bittersweet

October 12, 2006 last night was the last night that the 3 of us, me, kat and elaine, could be together, at least not for another few years.

by this time tomorrow, elaine would be in Dubai to join her father.

its sad, because one by one, the people closest to me starts to leave. first it was rosa, now elaine. we've all been friends since forever. we've been through a lot, good and bad. and i would never, ever trade what we have with anything.

they have been there for me, always have believed in me, especially during those times when i doubt my capabilities. they are my pillars, and i to them too.

knowing that i have people like them makes any problem very manageable. they are my safety net, the people i go to when no one seems to understand.

they are my judges and my lawyers. my nail-clippers and fashion consultant. my clowns, beermates and shrinks. my sisters.

its heart crushing to think that it will be very hard for us to be complete again. i don't like the feeling of getting left behind.

but i'm also happy for them because this was their dream..our dream, the one we've crafted during our drunken session at someone's house/apartment years back.. they took the step to go for it, hopefully in time id be able to take mine too. so with tears in my eyes, i kissed elaine goodbye and silently wished her the best of luck.

last night was fun. we reminisced about high school, we had some drink, pigged out on junk food, dinuguan and chicken longga. talked about soccer, and she made us promise to stay happy. and of course, to make sure to email her regularly, as she said, walang syang m.s. dun. sarili lang nya.

she doesn't want us to be there when she leaves, and to be honest, i don't think i can do it too, without crying that is. maybe it is better this way. our last memory was us laughing because she went back thinking she left her cellphone when it was really in her bra. typical wap.

haaaaayyyyy.... its just me kat and mae now, good thing kat and i live under the same roof.

to rosa and elaine... best wishes and lots of love from me. i will keep my prommise, i will save to visit you guys. i will.

"Carrie: It would be childish of us to deny that our lives weren't changing. But for this night, none of us were going anywhere. That's the thing about really good friends and a really great Manhattan. "

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

credits

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