December 31, 2004 i think our whole household would agree that the world would be much more peaceful if i were isolated for a week or so before i raise the red flag. i define PMS. mind you, ive been trying really hard not to snap or bite someone's head off for days now...but i almost always fail. its like i-dont-know-how-to-speak-without-being-sarcastic, i-hate-the-world-and-everyone-else-in-it, dont-dare-talk-to-me-or-ask-me-stupid-questions, look-at-me-or-go-near-me-you're-dead kinda deal. i scare myself sometimes.

i dont usually make a big fuss about things. someone looks or sounds stupid, i laugh. someone tries to bug me, i just sip my coffee and smile... but now its almost automatic..i HAVE to be a bitch..i tried to calm that inner bitch but it wont succumb..and every little thing, even how my cousin feeds her animals on our harvestmoon game in the PS, bugs me...a bit over the top? girl, ive only just begun.

^^*

someone from friendster sent me this message...and in case you'd wonder, NO we're not dear friends...i dont even know him. this is his second message actually, i didnt reply on the first one,, so maybe that's the reason why he felt the need to message me again and tell me about himself in such a......i dont even have a word for it way. just...read.... and allow me to let the page bleed

Hello dear friend [i aint have the slightest idea how]
Now let me tell you about my self[or why]
I live in Pakistan (in the North West Part of The
Country) my city name is Peshawar. It is the
Historic city, it is the Gate Way to central Asia.[and...so?]
I am also University Student and I my Field of
study is Telecommunication Engineering, now I am
in my final Term of Education and hope so that my
education will be finished this September. [can i just not comment about his english now...it would be too exhausting]I am
also doing job from last 1 year in an ISP
(Internet Services Provider)[he had the guts to put that there...man i know what ISP is!] I am manager Wireless
systems, and I deal in all the Wireless Equipments
and Technologies.
Now I will tell you about my family [ur killing me]I have 3
sisters and 2 bothers I am the elder one, my other
brother is also university student and he is doing
Master in Business Administration, my sister is
also university student and she is a student
Genetic Engineering, my other 2 sister are college
student and younger brother is in school.[di mashadong detalyado]
I love music , you can also say that with out
music I am incomplete I can live with out Air,[cge nga] but
with out music it is impossible Smile,[i guess he meant Ü] also I
love traveling and every year in summer vacation I
use to go to Far areas of my country, I use to
travel alone because my friends say about me that
I am crazy, [i dont blame them]because I use to travel in forest and
jungles for days to find good place and than I
will tent [uhmmmm...never mind]there and will stay there to enjoy the
natural beauty[i guess that's supposed to be the beauty of nature] and than will go ahead. I also read
book , I like to read about history, about great
people and new things, I also write poetry and
some time short stories.
I want to have many friend and it dont matter to
me to that from where they belong, [its where you belooonggg~ GMA~~~]because I have
a faith that God made some one for me and I will
found her one day, [hold on to your seats people...]who knows where she is may be
she is around me, may be she is some where else,
may be that girl is you Smile [*scream* dundun--dundun--dundun--dundun]who know, where
she is. But I am hope full that I will found her
one and she will be the most Beautiful Girl
because she will be for me and I will be for her.[O...K...]
I will marry once in life and will give all my
love to my wife. I am of the opinion that the real
love start after marriage.[and so he goes on..]
About my future plans I want to have a wife and
kids and my life will be surrounded by them, they
will be my universe. I want to have 4 childrens.[kailangan apat ha!!ikaw nalang manganak]
you know I love kids they are so cute and innocents [parang...wala]
my opinion about the women or girl is that she
must be sincere , caring , loving , friendly, and
intelligent because an intelligent mother can give
good care to her childrens.[everyone is entitled to his own opinion naman diba??]
I will send you my picture about my look , from my
face I look like a very serious person but I am
very friendly person always smile on my face for
friends.[huuuuuuu...help me.]

You Can Call me at My home No: +9291842364
My Mobile number NO: +923005820549.
OR via My Messengers
Yahoo Messenger: smart_kamran79@yahoo.com
msn Messenger: Kamran_irtiash@hotmail.com
U Can Call me any time on my mobile & at home U
Can Call me at night after 10 Pm Pakistan Time[oh diba...DEMANDING ANG LOLO MO..may sched pa.]


--oh please...like id fall for that crap. he cant even speak straight english..sure i want to be someone's "universe" but not his thank you very much. now the idea of soulmates gives me goosebumps..and i mean that in a very bad way.

he's really scaring me...he's actually discussing his plans for the future!! i had to force myself to get up and go as far away from the computer as possible..just to gather myself. i wanted to reply but i know what ill just say..it wont be pretty..why oh why did he have to send me this now...right smack in the middle of my PMS days..WHY ME??

well i did succeed on keeping my mouth shut..at least to him...but i just HAD TO BLOG ABOUT THIS...or else id go mad!

am i a bitch? oh, i know i am...

im bored..what's your excuse??

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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