this too shall pass..

June 28, 2005 im so choked up right now, someone can stab me smack in the heart and i wont even notice it..id probably still be thinking of things as i take my last breath.

my problems might be small...but they come in hundreds..ok fine..in tens..and to anyone, that has got to be the worst combination of all. its so overwhelming that i find myself frequently visiting the wash room..not to wash but to cry..

you know me..the ever crybaby..but i cry most when i feel helpless..and helpless is just one of the things that i am now.

and i should be happy...that's what bugs me the most...it is after all our 17th month..i always knew that 17th would be memorable..but not like this..

i so want to just disappear right this very moment..or just hide out under his skinny arms (hehehe...nanlait paren)

but still..i want to believe that there is hope..that i can get through this somehow..i always do...as the song goes.."He wont give me what i cant take.." right??

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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