antagal magburn/import
October 31, 2006
Partida, nagmumulti-tasking na ko, im importing and editing on my mac and im using marns' PC to burn the videos (thanks marns!) which are in wmv, which of course, i can not use, so i have to burn them into VCD format, import them to my mac, change them into mpeg (rename lang actually) then import it to imovies and edit more than an hours worth of video.
tangna, survey muna habang nagimport-and-burn
R|A|N|D|O|M
1] what's a fun word?
onomatopoeia hehehe. fun diba.
2] if you could eat anywhere for dinner tonight, where would it be?
an authentic indian restaurant
3] what's one of the sweetest things a guy/girl (whichever is your preference) has done for you?
guy: cooked for me, then after the meal, asked me to dance. with his friends in the same room (of course nahiya ako...pero..aaaawwww...no guy has ever asked me to dance before. hahahaha! ang ew ko)
4] what are your plans for tomorrow?
sleep as much as i could and if ever id need to be awake, do absolutely nothing. im planning on spoiling myself.
5] blue or black pens?
i heart black.
6] how much money do you have on you?
250 hehehe! and i assure you it would last me till the end of the week. aus ba ko magbudget.
7] and, the nearest orange thing to you is?
animax id lace
8] why are you taking this survey?
because importing and burning movies take so long! (2 out of 5 movies imported at the moment)
9] name 5 things you never leave the house without.
id, money, lip balm, phone, inhaler
10] how many countries outside of the one you live in, have you been to?
thailand, hongkong, UK, France, Italy, Germany, Switzerland, Austria, Holland, Netherlands, Belgium, New York, New Jersey, Washington, Atlantic City
C|U|R|R|E|N|T|L|Y
1] listening to:
OPM alternative Rock and Beach house
2] eating and/or drinking:
sipping the last of my coffee
3] wanting to:
sleep. finish a book in one seating. disappear to a beach somewhere. scuba dive.
4] working for:
soon to be phd
5] waiting for:
the frigging movies to import/get burned (3 out of 5. great. just great)
6] wearing:
pink top, pants and my overused sandals
7] should be:
heading home, relaxing and doing absolutely nothing.
8] the weather is:
im not sure, cant see from inside our room
9] talking to/IMing:
myself since there's no one else around anymore.
10] you're feeling...:
tired. my back hurts
L|A|S|T
1] person you IMed:
ize. ot sya but she already went home. hay
2] person you hugged:
vin...waaaaaaahhhhh..come baaaaccckkkk
3] kiss was from/with:
hay kailangan ko ba to talaga sagutin, masakit hehehe!
4] food you ate:
part of the boob cake and pancit
5] person you said/typed/wrote "i love you" to:
hay, texted vin to make sure he's doing better already.
6] place you went to:
other than the office and our apartment? i dont even know anymore
7] phone call:
mom.
8] text message:
jammie, i implemented a plan a while ago
9] shower:
this morning
10] thing you bought with your money:
food. lots of food. nag grocery kami so we wont have to worry about food anymore.
F|i|R|S|T
1] pet:
dog. i think i named him ewoks
2] birthday party:
1, at our province. i was bald, but even then i loved lechon
3] alcoholic beverage:
tequila, high school. hehehe!
4] school:
NFWC. i lost my first earrings there as well. boy, my mom was mad
5] physical fight:
i think with my yaya. maldita daw ako nung bata, nananabunot
6] relationship:
early second year, i think.
7] sport you played/tried:
soccer (di ako pwede because i cracked my damn knee when i was young) volleyball, basketball, swimming, tennis, badminton. but basketball still is my first love
8] website:
yahoo (isa palang pc sa school nun na may internet, sa lib lang haha)
9] single date:
date talaga..hahaha! grade school, if you can call that a date. kadiri ampoots.
10] person that comes to mind when you think of "love":
vino
T|H|i|S O|R T|H|A|T
1] school or work:
school, just coz i can cut class all i want and still pass, and i can drink in class, or come in drunk. hahahahaha!
2] flip phone or slider:
flip, may attitude hehehehe
3] single or in a relationship:
in a relationship
4] smoothies or milkshakes:
smoothies.
5] tanning in the sun or fake tanning:
the real thing!
6] group dates or single dates:
group would be fun, but its good to have some 1on1 time as well
7] watching basketball or playing basketball:
PLAY!
8] crayons or markers:
crayons. i feel like a kid
9] wishing on stars or wishing at 11:11:
stars still
10] iPods or CD players:
ipod...hay dwighty...
O|F Y|O|U|R F|R|i|E|N|D|S W|H|O...
1] updates their myspace/xanga/etc. most often:
i dont know
2] calls/texts you most often:
kat kahit magkabahay na kami hahaha!
3] is more likely to beat someone up for you:
vin at za at bubu. they are our bitches hehehehe!
4] does best in school (or work):
mae
5] drinks the most:
ako haha! si za, nakakasabay ko sya sa inuman kaya ok
6] is in/makes up the cutest couple:
ewan..jilla and bubu, a gay man and a vegetarian artist. astig diba
7] goes to your house most often:
boyps
8] would you share your bank account with:
maybe we'd all have a joint account one day, pang toma. hahahaha!
9] knows your family best:
kat layn and ros
10] would you give your life for:
all of them. :) (4 of 5...lord have mercy!!! its 730 already!)
& our love goes round and round;
10/31/2006 07:04:00 PM
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6:07pm, office workstation
yep, still here. still drinking my already-cold-coffee. i promised myself i'd lessen my coffee, everybody says i might be acidic already, so this is my cup since this morning, im trying to prolong it, pacing myself, so i can make sure id still have my blood running till the latter part of the day. that's just so sad, im such a loser
so anyway, back to the issue, that is me still here in the office on a day that was supposed to be a "half-day". while most of the people here went home after lunch time, a handful of us had to stay. and surely enough, i am the last man standing
i still have a presentation to do that was due yesterday. hehehehe!
dont get me wrong, its not that im procrastinating, i actually went to work on a sunday so i can have things done. i knew i had more than one thing i need to pass on monday so i wanted some details to be accomplished already. but then again, the work load had the best of me. and yes, technology seems to like the fact that id alwasy have to do the longer version of things.
although i did accomplish most of what was asked of me to do, given that i stayed till past 12am last night, i still fell short.
so here i am, burning stuff, compiling, editing, and during the time i have to wait (like now) i blog/bloghop.
hay, the things i do for the job i love. i just hope it wont always be like this, me running frantic all over the place, trying hard to keep my composure. its not like i have a go-to, i mean, marns knows this stuff but she too is busy with her accounts. and i have a very long list of favors with tet, not to mention that i tend to snap at him when the pressure is unbearable. so no, id like to lessen the favors, or ill have to sell my kids to be to him. hehehehe!
hey! the copying is done, back to work first...
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i miss him. its only been a week or so but it felt like months. hay. stupid, getting the measles at his age. now he's stuck at pampanga. i wish our province was pampanga. i wish i could go with ms jen tomorrow instead of cavite.
sh*t id see my cousin. hay. dedma. ill sleep the whole day tom, and im planning to leave my cp so no one can bug me. vin has no load anyway. ill take tomorrow off,
when i do need to go to the cementary, id make sure to be the last batch as opposed to the usual first. or maybe id be the first and id bring a book and imprison myself in one corner, hopefully they get it that i dont want to get disturbed.
my.thoughts.are.so.rumble.jumbled.i.know.
i need a drink.
& our love goes round and round;
10/31/2006 06:18:00 PM
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i miss you wierdo
October 30, 2006
pagaling ka na kasi!!
haaaayyyy
& our love goes round and round;
10/30/2006 09:03:00 PM
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am i beginning to become an oldie?
October 25, 2006
i now watch evening news before and after dinner.
i listen to am more than fm now.
i've never been to the mall in weeks.
i drink at home, never visited a bar since forever.
last party i went to was Ms AM's party last September.
ive been budgeting like hell ever since i got an apartment.
sh*t. im turning into an oldie! this independence thing either is good for me, or will totally ruin my social life.
so starting tonight im going to binge. i'll attend as much party as i can (and that woudl be alot with the halloween coming ang of course, xmas) i refuse to become a mother at the tender age of 21.
dont get me wrong, the responsibility of moving out of your parents' nest is liberating.. but come on... i need to have some fun..
so let us drink and be merry! tomorrow, karir ang goth party ng dream fm!!! hehehehehehe!!!!
& our love goes round and round;
10/25/2006 02:37:00 PM
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last two minutes.
October 23, 2006
It’s hard when you’re trying to impress everyone. You blindly follow what they want or, most of the time, what they “feel like” at the moment. And it sucks because in the process, you slowly lose yourself. And when you do try to find it, whatever that is, you find that it’s just a bit too late.
But in my world, you are expected to kiss ass. That’s part of the job description. And I can’t help but feel like a mime, trapped in my world of silence. Interacting, but not really. Expressing myself – but not really.
I know that I, just like a lot of young adults trying to make room for themselves in this world, are being judged, mostly against our will, and most of the time, wrongly. It’s devastating to face the fact that one mistake can make all your achievement seem miniscule, even abolished.
All that hard work just vanished into thin air.
Everything is lost in translation, and you’ll be left getting misunderstood. If only they videotape your every move and review it properly before someone says anything bad, or misinterprets your action. If only thought bubbles can be seen, emoticons animate the top of one’s head. Then maybe you really can say that you have nothing to explain. That you did what you had to do and did it with everything you got.
But of course, that’s impossible.
If only they could tell everything that’s going thru my head lately. I’m not asking for pity, I’m only asking to not be judged so harshly. Is that too much to ask?
& our love goes round and round;
10/23/2006 08:59:00 PM
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so, hows the weather?
weather has been a b*tch lately. you never know what to expect. you wake up to a bright and hotter-than-usual morning, only to come home getting drenched in raindrops the volume of a beach bucket. the thing is, our place is very rain friendly that it holds the water like a container, so im left with no option but thread the knee high (sometimes higher) dark water with god knows what.
i guess that's the cause of recent movement from down under. series of earthquakes shook manila and neighboring towns last friday and saturday. i was still in the office when the first 2 quakes occured. i thought i was just getting dizzy due to staring at the PC for too long. but then i realized that my seat also moving. sh*t, its an earthquake. and like any girlscout would, given that the earthquake still hasnt stopped, i went to the nearest doorframe...thinking how dorky i must've looked, i laughed out loud. typical.
the second series of quakes happened just as ive arrived in yulo. i had only been in my apartment for a few mins when i recieved an sms that vin's condition has gone worse and he is now vomitting. i rushed to their place after reading that. and as i was sitting by his bed, i felt it. at first i thought it was him fidgeting, but then when i asked him and looked at his foot, it wasnt him. then i realized, its the aftershock part 2. i almost (almost) dragged him downstairs. hehehehe! good thing it stopped just when i was about to stand up. hehehehe.
poor thing by the way, he was diagnosed with measles yesterday. so that was the reason behind his high fever and spots. and the same reason that although i stayed with him friday night, i did not get it (i had one when i was in HS)
anyway, its raining again, and i hope it ends before sun down. at least there could be a possibility that i wont need to swim my way to our apartment.
this is ciara for weather report
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on other news, i have prison break season 2 episodes 1-7...but its on my mac. i need to buy one fo those DVD9 so it all can fit in one DVD. do you know where i can buy one..
help! i need my scofield fix!!!
& our love goes round and round;
10/23/2006 01:21:00 PM
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sa walang magawa
October 16, 2006
at addicted sa bubble wrap, like meeeee!! hehehehe! go
here
& our love goes round and round;
10/16/2006 06:00:00 PM
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wala naman
ang hirap pala.
if only i can be the one to manage everyone's mulah...maybe we'd stand a chance. prices are skyrocketing and as much as i try to budget everything with my money, i have bills to pay, deductions to carry...i dont know how she does it, consuming every last money she has in a matter of days (sometimes hours) its frustrating.
and now i think she's trying to talk me into getting a loan (again) and im not very excited to talk to her about it. i dont want to sound like her mother. but she never learns!
now im scared if she can really afford her credit card. im not sure if she understands how it goes, yes you are allowed not to pay your whole bill for the month, that's actually what the credit card companies want you to do, that way, they earn from the huge interest they make you pay, plus the finance fee, and whatever.
hay, how do i explain this to her. its not even the 30th, and she's telling me we should get our hair done the minute she gets her card. i mean sure, id love a haircut since its been forever since ive had one done. but here we go again...
the thing is, when she gets into financial trouble, i cant seem to stop myself from helping her, no matter how broke i myself would be.
and everyone's getting mad at me because of it. i cant say no daw.
maybe i did create this monster.
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work has been steady, for the past few days, but im expecting tedious nights again, once the pitch nears (its next wednesday and i havent done anything.)
i miss having access to media programs. now im only a squatter, waiting for anyone's PC to be free. my mac's for creatives, but the thing is, that's not hte only thing i do. so i still have to use media programs, programs i have no access on.
hay...
of course i cant ask for a windows CPU, that'd be to much naman. ang mahal ng mac na to ha..
hay...
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i think i sprained my right ring finger, now i look like a socialite, with my ring finger (not the pinky) sticking out.
ewness...
& our love goes round and round;
10/16/2006 11:54:00 AM
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i feel like shit in a cold office with nothing to do..might as well..
October 13, 2006
Rules:
This is simple. Just:
1. Emphasize all lines that apply to you.
2. Tag five more people after you finish, complete with links to their sites.
3. Let the person you've tagged KNOW that they've been tagged, for Pete's sake.
I wish I was a different ethnicity.
I have an eating disorder.
I'm short. (and proud of itI'm tall.
I think I'm really attractive.
I prefer winter over summer.
I'm a geek. really i amI'm a shopaholic.
I'm reasonably intelligent.
I'm attracted to girls.
I'm attracted to boys.I like British accents.
I smoke regularly. -not anymore! haha!
I drink regularly. there are some things i cant do withoutI smoke socially.
I drink socially.
I get drunk easily.
I do drugs.
I will never date a bad kisser.
I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
I'm religious.
I'm not religious but have morals. I lie frequently.
I'm impulsive.
I'm hardworking.I liked "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind".
"She's All That" is one of my favourite movies.
I'm good at History.
I speak more than two languages. - i wish i could. i promised myself i'll learn spanish
I enjoy taking pictures. - oh come on
I like spending money on myself.
I like spending money on others.
I have a regular income.I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
I pay my own bills. -gad yesI rely on my parents for money.
I can cook.
I enjoy cleaning.
Tidyness is a must in my life. -more of cleanliness. i have no choince, im allergic to almost everything, dust being on top of the long list. i have to clean. but when im working, i need cllutter...thus the next item
I like clutter. My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
I have heard of Blonde Redhead.
I enjoy Blonde Redhead.
I'm fashion-conscious.
I have good taste. -i thinkPeople tell me I have good taste.
I excel academically. - i think so. i never failed and always have been among the top of the class..so yeah..i think
I'm told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
I'm good at sports.
I'm good at certain sports. basketball is my forteI couldn't do sports to save my life.
I'm creative. -its my job description..
I'm artistically inclined.
I wanna be an artist when I grow up.I wanna be an engineer when I grow up.
I eat when I'm upset. - and drink..and cry..I cannot adapt to change.
I'm interested in politics. -only started to
I have shoplifted. --hehehe! dare? dare?
I download MP3s.
I've done underage drinking.
I've gone underage clubbing. I can dance reasonably well.
I can dance extremely well. - i can follow the steps, i know down beat and what the hell to do with it..i guess soI dance like a cardboard gorilla.
I can sing. -this i do alotI sing like someone stepped on my foot.
I can swim. -i miss the beach
I enjoy surveys.
I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
I keep a journal. My teachers don't like me. -there are those who dont but for the most part, they like me..they really like me hehehehe
I enjoy controversy. - who f*cking doesn't
I can be a bitch/bastard. - yeah..a real ass too
I have a thing for bad boys/girls. - poota oo namanI have tattoos. - im designing mine already..will have it done next month
I've been in a nudist colony.
I'm not sure if I want to have children. - i adore kids, i just dont like the pregnancy partI'm not sure if I'll get married.
I know who I will marry. -grabe naman to...
I'm interesting. - everyone isI'm a good liar.
People enjoy talking to me. -when im in the mood
I annoy people from time to time. -hehehe! i always annoy alvin. napakapasaway ko daw kasi..tigas ulo hahahahahI'm a born leader.
I'm a born leader but shouldn't lead.
I enjoy felching.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a shoe fetish.
I watch "Sex and the City". I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
I wanna be J.Lo.
I cut myself.
I've cut myself.
I hate people who pretend to be suicidal. -stress kaya yun!I hate popular people.
I think cheerleading is a sport.
I'm photogenic. -everyone has their own "angle"I live in Chucks.
I think graffiti is art. I have dated a criminal.
I have been cheated on. -never got to prove it, but my instinct shouts YEEAAAHH
I have cheated on someone. -oo na oo na...
I have a temper. -pms
I like playgrounds. -its very humbling
I dance in the rain. -when i was young
I'm obsessed with Shakespeare. -his sonnets are the bomb
I have tanlines. -kita pa konti as in konti My favourite color is pink. - i just like it
My favourite color is black. - this i love
I would classify myself as emo. -yeah..
I'm musically inclined. -naman
I like listening to music. -my dwighty is my hero!
I like music-blasting cars. -if i would have a car id have huge speakers installed Thongs are comfortable. -wtf?
I like flip-flops. -hay i miss the days when that's all i ever wear. im doomed to shoes and heeled sandals now..
I know what monogamy is...
...and I believe in it.I wanna be a social worker when I grow up.
I have sibling/s.
My sibling/s annoy me. -sometimes
I think "South Park" is funny. -i heart stan
I believe in LOVE. -always willi am tagging: anyone den..
& our love goes round and round;
10/13/2006 11:09:00 AM
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bittersweet
October 12, 2006
last night was the last night that the 3 of us, me, kat and elaine, could be together, at least not for another few years.
by this time tomorrow, elaine would be in Dubai to join her father.
its sad, because one by one, the people closest to me starts to leave. first it was rosa, now elaine. we've all been friends since forever. we've been through a lot, good and bad. and i would never, ever trade what we have with anything.
they have been there for me, always have believed in me, especially during those times when i doubt my capabilities. they are my pillars, and i to them too.
knowing that i have people like them makes any problem very manageable. they are my safety net, the people i go to when no one seems to understand.
they are my judges and my lawyers. my nail-clippers and fashion consultant. my clowns, beermates and shrinks. my sisters.
its heart crushing to think that it will be very hard for us to be complete again. i don't like the feeling of getting left behind.
but i'm also happy for them because this was their dream..our dream, the one we've crafted during our drunken session at someone's house/apartment years back.. they took the step to go for it, hopefully in time id be able to take mine too. so with tears in my eyes, i kissed elaine goodbye and silently wished her the best of luck.
last night was fun. we reminisced about high school, we had some drink, pigged out on junk food, dinuguan and chicken longga. talked about soccer, and she made us promise to stay happy. and of course, to make sure to email her regularly, as she said, walang syang m.s. dun. sarili lang nya.
she doesn't want us to be there when she leaves, and to be honest, i don't think i can do it too, without crying that is. maybe it is better this way. our last memory was us laughing because she went back thinking she left her cellphone when it was really in her bra. typical wap.
haaaaayyyyy.... its just me kat and mae now, good thing kat and i live under the same roof.
to rosa and elaine... best wishes and lots of love from me. i will keep my prommise, i will save to visit you guys. i will.
"Carrie: It would be childish of us to deny that our lives weren't changing. But for this night, none of us were going anywhere. That's the thing about really good friends and a really great Manhattan. "
& our love goes round and round;
10/12/2006 04:50:00 PM
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cleaning my act
October 11, 2006
when something goes wrong, and i know i cant control it, i go for he next best thing.
i clean.
i clean my room, my closet, my desk...anything that i feel needs cleaning, even if to some theres no need at all (well not my desk, everyone tells me i need to clean it) i tend to become more OC.
have the towels cleaned, pile clothes in 3 categories, shorts and undies go side by side, a pile for my work clothes that can do without hanging, another for those id wear at home. then arrange them by color. yes, by color.
if i weren't allergic to dust im sure to scrub the whole apartment down last night. i tend to the CR instead.
and of course my desk. now, at least i can see the blue coating again. for weeks it has been covered by mountains of scratch papers, print outs, articles, post it notes, newspaper and magazine. now i have more room to breathe.
i know im not the only one in the world who does this. when one feels helpless about one thing in his or her life, s/he looks for other avenues which s/he can control. when you find yourself in a shithole of a situation, you look somewhere else to let yourself feel that you haven't lost it yet, you are still in control, maybe not in every aspect of your life, but at least in one or two.
the people and their struggle to stay sane. and the world that prevents them to succeed..this two somehow manages to coexist. that my friends, is what we call a day to day miracle.
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in a few days a friend of ours will be off to Dubai, starting our dream. we're planning to have a little gathering, a last toast of some sort. i know it would be long before we get to drown ourselves again in alcohol,, so tonight.. bottoms up guys!
(shit we're really getting old)
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i dont eat mushrooms and green peas. im not allergic to it, i just dont eat it. i separate them in my beef and mushroom and my yang chow fried rice, piece by piece.
some people dont get it. sometimes i too dont get myself. but that's just me, the mushroom-and-green-peas-non-eater.
deal.with.it.
& our love goes round and round;
10/11/2006 04:09:00 PM
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dahil di ako pwede magwala sa office..
October 10, 2006
naiinis ako..naiinis ako sayo. ikaw pa talaga yung may ganang magalit eh ako nga yung naipit. dont bullshit me. you're using anger para di ako yung magalit sayo or para ako pa yung maguilty...well guess what mas naiirita pa ko!!
tayong dalawa lang naman ang nakakaalam nung usap na yun. at never hinawakan nung isa yung telepono ko. pero para sabihin nya na nabasa nya yung message na yun,,im pretty sure i dont sleep talk, you know.
stop telling me na ako yung madaldal, na ako yung di makapagpigil pagdatiing sa mga issue nila kasi from what's been happening, the news always came from you, not me. at ako nagmumukhang two face at sinungaling! di ba nakakainis yun. if you really care about me, have some decency to apologize man lang. di yung ikaw pa yung galit sakin, ano to joke time??
nakakapikon ka! gusto kita sapakain! bakit ka ba ganyan sakin. you've made it clear you can lie to me, ayaw ko ng sinungaling. kasi pag nalaman ko nang ganun, i'll always have this thought at the back of my mind na everytime you say something, its a lie. its unfair pero can you blame me? ayoko ren magisip ng ganun but dont give me a reason to
its bad enough that you made me feel unimportant and you were insensitive enough to show your excitement when you saw her friendster page. i know its so high school of me to get jelous of a page. but it was really unneccessary of you to do that in front of me. at least you would've restrained yourself. magkunwari ka naman na you were'nt excited to see her, kahit sa picture lang. and you tell me wala lang yun? wala pa yun sa lagay na yun ha..pano pa kaya yung minahal mo talaga.
at yang coleen na yan...coleen ba talaga pangalan nyan o karen? kala ko ba matagal mo nang di nakakausap bakit nung akala mo nabura lahat ng contacts mo, nung nagsave ka sa phonebook 2 mo, nakuha mo paren yung number nya. 3 bagay lang naman yan eh, memorize mo, nagtext sya, or umeffort ka talaga para malaman pa number nya. sige sabihin na naten na di sya si karen pero she's the only thing that links ou to her. how can i be sure na pagnaguusap kayo about sa inong 2 lang talaga ..o nakakausap mo ba si karen den pagnakakatext mo sya.
tanginang unlimited yan. globe pa yung bagong number ni pamela. bat nga ba nagtagal ka ng konti sa page nya, yung kita yung shoutbox na naglalaman ng bagong number nya. di mo ren naman makikita yung buong page kasi nakalimited view lang pero nagtagal ka, more than it would take for you to look at her face and read some basic profile.
hindi ako pinanganak kahapon wag mo ko gawing tanga.
& our love goes round and round;
10/10/2006 09:58:00 AM
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