light beyond the tunnel

March 24, 2006 Finally, a change of scenery. tomorrow i will be heading to Batangas for RNG trade party. well, its still work, sort of. but at least all i have tos it and listen to an AVP for a few mins, then i can swim and eat and drink and get as wasted as i can. i dont have to pay for my booze or the bed that i'll probably vomit in. ha. poetic justice.

for some reason ive been working non stop for the past weeks. all of our account has suddenly sprung to life. even if there are 2 of us, though i know my partner suffers more than i do, im having a very hard time.

stress stress stress..

my sister says i work too much. rosa did too. do i? i honestly dont think so.

but its good to know that tomorrow, i wont see buildings, but mountains. no man made gardens, but nature's tapestry. it'll be good for me i know. and i deserve a rest, i think. i cried thrice in 2 days. that's pathetic, even for someone like me.

the nego skills seminar was a success by the way. it made me cry, for one. gawdaymit! why cant i freakin control my tearducts. do i need to hang myself upsidedown whenever i feel a tear threatening to fall. its frustrating. and thinking about it make me cry even more. nakakatawa.

im still so much like a beggar now. i hate it. i cant blame her, i was the one who said yes. i could always say no if i want to, but for some reason i cant. i just had to be the good girl. punyeta. now im suffering the consequences. what pisses me off even more is the thought that she might be lying as to where the money went.

pls o pls let it not be spent for her bf or im gonna freak. her bf can live pleasantly while i go through every bag and ask for my sister's extra money just to eat and make sure i have enough money to go to the office and back. its infuriating. and paycheck wont even be here till next week...

show me the money!!!!

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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