January 26, 2004 im here at a complab somewhere in lasalle..just thought since i got nothing to do and time to waste, might as well make good use of the costly lab fees i pay this institution each term..so..stumbled upon this quiz..thought that i should share it.




there you go...damn this PC's slow..now i only got about 10 mins or so..hehe! guess ill just add more later..=p there's the bell...if you could call that a bell..more of a...sound? hahahahaha! melody! the hell do you care! hehe! l8rz! mwah*

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January 25, 2004 im missing someone i shouldnt miss (bad!) =[ this is crazy..definitely..i want to see him..be with him..feel him beside me..im trying to shut him out of my system but to my dismay..i fucking cant!! i know that it cant go anywhere from here...but deep within im actually hoping it would..and its so frustrating to hope for something that you know can and will never be?! im creating my own cross again so to speak..i dont like what im feeling..im scared coz i might actually be beginning to fall for this guy.. not another dead end relationship..im sick and tired of those..please please..save me! why cant i fall for someone normal..someone who's not complicated to work a relationship with..you know..someone who live near here?!?!?! i need a drink .. i definitely need a drink!!!

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for those of you, if there are any, who are reading this..if you have a friendster account..or myspace..ADD ME!! HJEHEHEHE! ciara mojica..orayt??

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read "by the river piedra, i sat down and wept" lately..uhmmm..its ok..i mean..it would have been the perfect "ouch! is this book written to tell the story of my life" book if it were'nt too ... how do i put this..religious..hey, dont get me wrong here, its not that i dont like God or anything..its just that, after i took philosophy, i had a lot of doubts about things..one of which is our religion..sorry..but things like that happen sometimes. well anyways..there were parts in that book when i just wanted to stop and throw it! not that it sucks..but because..as ive said..its a "ouch! is this book written to tell the story of my life" book..almost..hehe! like when the guy said.. i know you dont love me, but im still going to fight for you..coz there are some things worth fighting for..or something to that effect..and there's this one time that the girl described love..wait..let me get the book..ayt? here you go:

"it's risky, falling in love."

"i know that," I answered. "i've been in love before. it's like a narcotic. at first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. the next day you want more. you're not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things. you think about the person you love for two minutes, and forget them for three hours.
but then you get used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. if there's nothing there, you feel like an addict who cant get a fix. and just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you're willing to do anything for love."

(blah blah blahs..and the best part of it all...)

"so we should love only those who can stay near us," I said.

waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! huhuhuuuuuuuu... i told you...i told you this book was written for me...specially the last part...fuck! >= (

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January 15, 2004 "if two people are meant to be together..it doesn't mean that they are meant for each other NOW...."

I FUCKING HOPE YOU'RE RIGHT! HAHAHAHAHAHA! damn...well..when i read that on my friend's phone, i was like..oh..really??hehe! guess im still hoping that things would work out with either of the guys i have hanging around me..hehehe..note that i said either..well, of course, i like one of them better but the other one really have potential you know..i dont want to close the door this early on...if you know what i mean. if who im meant to be is ..... then i guess it'd be soooo good.. i guess he'll be wait the wait. i meant ive been waiting for almost 3 years now, what's another lifetime? hahahaha! nah..im not sure if we're going anywhere..yeah yeah yeah...he told me how he feels..but hte thing is..he didn't do anything about that feeling..cant even fight for it for crying out loud! or is it that he meant it when he said that what he wants is that if we're gonna be together, he'd want to make sure that he's what i deserve.. (all together now... aaaaawwww...) im not sure though what "someone that i deserve.." exactly means..hehe! but its good to know that ive made him a better person without even realizing it..his whole clan likes me,said it was good that i was there,i dont know why..and the thing is...they know me?? all of them!? (believe me..you cant imagine how many they are) i dont even know half of them..but somehow they know me..and the freakiest (and somehow the sweetest) thing is..im known as "the girl of his dreams" i swear that's what they call me..ang pinapangarap ni ... damn..is he for real? hahahaha! im more like a nightmare! hahahahahahaha! i dont think i can live up to that..he thinks toooooo highly of me...could i really be .. that?? hahahaha! i dont think so..but nevertheless..t'was sweet..in a sick..demented way. hahahahaha! hey! its not always that you meet someone who thinks that you're worth that much right? but really..even without knowing that.. i really like this guy..eversince..i dont know..there's something about him that leaves me wanting more..you know what i mean?? and damn can he smile...hehehehehe! well..let's just see..if this dream of ours is one that'll come true..=]

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January 10, 2004 to that person who said that "when God closes a door, he opens a window" .. UR A GENIUS! hehe! i couldn't have said it better myself. and the best part is..there may only be one door..but note that there are A LOT of windows. hehehe! ain't it funny how you think that after you've been hurt you'd be hurt for a long long time..then after just a few hours..someone comes "tapping on the window" and suddenly, you cant even remember you ever cried..its like *poof* im ok! hehehe! and the thing is, as ive said, there are a lot of windows..damn good windows..hehehe! life is good..so good! i love it when im single..im free to do what i want without having to ask for permission or report every min of my day or think about how someone would react if im with another guy..and of course there's the fun in trying the many fishes of the great blue sea.."so many men..so little time" hehehe! my mourning days are over..or was it mourning hours? or even minutes? hehehehe! well people.. the bitch is back in business! most definitely!! =]

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didnt come to class yesterday..went to town center..you know..just chill. i was with kat and yula..nuff said. those who knows how rowdy those two can be knows what im talking about. once again, the people strolling around the mall isn't safe from us..hehehe! the usual, we talked nonsense, smoked, ate pretty much everything, looked for cute guys, make fun of those non cute ones. (hehe) then at about 6:30, we all went home (my mom knows that i only got class till 6, so i should be home by 7 or so..)then talked on the phone till the wee hours. hehe! you might be thinking what can we talk about, we were together just minutes ago..honestly..nothing! hahahahaha! sometimes, were not even talking, we just have the reciever on our ear..i dont know why...hehe! well anyways, besides that, as usual, im texting (they're starting to call me "daliri" because of that..the heck!) just loaded 100, i think i only have like about 30 this morning..and i only have 2 textmates last night..im sorry but they're just too cute and sweet..i cant stop!yeah, they're guys..what do you expect? hahahaha! i just kept texting and texting and texting... what a wonderful world~ hahahahahahaha!

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January 08, 2004 it hurts to realize that the person you were fighting for gave up on u that easily..but what the heck...if he doesn't want to, i cant force him. better know that early on than have me waiting for a long time, then it'll still end with him leaving me hanging...well then people! dont whack me!! hehehe! fine, it hurts..i mean that has potential if given the chance..but if he doesnt want to, then fine... now i wont feel guilty...i can fall in love~ with....~ hehehehe

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first day of classes..well actually it was the second, but for me it was the first..hehehehe! bucotax was fine..at least he was funny..and he gives a lot of bonus points..as in A LOT!! i do hope id do good this term...ny CGPA went down last term..damn! so gotta do good now! sir dennis is not here yet..father died..so sad..it'll take a while for him to return. he gave this essay thing..f*cking question?! i didn't know what i'd answer..i pretty much put whatever came to mind mind that instant..which was bullsh*t to be honest with you..then there's adraphy...i thought it'd be fun, taking pictures and everything..then the prof entered..prof as old as time was more like it!! he was old..too old i think...and he was sooooo slow..one hour seemed like forever, and the thing is, that's a 3 hour class..so that would be..forever times three???? hell!!! haaaayyy... i dont think im going to class tomorrow... i just dont feel like it..hehehehe! who's gonna stop me?? =Þ

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January 07, 2004 it's getting worse everyday..why oh why does he have to be like that??=[ i cant help but like him more and more..huuuuuuuu..if this goes on..im in biiiiggg trouble..really..i am?! help me! things turned upside down so suddenly. now i cant go through the day without hearing something from him..he's just what i need now..super sweet.. hay..help me im falling~ falling fast again~ =[



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January 06, 2004 The question of the day:
"how can something that's soooo wrong feel soooooooooooooo right..=["

somebody whack me on the head..NOW!! please!!

this is not right..but i cant seem to stop myself..is this worth throwing everything i have now? is he worth it??or am i just being stupid..damn! somebody straighten things up for me please??? im on the verge of falling for another guy..the thing is..im supposed to be inlove with someone else?! what's happening to me??? this is not good..not good at all...but is it my fault? where is he??not even a simple hi from him..and this other guy...let's put it this way, i just loaded 100 last night..by this morning my load was down to 29...and now..i dont even want to cheq...hehehe...this is not good..not good at all!!!! =[ im back to my old self again..nooooooooooooooo.....hahahahaha! dont wanna be a playah no more.. orayt i do..hahahaha! i told you this is bad..bad bad bad...

[don't hate the player, hate the game!]

January 04, 2004 t'was my birthday yesterday..so was it happy?let's see..jay-r greeted me (and damn i wanted to cry on the spot. hahahaha!i could dieeee) had some people over..got drunk(i still cant believe that my dad actually offered to buy our drinks..is the world about to end??after the many fights over my drinking habit, here they are, providing the goods..damn!)..and that's about it. hahahaha! joke! it was fun..i mean im with my friends..and that could only mean trouble!! hehe! oh..im 19! IM 19!!! HAHAHAHA! i wish i could elaborate but i cant..i just cant..whatever happened during that night remains there...but let me just say..what a way to begin the year..HAPPY birthday indeed..hehe!


here's a picture of me and mah sistah after two bottles of tequila. hahahaha!! damn! im still good..it was red horse that got me..damn!!
[don't hate the player, hate the game!]

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so you wont have a hard time buying gifts for me this christmas, here's my long list: (i know, ang aga)

1. Macbook
2. DSLR Camera
3. Diving Equip (in this order: mask, snorkel, fins, wetsuit, regulator, BCD, tank)
4. Dive trip (tubataha or kota k or apo reef or palau...keri na hehe)
5. Shopping spree at Ross/Home depot/Target
6. shoes, any kind with heels not higher than 2" (im 7 1/2)
7. my first ever havaianas (brazzziiiilllll)
8. a beanbag or a cool comfy chair
9. flat screen TV, hehe.
10. a year supply of booze (if beer, RH lang pls)
11. Art materials (any medium, from crayons and coloring books to canvass and acrylics)
12. Drumset or Kahon. (wlang pilosopo)
13. Oven. i want to bake.
14. punching bag and gloves
15. a leather basketball.


Of course, Money is always the best. that way you know i will get what i really want.

And look at it this way, if you give me any of my top 5, i can consider that as an early bday gift as well. hehe :)

Pa-Fedex nalang ah, PM me for my address hehehehe! thanks dear santa clauses!

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still the same ciara, just with more work and longer messier hair. ah and yes, a certified diver now, not that i have the time and money to dive anyway. maybe by november/december/january soon.

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this is my way to stalk all you readers. mwahahahahahahaha! coolness!

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