this is my december

December 22, 2005 to say that this month has been exhausting is a major understatement. i have been working my ass off (only i think the effect is just the exact opposite) almost non stop for almost the whole December. i cant remember sleeping 7 whole hours. i think im starting to forget some of my friends faces.

but tiring as it is...i still can say that it is a month well spent.

1. i helped in making 3 wonderful xmas party happen (was head in the design committee in 1, but felt like i was in 2, and still part of the design of the third party)

2. im not sure but i think our client was born to drive me crazy. ive been making and remaking reports for them. yes, one client alone. countless were the nights when i travelled alabang or coastal as it starts to turn into ghost town (with lots of those damn big trucks). but still, i managed to make each and every one of those friggin reports. some just in time, some late, some almost too late. stress stress stress. i think my left brain is sprained...

3. i got what i wanted for christmas. give hope to kids, not all kids, but at least im positive theres at least one kid out there who have an unspoken thank you to a faceless nameless me.

4. and i got the other thing i wanted.that will have to do.

yes it was hell, and i have cried more than i would admit. but it was all good. i still find things to smile about. and laugh about too.

life is beautiful, all you have to do is stop and look closer.Ü

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i dont know if my being paranoid has just gone loco, or if this is just coz of PMS (i sure hope so!) but im starting to really worry. its already the 22nd...please visit me soon.

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i have a new friend. and its really nice talking to her. she helps me understand him more. and im thankful. i feel that im not only getting closer to her but to him as well, without him even realizing it.

there are just some things in his pasts that keeps nagging at the back of my mind..bad memories somehow put the puzzle pcs together. it has nothing to do with me. im just really troubled, stories like that always leaves me choked up, it doesnt matter to whom it happens. its just sad. really sad.

and that made me rethink if im loving him enough. enough to fill that void that he has concealed flawlessly from me and those who doesnt know the whole story of his childhood.

i always Knew that there was more to him than what he shows people. but i never thought of this. never. its the mystery that i fell for, and probably what would make me love him even more.

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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