rantings of a travel-err-slash-dreamer-slash-achiever

November 23, 2005 im chatting with my cousin who i think hit the jackpot when he was hired to be one of the crew of Bill Gates' yatch. (i believe ive blogged about him before) he's enjoying the beauty of Galapagos islands (somewhere near ecuador)as i blog...darn him!

just think..he works in laundry, i mean it sounds messy, if it was here. but im sure all he has to do there is collect dirty clothes, put it inside an automatic-computer-controlled-washing machine, it is after all bill gates' yatch. im sure everything would be high-tech. my cousin even has his own laptop (thus chatting).

and its not like the yatch has guests every day...if im not mistaken they only have to work 4 days a week, the rest, they pretty much can do whatever they want. just think, i can go shopping and tour different places, take pictures, learn cultures. that is one job i can really get used to. and believe me, he pays good money. (doy! he can use bills to start fire and it wont be such a loss)

and the celebrity guests..oh my. (oo..showbiz ako!) he said U2 is a regular. hay. im willing to be the anchor scrubber if he'd allow me to. hahaha! i asked my cousin na nga, maybe bill gates gives scholarships...hehehehe!

but really, im looking for sponsors kasi coz i want to study art/music/photography/film/multimedia...i know...they are alot, but those are the things that i really love to do. and i want to improve my craft. i want to travel the world...it doesnt have to be glamorous..id rather it be laid back pa nga eh. backpack trips maybe..that's how you really get to know a place. not like our euro tour before. hay..when will all my dreams come true...

trivia: during our euro tour, one of pinoys we were with are the fernandez family, and yes, juris fernandez herself (MYMP) and i never realized it until about a month ago.. cool.

she sang a few lines for us then and i remembered her mom telling us she was in a band. how the hell should i know that she would turn out to be this big! i mean i knew then she has talent..and she was such a sweet person. but you know, it was just really an inspiration. her dream came true... dreams can come true... and she taught me that without her even knowing it.

now about my dreams...im gonna make them happen..in one way or another. as terence told me once..im still young, i still have so much ahead of me..so world, beware. i was born a dreamer, but was brought up to be an achiever.

animo lasalle!!!! (nye..ni-connect. harharhar)

today i came in a skirt...

November 22, 2005 yes...a skirt..a beige-semi-above-the-knee-skirt. i felt naked

not to mention that it is the time of the month..and the busiest day ever, i had to run around the office like a lunatic, and yes, in a skirt.

i know, i wore skirt all my gradeschool and high school life, but those were long long skirts. (ha! kaya ako napeprefect eh..) those which i can freely wear my basketball shorts or some boxers underneath and no one will know.

o well...im trying to get myself to like skirts. i really am. but it will take a while. and no amount of "it looks good on you" could do it. testosterone wins here.

hehehehe

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as ive mentioned it was one busy day. we had a presentaion at two. would you believe that we ended around 5:30 still with 3 more brands to go (well, technically 2 1/4) good thing i wasnt asked to present..have me make the whole presentation i wont mind. but put me in front to discuss all of it.. oh good luck to you!

and of course we have tons of print ads to check up on, reserve blah blah blah. and miss am's in a shoot so there are times when i have to run errands for her too, not too much though, actually she just called once today and i dont remember having to answer her phone today..maybe she told everyone she'll be out.

and xmas is near..we're having 3 parties..and im part of the design committee on all three...

im not complaining though. its fun to get harrassed sometimes. im just thinking would i have enough time for everything. well i should..so one day at a time..one day at a time...

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hmmmm..this one's getting long. and nothing ive written so far is important. hahahahah! just trying to pass time. 7:30's too early for shuttle riders. the line's probably still hell long, and im not planning to stand there in these heels. if only i had enough money i'd add another starbs sticker to get that damn planner.

but i only have 450 here..till fri...i know...at this rate, id have to walk my way to the office by thursday...good luck.

blah blah blah...

ill see edwin during the long weekend. YEY! we were supposed to watch HP4 but i guess he's not that much into it. well, at least he'll get my full attention that day, and not have to share it with harry or krum or..oh my..cedric. hahahahaha! guess that's best for the both of us.

fine im leaving im leaving...

really...

i am

...

^-^

rock on!

November 21, 2005 when i heard that constantine from american idol's coming to manila, i promised myself that i wouldnt miss it. last thurs, i elbowed my way through squeeling fans to get a closer look (i now regret not having an ayala discount card,,there was a lot more room within the bars..)


as expected, i enjoyed the show, eventhough the camera i borrowed from terence cant get a better pic than this. it was my kind of genre, i had a blast seeing him perform live, and when he sang police's "every little thing (she does is magic)" i thought i was gonna float, and im not sure why.

i was standing beside this large tree trunk covered with xmas lights, for effect i think. i was honestly thinking that had i not been wearing my "killer boots" that night i wouldve given tree climbing a try. hahahaha! and as expected, the clumsy me was on a high, moments later the lights right beside me went out. but the heck i sang right on. hahahahahahaha! come on, it was an accident just waiting to happen.

i got a little irritated by the latter part of the show, but i dont want to ponder on that. im just sad i didnt get to take a picture with him or even his autograph. darn it. i couldve but...ah never mind!

hay..im in love...

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the same night tracey, marns, ice and i decided to meet up. just to try to catch up on things. gawd i miss these girls..i was happy to see them but at the same time sad coz we werent complete. ter and mil are currently in shang-hai (and it'd be months or even years before i see them again..haaaayy) and lex who actually was the person i was supposed to meet up with originally didnt make it coz she has to take care of his dad (dont worry lex, you're still in my prayers.)


its been a while since we've been together, all 7 of us. and i honestly totally miss them. i miss having to talk to them about anything and everything. and have my guard down all the while coz i know they wont judge me. well we are allowed that much needed lait once in a while but it was ultimitely for the best. i miss eating fishballs, cramming storyboards and presentations, shooting videos, tracey's jokes, bloopers...hay i could go on and on here. but the fact of the matter is, i just miss all of them. and accepting that i wont be seeing all of them everyday can be really hard at times, but i guess that's how we can all grow up.

this song wont let me sleep lately

November 18, 2005 Sa tuwing tayo'y magkakalayo
hindi matahimik ang puso ko
bawat sandali hanap kita
'di mapakali hanggang muling makita ka
dahil kung ika'y makita na
labis labis ang tuwang nadarama
magisnan lamang ang kislap ng iyong mata
kahit ano pa ay kakayanin ko na

CHORUS:
Basta't kasama kita
lahat magagawa
lahat ay maiaalay sa'yo
basta't kasama kita
walang kailangan pa
wala nang hahanapin pa
basta't kasama kita

giliw,sana ay ikaw na nga
ang siyang mananatiling kasama ko
dahil kung ika'y mawawala
pati lahat sa buhay ko'y maglalaho
ngunit...(REPEAT CHORUS)

walang kailangan pa
wala nang hahanapin pa
basta't kasama kita

and when i do sleep..stranger dreams haunt me

i think its the third time that ive had this strange dream involving someone who i think i shouldnt be dreaming about in the first place. its wierd actually. especially since this "someone" seems to act like edwin's alter ego or something..

one min, im dreaming of my bf, then a few seconds, in one fluid motion, characters transform, and vua-lah! "someone" takes his place. (yes you'd have to do with me calling him "someone" for the whole duration of this post.

the thing is, it happens right at the best part of my dreams, you know, the climax (not that kind of climax you dirty perves! hehe) like, i get goosebumps because of what's happening (i honestly think i get goosebumps even when im asleep) then when i turn to look and complete the moment..i get goosebumps over my already present goosebumps, if that's even possible. i had force myself to wake up each adn every time.

not that i detest "someone" he is actually a good friend of mine. and that's exactly why, he's a friend. i cant even imagine us being all cuddly in reality, just like in my dreams...oh god. no.

well i guess that clears it. not all your dream boys get to win your heart. most are really just wierd and twisted results when your dreamweaver has gone bezerk

November 17, 2005

November 16, 2005 one of the best things about working in media is being in with the latest. i begin to find myself having passes to the most happening parties. knowing things months before it reaches audiences' eyes and ears. and of course, lots and lots of movie premier tickets.

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, the fourth book by the now famous J.K.Rowling has hit the movie screens. to most people, today, for the lucky few, last monday.

i didn't care if its hard to go home from Powerplant mall, i knew i cant let this one pass. of all the movies that i got invites to, this was one of those which i have been looking forward to the second i finished watching Harry potter and the prisoner of Azkaban. but to be fair to others, ill only blog about it today since you can have the chance to watch it..at least you can try to,. ive heard since last week there had been a long line on ticket reservations for this movie so i bet if your just going to the malls to watch today (especially at ayala malls) you'd be lucky for tom's screening. joke!

anyhoo..how was it? forget about the book for 3 hours and you'll really enjoy it. treat it as an individual film and you wont get somehow frustrated. from what ive read, book 4 was supposed to be a two part movie because it was so long.but the director decided to make it into one, cutting some of the subplots (that's what i think would piss some of if they've read the book)to make it a 3hour movie.

so at movie critic mode, i placed my big bucket of popcorn on my lap as it started to dim. having a new director (again) im concerned that the feel of the whole story would change since each director has his own treatment on things. and it did, but it was a good change. it actually worked for the movie. it shows the transition of the story and its characters. it's more edgy..mature..the movie itself has grown. and i wouldn't have wanted it in any other way..well, a little maybe.

i still feel that they made a wrong move in not establishing most of the characters in the story. most of which has a role in the latter books, lucky for me ive read the book. i know them, but for those who dont really have that thing on reading, it might get confusing. and of course.. the "thing" between ron and hermione, which i think was more "kilig" than cho and harry's, was not really clearly established too. it was sad coz that was what i was waiting for to watch. but then again i have to let go of the book first.so back to the movie.

cinematography and effects were flawless, it shames our technology here by a mile and a half. there were alot of times when i really felt like i was part of the movie. the dragons, the merpeople, the maze, even the goblet was enchanting. and of course, the world cup..maigawd! i was so excited i thought i was gonna pee in my pants. sad though, they cut it right after the intro of Victor Krum. i never did saw a quidditch game again. i so wanted to see that. quidditch was always a treat.

the dark mark was also well made and when the deatheaters attacked i could swear i was at the edge of my seat, specially when harry lost his consciousness and lie helpless on the ground. i know nothing will happen but then again,,i was so in the situation that i so wanted to jump right in, grab harry by the hand and drag him out of the way..clumsy fool. hehehehe! apektado diba..

then the introduction of the other 2 schools..was so friggin cool. the ship, the carriage, the face of ron..PRICELESS.

but another down side, i hate to admit it, but i thought id like it even more if heart played Cho...sorry. not much chemistry there..but we'll see, maybe in the next film.

and i cant seem to get book6 off my head, i loathe snape each time i see his slimy face.its frustrating.

Krum was..well, ok. he was hot, but my imaginary Krum was even hotter. and i didnt get to hear him say "hermioniny" darn it!

Cedric on the other hand exceeded my imagination. he was tall fair and handsome. im in love. of course it broke my heart still coz i know what will happen in the end. but it never did prepare me when it did happen. a tear fell, for crying out loud...and my chest felt heavy afterwards. even the day after watching, i still feel lost. why does he have to die!!!!

hermione too was jaw-dropping. she was so pretty, "natitibo ako" hahahahahaha!

like the other movies, it was funny and mysterious and magical..but as ive said, it also became more mature. it had my heart racing at some points, fear or kilig or both. it was darker and more brutal. a little less symbolic than book 3 but nevertheless as enchanting.

fine. enough..or i wont stop. go watch it guys. its worth 120, really.

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue

November 15, 2005

November 11, 2005 when i woke up this morning, dragging my feet and bumping my soar body on everything solid, i thought it was going to be another hell-raising-sucking-every-ounce-of-life-out-of-you-day. the kind that would have me crying of frustration even before the sun sets.


but today had a treat for me.


the girl in silver shoes.

isabella..


she came out of nowhere..witty as hell this kid. and she has questions that you dont know how to answer, like...why is mickey mouse always sleeping (she's talking about her pillow). her honesty and innocence is refreshing. i seem to forget all the other things that went wrong in my life lately.

i didnt mind her taking over my desk.not at all..




how i wish there would always be a kid around here..work wont seem that much like work when there are kids around, who can make you cry, not of frustration but of laughter, with absolutely 0 effort.

hay..i wonder what it'd be like when i have my own kid..not that im planning to have one soon..just thinking what a riot it would be. hehehehe!

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue

Bora in a mutated-extralarge-nutshell

November 07, 2005 i dont have a tan..(ive been under the sun every afternoon since we got there..no use!)
i didnt get to try the 15shots at cocomanggas..(i found chillin at the beach more appealing this time)
i forgot to bring a journal/sketchpad..and it was hard to draw on napkins.

but then...

i overused my cousin's camera..(pix to follow)
i drank my happy horse under the stars..
i went 30ft below sea level..
i met up with old friends...
and made new ones..
i walked the whole 3 stations in one morning...
i refreshed my skill in "tawaran"...
i had 3 jona's shake...
i had to be roped in when i got too far from the boat while enjoying our snorkeling..(the current was fierce..)
ive been a hammock-hog...
ive been a good girl..hehehe!
i finally got to rest and revive my spirit..

and yes..i still missed you...

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue

BIG deal..not..

yes, i am once again on the fat side..people, we do have mirrors at home, ive noticed that and surely more than you do since im the one whose finding it hard to fit on my semi-new clothes i bought just this summer. so get over it..

i mean what's the big friggin deal? so i gained pounds, its normal since i eat, most of the time a lot. i know that. and im not really ashamed about it...what can i do, im only human...i get hungry...i crave...i enjoy foodtrips...and i never say no to a free meal. and sadly im given that gene which makes me proportional to what i eat. THUS the weighing scale's current reading.

dont get me wrong, im not angry or anything. i even laugh whenever someone comments on how much ive gained weight. its just that, sometimes i feel like im no longer just laughing with them, its more like they're just laughing at me, and im like a crazy buffoon amusing myself with god-knows-what.

i just dont see why my weight is such a big deal to others when i couldnt care less. i mean, it doesnt make me any less of a woman. its not like my brains are miraculously transforming into fatflabs every few mins.

my only concern is that i cant run anymore. at least not like before, and that scared me. but i have resolved that gaining a few pounds is not the only culprit. i have been kinda lazy, to that i admit. and that's why i try to eat more healthy..

take note..healthy. im in no prescription diet. i still eat 3 whole meals a day with snacks in between. i just always try to add fiber to what i eat since that's what i lack. and of course, add to the gallons of water i consume everyday. and i have promised myself that i will continue kicking me ass to go to the gym until i have regained at least my 12min non stop jog minimum on the treadmill (would you believe i get tired in just 4mins..f*ck)

that actually was the trigger for me. 4mins...darn it. no wonder i get tired easily. my stamina went plummeting to the ground. in basketball, id be dead meat. me no likey.

so i run, i dance, and i try not to sleep inside the sauna..not just to get thinner..thin is not always equal to healthy/fit. i aim for the latter. and me, of all people, know that i dont have to go under 100 to say that im fit. ive been 125 and still can run nonstop (my college friends can attest to this...i can still play a whole 10mins of basketball twice then play 3 on 3 afterwards with a satisfying smile on my face)

so what's my point here...oh nothing much really. i just wish people who are getting nasty and hurtful comments about their figure somehow get to read this. YOU DONT HAVE TO BE SEXY TO BE BEAUTIFUL, DEAR...you have to accept and love yourself, that way you'll know how to take care of it, coz at the end of the day, that's all that really matters..really.

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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