mo money mo problem...

January 21, 2005 i hate to admit it but most of the time..money does make the world go round.. sometimes, people would compromise their happiness just so they can have security and stability...like in getting jobs for example. surely everyone here had gone through that "i-want-to-be-a-*whatever*" phase in their life..specially when we were kids..when a peso was like gold, and ambitions seemed attainable.

then, we think of what we want, where we would be happy..as far as i can recall, my kid sister wanted to be a policewoman or a veterenarian, my other kid sister wanted to be a firefighter...i..cant remember what exactly it was that i wanted to be..i change my mind easily...but remember singer, dancer and a painter (which of course made my mom mad..i think soon after..she pushed me to want to become a doctor..good thing i never did took the bait.)

our reason were simple..we like what we would be doing..and in whatever way..we can help people. heroic.. innocent.. so like a child.

then we grow up.

we learn the value of money.

a peso cant fill you're stomach.

its every man for himself.

then we learn about money some more.

and the more we learn, the more we can think of ways to use it.

that money can be equated to power.

or so we were taught.

as much as i want to deny it..i cant. it is something that i take into consideration. its not just about being happy anymore..its about being practical.. so how much are you willing compromise for security and stability? is it even worth it?

i like to think of it this way.. you cant always get what you want when you want it.. but you can work for it, eventhough it would take time.. and sometimes you do have to take risks, make certain compromises..but never EVER forget about that dream, that although it took the backseat for a while, it doesnt mean that it should stay that way forever.. there is a time for everything.

like now for instance. my short term goal is to work, buy everything that i want but still save enough money..i want to make sure that i can stand on my own, that i wont have to be dependent on anybody else. sure, id be lucky if id still get what i want and what i need..but that rarely happens..and you should deal with it. this way, i can prepare myself for my long term goal...and that is to have a family.

just think about it..if i am stable enough..then i can marry whoever i love..not someone who can assure me of security and stability for life. i dont want to settle for anything less than what i think i deserve..ive heard less and less circumstances when 2 people get married because of love..real love..and not for any other reason.. call me oldfashioned, but for me that's the only way to go..marry for love and love alone...

coz if you do, you will be happy. you dont have to force yourself to learn to love someone..it comes naturally. it is what you live for. maybe by then you still dont have the job that you want..your still stuck in that suck-y excuse for a job of yours..but wouldnt it be nice though to come home to the loves of your life? and just think..you're not alone anymore. you can persue your dreams, and the best part is that you have your family behind you..and rest assured that whatever happens, no matter how silly your dream is to the world..they'd be there to support you, to inspire you to realize that silly dream.

Disclaimer:
due to interaction, beach and sunlight deprivation, the blogger could say or type things that may not be normally read or heard from her.the names of people, places, and situations are all created from the loose and badly beaten fragments of the blogger's dysfunctional, jumbled up brain, put together to come up with someting coherent enough for viewers amusement. similarities to real life are purely coincidental.Cigarettes can kill.No to animal testing.

---ok...i tried...but being too serious just isnt for me. hahahahahahahahaha!

take me to the beach please...

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so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

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still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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