March 17, 2004 just when i got everything figured out...just when im soooo excited...fate just gotta bite my ass...

yeah yeah..i still dont know what gift to give him..but that's really nothing..i can go there empty handed..all i really wanted was to see him..that's all...tell me, IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?!?!

a while ago, sir dennis posponed our "presentation" for admedia, which at first was ok, since its only wednesday..we can present on friday..the plan is still intact, right? go and meet him on his bday, which is this comiong monday..

but hell no! whoever said that you dont always get what you want should be burned on the stakes!

turns out, we have a guest speaker coming this friday...so the presentation was then again moved to..yeah..you guessed right..MONDAY!! and of course, it is such a BIG DEAL so i really have to go to class.. WHYYYY?!?!

fine, i cant hold this against anyone, even our payoyo clown look-alike prof. edwin's bday is no holiday, sir doesnt know..and even if he did, SO WHAT?! yeah..so what to him...but what about me?? =[

now allow me to repeat myself...all i want is to be with him on his bday..IS THAT JUST TOO MUCH TO ASK?!?!?!?!

i feel disoriented...i lost my organizer (the one marns gave me..my only salvation from returning to my ever forgetful and unorganized self)

i also need 1000 by friday, kat's future is on my hands. see i owe her money, which she told me, i could pay little by little...and then suddenly, she needs it..in 2 days, coz if i dont produce it, she cant take her final exams on monday. she's exactly 1000 short for her last installment.. what, do i poop hundred peso bills??

well, yeah, its my obligation, im the one who owes money, right? im not mad at her for demanding money, i mean, she should might also be under pressure now..its just that..ive got a lot of things in mind lately, and this?? NOT HELPING!!

add my low grades this term..i dont know what has gotten into me..its like my brain just short circuited or something! this term isnt that hard...ive had a lot of harder subjects before, and study or not, i do just fine..but now..study or study..i suck! infos go in and out of my head just like that..i sometimes call it "dory syndrome" which was funny at first.. but now that i feel the effects of it, its killing me! is this the effects of info overload? do i need to reboot??

i know some might say that its enough that i pass..well in this household...its not! give me a 2.0 and my mom wont stop blabbering..the thing is...i have the whole summer to hear her saying over and over and over

"grades define you..how do you expect to land on a good job with grades like this??? how can i help you if i cant show something good about you? employers only look at grades..that's all there is. i have friends blah blah blah, but how can i recommend you to them with these grades???"

they make it sound that i have DISAPPOINTMENT tattooed on my forehead...well my dad told me i was..imagine how unworthy that must've felt like. i cried till i cant breath anymore. your own dad..calling you a disappointment...

here i go again...i shouldn't really talk about this here..but its just too suffocating at times, i just want to shout..in this case...type my fingers off...

--just spoke to kat on the phone...guess who she said wanted to have a fling with her..james yap..yep. THE JAMES YAP! as in the basketball player from UE..lucky bitch! hahaha! hey..i dont hate her..i repeat I DONT HATE HER! its just that...she's having so much fun, her life's near perfection while mine is..well..shit. lucky..oh so lucky!but i am happy for her..really..i like paul artadi better kasi! hahahahaha! if it were him, damn id be throwing a fit right now!

haaaaay* there's only one person in this world who can make everything alright..and he...still havent texted me! dont go "why dont you text him" on me..let me remind you..its not his cellphone..what if his sister's using it..hmmmmm...let me rewind that..not for you..but for me.. its not his cellphone.. ok that settles it.

let me end with what william hung said at american idol a while ago (yes..the one and only She Bangs guy!)

"i struggle with everything that i do in my life..But what you got to understand is that...Everyone sturggles for them to succeed"

that guy is just too C-U-T-E!!!

news flash! 11:02pm he texted..hahahahaha!

im bored..what's your excuse??

random dashboard

so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

behind the wheel

still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

traffic jam

linkages

[pblog][more pictures]

[ciox] [maan] [chA] [michellE] [russ] [marns] [rJ] [tiN] [elainE] [pontifF] [mye] [jumie] [ate sunit] [ana banana] [chi ulit] [angge]

[pajammy] [jessica zafra] [post secret] [howie severino] [ala-ism] [jim paredes] [mitch dulce] [intrigero] [scotland]

[papu] [myiE] [lara] [kayE] [maky] [raece] [caffeine_rush] [the_paradox] [weird_spag] [noside] [k_Ann] [pesteng_ahem] [sabitskipoint] [claudine] [carlo] [shai] [jassy] [rc] [mai] [bubay] [koolotitay]

on reverse

12/03 01/04 02/04 03/04 04/04 05/04 06/04 07/04 08/04 09/04 10/04 11/04 12/04 01/05 02/05 03/05 04/05 05/05 06/05 07/05 08/05 09/05 10/05 11/05 12/05 01/06 02/06 03/06 04/06 05/06 06/06 07/06 08/06 09/06 10/06 11/06 12/06 01/07 02/07 03/07 04/07 05/07 06/07 07/07 08/07 09/07 10/07 11/07 12/07 01/08 02/08 03/08 04/08 05/08 06/08 07/08 08/08 09/08 10/08 11/08 12/08 01/09 02/09 10/09 12/09 08/10  

GPS system

this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

credits

1 & 2