who gets to laugh last?

February 27, 2005 if you've been with me for a while, you'd know how many plans i have for my future..things i want to have, silly dreams and goals to achieve..its like, i dont only have a plan B, it goes all the way to plan Z..even more. and..it wouldnt be a secret to anyone. i am fond of telling people what i plan to do, not naman to get them to envy me..but actually to inspire them to to dream also.

but lately, people, mostly those close to me had been making fun of this. as in literally laughing..if not, pulling me down. i hear many..

"andami naman..eh baka nga matanda ka na sa mga mama mo parin ikaw nakatira"

"condo pa ha..sino magbabayad sila mama mo?"

"eh wala ka pa nga trabaho eh, andami mo na pinaplano, kumita ka muna!"

"kaya mo kaya..baka matanda ka na baon ka parin sa utang"

"ano nga ba ulit pinaggraduate-an mong course? advertising..anong trabaho mo nun?" (with the sympathetic tone, mind you)

"alam mo bang pinakamatalino dito sa amin ang papa mo! di na nag-aaral yan pero sya parin pinaka-mataas..ikaw ba nakuha mo ba sa kanya yun?"

"wala ka parin bang trabaho..eh baka naman jan ka nalang sa kwarto lagi"

i would always just smile and try to brush it off. i know they dont mean anything bad about what they say,, or with making a joke out of my dreams..its just that..for it to be happening for too many times, its starting to bug me. if they have nothing good to say, why dont they just stop putting me down and just shut up? i know most of my plans can be really unrealistic, and yes, i dont have the brian of my father, but please..theses dreams are all i have..why wont you just let me be?

sometimes i wanted to believe them..but then i opted for the better choice, i use all their criticisms and tauntings to push me to strive harder. i HAVE to prove them wrong. i HAVE to have the last laugh. if not for them, at least for me.. i refuse to submit to what they think of me--or stay the same way coz they say i couldn't do any better.

yes, maybe to them i am a disappointment.. that they very much have clearly shown me. but that doesnt make me one, so i found out. they can say what they want, think what they want.laugh their heads off if they please..but i am going to succeed--in one way or another.

the trouble with other people is, they take these things the bad way not realizing that they're just taking excess baggages. just because people tell you that you are one thing, it doesnt neccessarily mean that that's all you can ever be.

the beauty of living your life is that you can make it into any way you want it to be..not because other people say that's the way you should live it..but because you want it to be exactly like that. but most people settle for less than what they want, what they deserve.and i pity them, for not taking the challenge and facing up to life.people forget that living passionately is the only way to go.. and that's the sure way to not just have the last laugh..but also end up being happy.

take me to the beach please...

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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