March 06, 2004 the worst has come...his cellphone got stolen! ampoota! the only thing that i could use to somehow reach him..and now its gone!? all i could do now is wait for him to text me..from whoever's phone...i dont even know what's happening to him now..i feel so helpless..and im half expecting that we'll end up breaking up..but i really dont want to..if i have to walk the aisle of baclaran church on my knees..i will. hahahahaha! wala lang..you know what they say, that you wont know how important someone is to you until you cant reach him anymore, or you dont feel his presence anymore...EKSAKTO!i feel empty..stupid as it may sound..i really do.

that's why i decided i had to go somewhere..i need to get out of the house at least..kahit saglit lang!! good thing my sister wanted to make fridge cake, we ran out of condensed milk..so i went to a mall to buy her one, and besides, i need a change of atmosphere..a pink square room is not good for me right now..stayed there for a few hours then went home since no one knew i went out except of course for my sisters.

i was talking to my friend a while ago and told her what happened..she told me "pano yan cia, para ka na ren nawalan ng bf.." NOT HELPING!! i want to talk to him now but of course i dont know how..i was even sooo stupid to tell him that i have an extra sim when he told about what happened to his cell..then i suddenly realized...so what if i have an extra sim..what's the use of a sim if he doesnt have a phone! ambobo! what, pag tinitigan nya yung sim baka nga naman magring eh no? nakakainis!

panic na kasi ko e..even his sister's cell was taken by that sonofabitch! he said someone mustve reached in from the window and took the 2 cellphones on the table..

fuck! fuck! fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!!!

i wanna kill whoever took their cell! i swear! pag nalaman ko kung sino yun..kahit siguro patawarin nila..ako..SASAPAKIN KO!!! leche sya!

but you know what..im more scared than im frustrated...scared that this might trigger what ive been fearing since the moment we became "us" i dont want to lose him because of this..pero san naman kasi kami pupulutin..ganto, di na nga nagkikita, now, yung kaisa-isang way na narereach ko sya wala na! i just hope he doesnt give up..sana ako ren...pero i doubt that i will..im a fighter..at least, i think i am..

[to fall in love is to lose control..damn right! 28^ ]

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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