, and work, he gave me, lots of it.
I haven't even stepped into the office and a client sends me a message, asking for the material that she wanted revised since last friday (actually we talked thursday afternoon but i only got the CD friday, so technically, works start then.)
and then there's the Holiday Calendar for 2007 and 2008 that i need to pass this morning as well, and the video, and the 2 PR articles. I know, how do i manage to do everything before shopwise closes (i need to get groceries, our ref is practically empty)
But wait, there's more! when i go here, by routine, i open my email first. and usually i get around 2, max 3 emails in the morning. but, oh, not today.
So now, every single day this whole week is marked with deadlines. I'm not kidding, every single day. But luckily, i did almost everything that i had to do today (except the PR articles) and it's only 8pm.
Well, Lord, if you are testing me, so be it. i know i asked for this, so yeah, we can both laugh at it when it's over. and yes, i did not cry today. finally. thanks.
& our love goes round and round;
5/15/2007 03:49:00 PM
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back to innocence.
May 11, 2007
ansarap bumalik sa pagkabata. wala kang iisipin, lahat ibibigay lang sayo. tulog ka lang ng tulog at kain ka ng kain. untimong pwet mo, iba ang naghuhugas.
pero ngayon? sa dami ng iniisip mo di mo na alam saan ilulugar sa utak mo..kung may gusto ka, dapat paghirapan mo. tulog? anong tulog? meron pa bang may oras sa tulog ngayon? pati pagkain, binabawasan mo para hindi tumaba. kanya kanyang hugas na ng pwet ngayon, paminsan nga, di mo nga huhugasan pwet ng iba, hahalikan mo naman.
nakakatawang nakakalungkot. sino bang magaakala na ganito ang kahihinatnan naten kapag tumanda?
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tena't sumagot. copy paste lang pero shempre, sagutan nyo, burahin nyo yung sagot ko :) sumagot ang walang magawa!
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Nope, not a person, pabango ata. Pero marami nang pinangalan after me, maganda daw kasi ako. Hahahahahahaha! Joke!
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Wednesday night.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Sometimes..i run..sometimes I hide..
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Chicken :)
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Wala pa pero minsan parang meron
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yah!
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Nope, passive aggressive ako..
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? yep
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? I want.
10.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Honey stars
11.DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Yep, then I throw it inside my shoe compartment, together. Hehehehe!
12.DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? No, nagpapanggap lang
13.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Oh shiyet, strawberry!
14.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Mata.
15.RED OR PINK? pink
16.WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Pagiging iyakin, leche
17.WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Elaine and ros, nasa ibang bansa na e
18.DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? Kayo bahala
19.WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Blue Denims and black lisenced to kill shoes
20.WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Kagabi, fried rice, cornedbeef omelette, and some chix’n drumstick meat. (humingi lang ako maliit na portion.)
21.WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? footsteps
22.IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? black
23.FAVORITE SMELLS? Rain, baby’s head, ocean.
24.WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? client
25.DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? yep
26.FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Basketball shempre, pati tennis at football
27.HAIR COLOR? Mamulamula na brown
28.EYE COLOR? brown
29.DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Not yet.
30.FAVORITE FOOD? Authentic bicol express, bistek, anything na may strawberry, tuna with cheese sandwich, cheese.
31.SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Love stories with tragic/morbid/not-so-happy endings.
32.LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Sa cinema? Ang cute ng ina mo. Haha! Shiyet ako nalang ata sa buong mundo hindi pa nakakanood ng spidey.
33.WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? black
34.SUMMER OR WINTER? summer
35.HUGS OR KISSES? hugs
36.FAVORITE DESSERT? Basta may strawberry!
37.MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ewan
38.LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ewan
39.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Ebook – pride and prejudice at beyond good and evil.
40.WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Shiyet, loser, wala akong mousepad. Haha!
41.WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? MSKM shempre
42.FAVORITE SOUND? Waves...
43.ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? beatles
44.WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? US
45.WHAT ARE YOU WORRYING ABOUT RIGHT NOW? Ai, marami yan. Ayaw ko isa isahin
46.DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Nung bata ako, man-spot ng bading kahit nakatalikod. Sabi ng nanay ko.
47.DID YOU PRAY LAST NIGHT? WHAT DID YOU PRAY FOR?I don’t know if that would be considered as a prayer, pero kausap ko lang, asking for reassurance na kaya ko tong pinagdadaanan ko ngayon.
47.WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Trece martirez cavite
48.WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Lahat na
49.WHO DO YOU HATE THE MOST? Sarili ko, lalo ngayon.
50.IF YOU WERE STRANDED ON AN ISLAND,WHAT THING WOULD YOU LIKE TO TAKE WITH YOU? Gitara. Camera. At Home entertainment showcase! Hahahahahahah!
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im hungry.
& our love goes round and round;
5/11/2007 08:15:00 AM
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when it rains, it pours..
May 10, 2007
isn't it odd that we had barely even made half of May, and yet at around 4-6pm, rain pours, and then stops as suddenly as it came? rain usually come at the latter part of may, june even. oh but not this year.
this year, it decided that it was to be a switch of sorts for me, a warning sign saying, look out for a bumpy ride ahead. VERY bumpy ride.
and like the night before, it rained once more. more intensely than last night, i can't tell. but if it was, i just hope it won't be proportionate to what will happen before the day ends.
i just want to crawl at one corner. or bury myself in work. anything that could make me numb of everything. seiously.
i think it was a blonde that said that "Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy...." well, it doesn't work for me. coz after hundreds of cruches and mins of jump ropes, i still can't seem to find my happy place.
even richard gere in tux with a rose in hand can't uplift me. he usually makes me high.
i hate it.
why problems come in groups, no, in battalions, i can't understand. and the people who i was counting on, the people who i thought would be my support system, wanted nothing to do with me. they would rather stay away.
i mean, i don't really need much bullshit, i dont think you even need to talk. all i need is for someon to assure me that they are there for me. no words needed for that. not even tight embraces. just stay there, don't walk out on me. allow me to cry and let it go, rather than look at me like im a victim, or worse, a drama queen. im not crying to be noticed and get pitied on. that's my release. that's just who i am. you dont need to pat me on the back. im not a dog.
hay ciara, kaya mo yan. diba lord kaya nya?
geez, why am i such a magnet for people like that? maybe because i am just as damaged as they are. maybe i am dark and twisted inside.
& our love goes round and round;
5/10/2007 02:32:00 PM
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dive trip
May 08, 2007
photos and videos of my last dive trip now uploaded on my
multiply henjoy!
& our love goes round and round;
5/08/2007 09:45:00 AM
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Creative Zen V Plus FOR SALE!!!!
May 03, 2007
It's brand new (as in nakaplastic pa yung mga gamit gamit sa loob) with box and all. never been used, bukas lang yung box kasi tinignan. Only Php 5,000 (still negotiable) the owner got an ipod as a gift right after she bought it. if you are interested, let me know. 0917-8031419 here are the specs:
Capacity: 1GB
Song Capacity: Black with orange accent 1GB
500 WMAs/ 33hrs (64 kbps), 250 MP3/ 16hrs (at 128kbps)1
Photos: Hundreds of Photos
Video: Short video clips
Display: Brilliant full color 1.5" 128 x 128 pixels OLED display
Battery Life: Up to 15 hours for continuous audio playback
Battery Type: Rechargeable Li-Ion Polymer (Embedded)
Size: 43.5 x 67.5 x 15.9mm
Weight: 43.5g
FM Radio: Yes.
Voice Recording: Yes.
Mass Storage Device: Yes. For data files only
Built in Microphone: Yes.
Line-In Recording: Yes.
Audio Customization: Custom EQ and 8 Presets EQ.
Organizer: Yes.
ZENcast: Yes. Supports audio podcasts.
Audio Support: MP3, WMA, IMA ADPCM, WMA DRM
Image Support: JPEG, Album Art
Video Support: Transcoded Video Format
Connectivity: USB 1.1/ 2.0 Full Speed
Supported Music Services: PlayForSure, Audible (2,3 and 4)
*Based on 4 minutes per song at 64kbps WMA
& our love goes round and round;
5/03/2007 12:59:00 PM
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once upon a time, i was thin
May 02, 2007
(when i do manage to write a book, i swear that will be the title..anyway...)my leg hurts,,but i don't mind. i started yesterday. during the heat of the afternoon i continuously jogged in place for 30 mins. (as in promise, non-stop. i look stupid but its for a good cause) then ran from wall to wall for another ten. (basketball jargon: suicide/planting rice..mini version nga lang)
and then this morning, i did another 30min jog and 50 crunches, will do another 50 this evening. I'm also slowly decreasing my rice intake. but slowly,,im a rice eater so i can't just stop abruptly, i might faint. hehe! and I'm also trying to make amends with vegetables. I'm widening my options from my usual green leafy salads.
next week, I'll start running outside already. and i'll lessen my rice even more. and I'm increasing the no. of crunches a day. and I'm bringing my tennis stuff this weekend to the apartment so next weekend we can try to play at assumption. alavet!
warm up lang this week. if I'm going to go healthy, i'll do it slowly but surely. no meds this time. i know i can do this. i have survived 2-hour basketball training without water breaks in the past. i can do this, jogging will be a breeze, right? i don't need to be paper thin as i find that disgusting, but i want to be in shape again. i don't like the feeling of getting tired all the time.
this time, TOTOHANAN NA TO!
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i have this very weird feeling that something's about to explode on my face. that I'm sinking slowly in quick-sh*t-sand and everyone notices but me. and they are just watching me go down, like they are enjoying it or something. i know i can be easily misunderstood, choosing neutral grounds and everything. but i took that chance, because for me, i have to stand for what i believe is right. but whatever it is you are thinking, i'll let it be. you have as much right to have an opinion as i to choose to keep quiet. i don't owe anyone an explanation.
hay, i hope I'm just paranoid.
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alam mo bang dumating na sa puntong pinipilit ko sarili ko na isipin na talagang nagkamali ka lang ng alala. pero hindi ko paren mabura na siguro sinadya mong magsinungaling, baka nga naman ma-uto mo ko. para ata sayo, ganun lang ako kadali na kakayakayanin mo lang. palibhasa alam mong hindi ko kayang hindi tumulong. na kahit alam kong mas mapapabuti tayo pareho kung hahayaan kita, pero sa dulo, hindi paren kita matiis. kaya ganyan mo nalang ako paikutin. utakan ba to? bakit naman ganun. kaibigan mo lang ba ako hanggang kailangan mo pa ako? ganun lang ba kababaw yun. hindi ko na kasi maintindihan, kahit anong gawin ko, ako paren ang mapapasama. pero sige,,iisipin ko paren na hindi sadya. pero hindi porket hindi ako nagagalit, ibig sabihin hindi ako nasasaktan.+++
i hate depression, it sucks the life out of me. but i can't dismiss it, i have to face it, that's the only way i can cope. i just hope the exercise would help lessen it.
& our love goes round and round;
5/02/2007 01:11:00 PM
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